Bila sudah masa untuk mengaku...!!

haish tengok topik macam serius kan....memang serius lah ini...macam mana mo cakap ah...kalo korang baca post2 seblum ni makin jiwang....hari hari mkin jiwang....

macam mana ah korang mo terima kenyataan tentang diri sendiri....

tentang perasaan di hati atau kesedaran hati?? macam mana ah?

memang sedar pun selama ni ...tapi cuba menafikan ...standed lah selalu in the state of denial saja...selalu cakap tidak.... tidak....

tapi jauh di hati memang tau... dan memang sedar....

tapi apa bila org disekitar sudah mulai bercakap dan mulai mengesyak...i think it's about time to admit it....

tapi korang mesti paham keadaan k...mesti put yourself in my shoes...ini tindakan reflex...semua tindakan di luar kawalan .... i just can't help it.....

k lah got to admit.....

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DAH GEMUKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haiyo baru balik dari meeting semua org dalam meeting cakap i dah GEMUK....darnnnnnnnnnn....i knew this time wud come.....!!

lepas ni mesti p jog lah sama berpuasa sama displin diri...!

Kau masih ku cintai...

kau masih ku cintai.....sungguhhhhhhhhhh...

dari awal





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NASI LEMAK

haiyah....pagi2 sudah mengidam nasi lemak.....demmit

Nasi Lemak membunuh ku....

aduh hari2 makan makan makan.........
HELPPPPPPPPPPP............i think i am addicted to nasi lemak againnnnnn...have to stopppppppppp....gotta stop this..rasanya tiba masa utk p jogging dan berpuasa sekali lagi...!!
k k...i know i have said this 1010 times....let me say this again....for the 1011 time...i am goin on a diet.........!!!!!!!!!!

knp aku rasa menyampah setiap kali aku tengok poster ini....???? sudah lah terpampang besar di billboard!!!....

aku pun mo lah turun 10kg....

GANBATTE to myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hi Jiwaku SEMANGAT lah...

HI jiwaku..bersemangatlah sikit...just for a moment...just for a while...!!

HAPPY MONDAY everybody....it's the beginning of a new day and a new week...!! Harap lah berproduktiviti sikit minggu ni...

k have to go and bergelut with the arabians...it's exam week and hari2 jumpa arab membuat hati makin keras and makin membenci they all...!!

p/s seringkali di pagi hari isnin...knp perut perlu berbunyi2 seolah2 berbattle of the band ah?got to cut down on the nasi lemak lah...!! hari hari...perut pun jadi perut hippo...!

Any given sunday....

today was a sunday...(tia pandai explain lah)

but i have feelin i got to know myself and my ability more...went out with someone ...tapi tetiba rasa macam ada perasaan yang is not suppose to be there....mungkin i was tired lah....sama malas mo layan so macam whole journey ada perasaan tidak begitu syok...

kesimpulan hati...don't always believe in your heart's feelin because it may deceive you...(apa aku cakap ni hah???) k lah enuff is enuff...

p/s what the wat....fread, you lost weight????????????? ini tidak semesti nya berlaku k...tidak sepatutnya......!!!!!!!!!!!!!quick p makan...cepatttttttttt......damn you fread...

Laying low on a lazy Saturday....

it's darn hot today...

it's been a long long time since i sat and stayed low at home alone...but anyway it's kinda nice apart from the hot2 weather.sweating all over...this was wat i did so far...

1.woke up early
2.went to the market to pick up some stuff..
3.bought breakfast...N.lemak utk tambah lemak
4.watch some muvie on hallmark (darn forgot the name) and was crying like a baby watching it
5.played wii -just dance (for exercise)
6.makan kopok leko...
7.did laundry
8.and now watching New in Town..

fuh detail sungguh my day today....

HIDUP INI INDAH...!!
(walaupun it doesn't seems sometime...and doesn't feel it at all)


*this is another no pictures post cos i left my memory card in the office..

MALAS....

aku malas ini hari...





malas semalas malas nya..........

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FUDNOTE: aku malas nak cakap sebenarnya aku sorang superheroin...malas memang malas

Goofying Around on a Weekend...

When having a long ride with crzyane (crazy and insane) friends...one's tend to do the most insane thingy...(i know,i know..hanya me k )..k lah let the pics story...

the rider...(driver lah)

yeah ..me..

Let's see how i can amuse you...

so did you have a good laugh???




K back to normal....

Okie i hope you guys had fun... Hidup ini semesti nya indah..!! So jgn stress2...enjoy aja dong..!!

now let me go and search a good man for myself..cheerio..!

Janji Mu seperti fajar pagi...

About 12 years ago..during some seniors bday party....I had a bet with some friends that i will be able to struck a conversation with someone who we describe as a person with brains and discipline...and QUITE..!! so as a challenge they all asked to talk to her...and i was arrogant and said i'll make her my friend by the time the dinner ends... surely i did...and i remembered the conversation was about mushroom soup...!! and so after 12 years here we are ...still friends....

Today is a special day for my one and only glams...! Dawn Carmel Paul...

We have been through lot's together...i remember sleeping on the bench in her lab....and remember the day she went for her vivas...remember the day she started her first job....and i remembered the long conversation on the phone almost everyday to updet each other...(masih lagi ingat tune hp dulu...hahah..and my big hp)..

we cried lots together...we've been through lots of heart breaks together too :P....we fought some other times too...and maybe disagree with most of the things now a days....

as we grew older and apart...no doubt we see less of each other..and know less of each other...but hopefully we will still be the bestest friends...

Sorry if i've been a selfish friend and a frank person... i guess i can't lie to you about anything...

so well glams...i know i can't afford a big cake for you...can't afford a fancy gift...can't afford a fancy dinner...but can we just have mushroom soup today?

Happy Birthday Me GLAMUS....! I love ya...!!

I pray that His promises will be like the dawn in the morning...which will never be too late to shine...

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15/04-updet

The bday girl wishes for a simple mee bandung....and we when up n down the whole of midvalley i think for the 4th time....in search of mee bandung...! finally found it..but bday gurl was not happy with the taste of the mee bandung she wish for....so much for a great bday dinner..!!

highlight of the day...bday gurl did her solo concert in one of the happybox...with a cup of milo panas and teh bunga...:P

semoga tahun ni lebih baik dari tahun lepas tapi tidak sehebat tahun depan babe...!!

thanks tu pak frediswaranata Tuc Noc THai...for the sponsorship of a simple but wonderfull nite..!!

Main Hati...

another unsound post of the heart...



ever have this feeling? that you are just confused and don't know what your doing....and don't know where you're heading....



sometimes when things get crazy we tend to do silly things that makes things worst....when we know it's not correct but we still do it...cos it's FUN....



i am kinda in a stage that i don't know what i want in life..(maybe i know..) but things just ain't coming my way...maybe it's time to just have fun do something crazy....!! it has been a long time since i've been on a rollercoaster...where i can just scream and scream as loud as i want...



but sometimes i just wanna sit down and just look at a beautiful thing...a rainbow perhaps..a sunset...a sunrise...just an awesome view...!



maybe i am just tired...plain tired of this life...



Jane: Sila lah jaga hati...dan jangan main hati...!!



anyone? anyone mau buat something nice for me to cheer my heart up???

EXAM sucks...

Siapa lah buat idea utk suruh exam ni...haiyo....!!

wish me luck everybody....

SERAH SAMA JANE DAN ALAM...:D





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update 10/4

gila byk soklan lah the exam sampai hangus otak....kalau lah tak mau bagi org kerja cakap saja lah ni have to go thru so much torture...after a long2 time of not writting with pen and pencil..rily2 hurts....i even got blisters....

the exam day came:
i got up..(yeah after not sleeping for almost a week...of all the day hari before exam boleh pulak tido...)
the exam place was merely 10 minutes away from my home...so decided to leave the house at 8.30am..sampai2 simpang which is about 2km from the exam place..gila jem..."apa ni???satu malaysia ka p exam ni???" it was rainning heavily too...and standed lah kalau exam2 ni...people just cut, speed and tak nak bagi way...standed culture.....it was really a survival of the sperm moment....

i reach the destination at 9.20..(exam 9 okey..) belum parking lagi tu...but i was thinking if i had to park so far away and to walk almost 1km..i better just not go...! i was turning back when i saw a road leading to the hall...wonder apasal not many people on that road...(ajaib tapi benar)..so i took that road and i ended up parkimg near Hall A...my exam place...sampai2 macam org sudah mula...duhhhhhh...exam 9am k it was 9.35am... 1st paper ends at 9.45...but cari2 tempat duduk then ah..they just started...i had no question paper and answer sheet..tapi ramai juga teda..so just rilex...we were way behind schedule so we had to go on straight 7 papers with one 15 minutes break.. SEVEN papers ok.......who ever thought of this kind of exam should take it himself.....
and gues wat smua yang aku tak pandai aku jawab nya C...C untuk cemerlang..C untuk Chanteks...C.. untuk CORRECT..!!!

feelin; wateber happens happen lah ...just that everything was a havoc...

Hari yang PUSKESMAS!!

Susah bila bekerja di tempat yang you hate...!! but then again mana mo kerja lagi...???

K, not gonna write anything about it...BUT yang pasti hari ni adalah hari yang PUSKESMAS...!!

letih lah...kerja dgn org atasan yang bijak pandai yang ingat smua benda senang mau buat...dan letih juga kerja dengan org bawahan yang lembab and ingat smua benda senang...

futnote:Bila jadi ketua atau bos...boleh tak considerate sikit sama org bawahan...and bila jadi org bawahan boleh tak considerate sikit boss pun pening jugak...!!

Sleeping pill wanted please...

I 've been having trouble sleeping this few days...since last friday actually...just can't get myself to go to sleep...i'll fall asleep for 10 minutes at around 11pm then be awake until 5 plus...then fall asleep only to wake up at 6.30am ready to go to work...dang...

but ironically i don't feel tired at all during the day..so maybe it's not alarming...!jgn tiba2 jatuh tertido sudah...:D

maybe i need to start on the exercise regime that i have plan for days..:D months...years :P...


Futnote: 32" was a bad idea..but i think i can do it...:P

I'm just a little bit caught in the moment...

I am having problem sleeping and i don't know why...there is a suddent burst of energy that makes me goin on and on...i just can't go to sleep...there's just too much think goin around me that i don't know what to do...

too much things to think about...too much things to do...so much confusion...

tell me the truth do you feel that everyone is getting on with their life and everyone is just having so much advancement in their life that makes you feel that your life is goin no where??? it's just a sick feelin in side...

just like you wanna move on but can't...
you wanna turn right or left but you just can't move...and i tell you it's no use to turn backwards...because you just simply can't do that....

life has just been hard...(maybe it's not but it's just me)...work is just hard but sometimes i have learn to just leave that in the office...it stress me out just working with people who just don't give a damn of your feelins and who don't have any respect for people...(damn what is it with this culture...???for once can they be nice..?)...i am gonna enjoy everyday of my weekdays...and just enjoy the hand full of people i enjoy being with (hopefully their gonna be normal and not infected with the contagious selfishness..)

futnote: i hope the future will be great and i will be ready for it when it comes

It's a Good..Good Friday...!

Hey all...Happy GoodFriday..

Ingat Kasih Nya....Ingat Kebaikkan Nya


Noteday: Wish we had holiday here too..