Kaulah Pelukis Hidupku

In the midst of still having flu and back pain...all the medication taken and smells of ointment...makes my brain slow down but makes me more in touch of my heart....

somehow despite lots of dateline,busyness and demands of me...work that is killing my brains...i have time to think...all i need is not rest...is not time...is not strength...But HIS hands...

when our heart grow tired..our heart withers....our heart gone far...some how deep inside we long to have something refreshening....something that can make us feel free....

have to admit there are lot's of fear in this heart...lot's of questions in this mind....?can i ...?could i...?what would i do...?how can i...?what will happen...?how am i...?

the title Kaulah Pelukis HIdupku..was adapt from this song..

Lagu: Kau Penulis Hidupku (sidney mohede)

Kaulah Penulis Hidupku
Kau Membuat S'galanya Baru
Engkau Di Dalamku
Dan Ku ada Dalam-Mu
Tak Ada Yang Tak Mungkin Bagi-Mu

Ku Dicipta Untuk-Mu'
Tuk Membawa Harum Nama-Mu
Engkau Di Dalamku
Dan Ku ada Dalam-Mu
Kini Kudatang Mencari Wajah-Mu

Mengasihi-Mu S'lalu
Dengan S'genap Hatiku
Mencintai Seluruh Perbuatan-Mu
Mengabdikan Hidupku
Sesuai Rencana-Mu

Ku Mau Menyembah-Mu
Sampai Akhir Hayatku

Kau Memahami Hatiku
Hanya Kau Yang Mengertiku S'lalu
Engkau Di Dalamku
Dan Ku ada Dalam-Mu
Kini Ku Datang Mencari Wajah-Mu

i change it to pelukis cos i think this life is so colourful...sometimes it's red hot..and mad..sometimes it's blue and soothing...green that is so free...yellow so alarming....but u can call it wat you want..cos we were made so unique....

we may not understand what our live is all about....

sometimes we don't understand why people do things...sometimes when we needed the most something...needed the most someone...nobody is just there to help....nobody is just there to say everything would be ok...or maybe a simple hi, how are you..?

But always.. :

Sampai Akhir Hayatku
Kau Memahami Hatiku
Hanya Kau Yang Mengertiku S'lalu
Engkau Di Dalamku
Dan Ku ada Dalam-Mu
Kini Ku Datang Mencari Wajah-Mu

Kini Ku Datang Mencari Wajah-Mu....

Fudnote: ahhh...it wud be nice if i cud lie down in a hammock at the beach....