Today is too ..not a good day...!

Aku mau jadi kuda!

just wanted an interesting and catchy title....had a very bad day today...it's another day when everything went wrong...if i always tell you all that my blood was boiling..today was like mad until i think my blood's not boiling anymore until the pot is dry....

drove back home and had a good cry...yeah now i know it's just best just to cry like hell and feel a bit better later...!

today i just wish and hope that God permits what i will and am doing...i may not know wats in store for me..but all i know is today is not a good day..i'll stopplanning and trying to accomodate people for a bit...cos i just don't wanna care..!!

tidak mo berharap tinggi..aku mau seperti jimbron...mo menjadi kuda...kuda yg laju yg boleh lari selaju2nya...

fudnote:after 4 large muffin ...i am still hungry...

Therapy in progress...

it might not be the yummiest muffin but it is self bake...!! my first attempt of baking..i didn't know baking was this fun...!!

the first muffin i ever baked..! isn't she ugly hehehe..!

first batches that i put in the microwave just to try...the tray was small for my oversize cups..! bagus juga pandai kasi kurang inti masuk dalam cups kalau tidak paster berlimpah2....

ada hati mo bagi org wakakkakaka....kihkihkih....ofcourse lah i can't eat myself...after this i want to experiment with Rum and wisky...hehehe...! can i bake wisky or Rum  filled muffins???

if you guys were awed by my baking...look again ....semesti nya ini dari box lah bah...!! kasi chan lah first time.... i didn't have a measurement cup...no mixer... 

taaddaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... i bought this box...hehehe..but atleast i improvise hehehe..i bought choc chips and mix it in...(actually bought almonds but it went missing).....i think i got too carried away with the choc chips... for those who bake.. i wanna ask you..!!

HOW ON EARTH TO YOU MEASURE WATER BY GRAM?????adoyaiiii!!! marah pun ada...!!was wondering wat the heckkkkkkkkk???

i made half of the box...was wondering too how to use 1 and half egg hehehe..(i put 2 instead..)

okes that's all for my baking adventure...! and i will have to think twice before i start baking again hehehe..! hard work....!!but i tell you i don't know why but i had tears in my eyes while watching the muffun "grow" in the oven!!!

Introducing Johannah Rinnai Joshua

the little princess of Joshua and Joy arrive early....

JOHANNAH RINNAI JOSHUA

2.2kg at 3.30am

Here are some pics...

proud mummy....

proud parents........

asher checking out the latest addition amoi in this world...

cutekan..wondering wat was he thinking......he was like a superstar heheheee....the hospital had a full house...this is a pic...asher shopping around..

CUTENESS!!!

addition to the new generation...overwelm juga lah...when a set of friends are crown as parents....wishing them both strenght to raise a human being...i respect parents...!!i heart those babies....!!!

Fudnote:Tuhan boleh kah aku dapat satu?

Peer Pressure!

SPEECHLEESSSS...!

Fudnote:I am innocent,i fell for peer pressure..i had to do it..! (but it was a great time!

Moonshine weekend..!

blame it on a lazy monday that i had no mood to updet...! i had a mooshine weekend...bz...tiring but enjoyable...i got to know more about my own inner self that i seldom see...! the cool and patience self..(angkat bakul sendiri)

when i say moonshine it's kinda like being drunk kan?yeah i had a full dose of friends the whole weekend...! but before meeting the whole clan..i had to toil myself in the Gym...!!thanks to puan.. we started our day early...after 2 hours of sweat and a plate of wantan mee...! i was off for my weekend..!i did a little alone time at home too....have you guys tried this???

 yummy ooo....when your on a diet it's like torturing yourself....! smell so nice that you just wanna lick it!!!

tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....!!reminds me of pulau 3....!

after all that pampering....and cancelation of plans to be gluttons... i had my time off with astro..! thank God for astro!! but when you're on diet it's dangerous to watch AFC!!i was like so so so hungry...ada lah org sentul tu..!! bila di mesej mereply...belum ada lagi org mati tidak makan satu hari!! apa punya kawan..! but something cute happen..! someone tetiba sms and said will be at my door step in 20 minutes....and that someone turn up with..

kihkihkihk...! how tot full!!how could i turn down when i was so hungry...!! sedaps bila di cecah dengan roti..!

teringat BanMie in HCMC...!!

afer that we had a vocal trainning session with pare and the geng...!! rupanya ada lagu iban byk di CBox hehehee..no pics..! have to ask from pare..he had the camera...!

with a little sleep!! the next morning i had to rush for a photoshoot..!Hakim's pre wedd...i discovered a partner in crime in this new york hat guy...!!

after the shoots...me and pare zasss to tanjung malim just in time to catch Jay after her convo...! cool lah to have a impromtu trip...then we had bowling..! and then jumpa org sentul p talipon..! that sentul girl was cruel to me by reminding me of my diet the whole time we were in talipon...!! nyeh...!
(if you notice why i am fastforwarding my story...bos panggil bah..heheh tapi sibuk updet blog kihkihkihkih)

oh ya i got a present for myself..!

tadaaaaaaaaaaaaa...!! mari lah datang rumah kita buat girly stuffs...!!

Aku tia mo jadi pegawai..aku mo cuba jadi photog...mo cuba jadi tukang masak..mo cuba jadi tukang rambut...mau cuba jadi tukang buat kek...mau cuba jadi apa2 saja yg menyenangkan hati...!!HATI BERBUNGA2..!!!

fudnote:Friendship is like antics...the older it is the more expensive it becomes...! I LOVE My FRIENDs!!

Stars of life....!

keeping a blank spot for a pic...(just couldn't decide what to put..)maybe its best to leave it blank...been thinking about stuffs..(blame it on audit season...) my brains are frying itself...Hope is just another word in the dictionary..all that i can hope is just to live this life....!

i realise that i am in a love hate affair with my work....but seems like it's in the middle of wanting a divorce..! i called for a meeting this morning to sort out files..and my staffs argued in front of me saying about who should do what...in the midst of them quarelling i got to admit my mind was blank and i just shut them out...i couldn't hear anything....i just move to the next point...! baru sedar...senang betul mo drift otak kita p somewhere else kan...?

all i can think off is just sleeping in my bed...( rasanya ini lah tempat yang sangat bagus utk bersendirian)... i've gotta make this life more interesting...

(i know this post doesn't make sense...it's just a post to post...!! cheerios guys...Mari penuhi hati dengan lagu krispatih untuk membunuhkan hati kita..!)

I know my life sucks big time..! di tengah2 musim audit..aku mengemaskini fail2 yg bukan kerja aku tapi aku buat..dan di kerumuni oleh org2 yg senang2 complaint itu bukan kerja durang...!jadi? kerja aku? tp aku tetap buat..utk apa? aku pun tak tau..tapi tetap buat..! Tuhan please write this down in ur book...! Aku tetap buat...!

FUDNOTE: ada org bagi me choc yesterday...dia cakap hadiah utk celebrate usaha aku mendiet...!

Kempen Benteras Lemak Musim ke2 Epi 2

What the hecks...after 27 minutes of cycling almost 4km only burn 409 cal...!!! dang! itu barusatu pinggan wantan mee..! (i did 30 minutes and i burn a total 510 cal...Rupanya susah mo kurus...! seperti ingin putus asa dan terus kan hidup gembira memakan makanan kesukaan dlm kuantiti yang byk skali!!!..but no no no....i have to try..try..!! ada target ni sblum bulan 11 ni ..!! kabigans...! kamon we all can do it....(sebenarnya aku tidak tahan mo tunggu sesi2 makan2 sampai lupakan dunia..!

boleh kah kalau aku p daftar diri di Marie Claire kah??Boleh kah aku jadi ramping seperti model2 di iklan2 diorang???boleh kah ??BOLEH???

(nah...sayang nya duit utk spend utk menyiksakan diri...bagus aku beli benda lain hehe)

 after gym i went to Giant to pick up some things for the week...! i spoted this..!

ini minuman seperti mengolok status aku  pulak...! chis.....tapi takpa takpa ...!(blame it on 10.10.10 and lots of weddings going on...!

k perlu kumpul tenaga dan semangat utk mengharungi minggu yg baru start esok!!!

fudnote:Bersenam sorang2 sambil mendengar lagu krispatih adalah sangat tidak membantu hati yg rapuh..

What is your limit?

things for thoughts mode

How far is ones limit in his or hers hope...everybody has their own hope...and of cos we have our faith that we put full trust in the One that holds our future..

what's our limit?how far can one self stand?

putting trust and hope that:
someone so dear to you may live a bit longer...but it was cut short when that someone died...
you do your best in your work just to have people talking behind your back and just stabbing you...
to be treated so unfairly in broad daylight maybe because of your faith...
to put trust in some friends that in return betray you...
daily life is hard when you just can't cope with the bills piling faster then you can earn...
to have your precious lappy die on you with all your document in it ( i know this is a small matter to some)
and the list can go on....

what is your limit??

sometimes you just wanna give up and just let everything go...but there will be a slight dot of energy that will urge you to just believe that everything will be ok in just a bit..and the One had never promised a easy and happy life all the way..

what is your limit??

you then to get tired,frustrated...and numbness just fill the whole body that you just don't wanna carry on no more...


fudnote:Tuhan, kenapa hari-hari seperti ini susah utk bernafas.........hari2 begini susah utk meneruskan perjalanan...but i hope all the preserverence pays..cos this journey is getting harder...Tuhan jgn lupa ko Tuhan dan aku manusia biasa....aku takkan ada kekuatan seperti Mu...

Manusia2 haiwan yang peliks..!!

DARN DAMN....!!

What a crazy and evil world we are in!!! Buat hal sendiri ...tidak jaga tepi kain org di cakap boikot!!!....ikut hati aku tembak smua org itu..! tapi tia mo lah biarlah durang tempah express boarding p neraka!!!!

Futnote: Marah org bodoh akan buat kita bodoh...! So tia mo marah...tia mo marah...!

Cheers to the Great Man..!

Today is my Pa's birthday....! he turn the big 60 today....! we celebrated it last month but today is the official one...!

no words can describe or explain how much i love this guy...!!I just sms him and didn't know wat to say..(that's why i didn't call) I just sms:Happy Birthday Pa..!.. He answered: TQ... simple kan? from all i know and all i have heard...My dad is one son of a gun hehehe...! i grew up wishing my dad was a rich man...wishing he was somebody...wishing he was a prof..a YB...a SOMEBODY....but he was a simple man who seldom complain and is always helping up people despite their ungreatfullness...i couldn't understand then why he had keep on helping people even if to know they will just forget about him ...(now as i grow older i still don't understand...)

One thing that he told me about 3 years back...that really make me realize how big hearted he is..:People do things to us...say bad things about us..it's their problem...we just have to keep on being kind to them...!because it's not us to judge but God...Never give up on being kind to people and never stop doing good...!

He's not rich,

He's not a superstar,

He's not perfect..

He's nobody to the world but

He is the World to me...

Happy Birthday to En.Kalang...!

luv ya pa..!

yessssssssss..!! lepas ni best jalan2 sama ini bos...! 60 boleh dapat half price atau price org tua di entrance mana2..hehehe..jimat sikit duit aku...!!
fudnote:If i were to marry someone..i would like him to be atleast half the man my dad is..!:P

DIET DEAD...!

 apart from being actively participating in sports...melihat malaysian open tu aktif lah tu...! we spend the weekend ruining all my hard work during weekdays...! after the semifinals we headed to Encik's and Puan's house for a bbq...

i've gotta tell you we are getting better each time...!this time is innovations....if you can make out wat the pic above is about....! sorry no pics of the food...i was so so so hungry..

Puan baked a cake for her little princesses...and look at the checky face....

 sunday morning....woke up and had this crazy craving for Mee Bandung...so we went to the market and bought stuffs for our latest creation.........

 Mee Bandung Mahal ....:P..we started cooking at 11am...

 12.30pm everything was cooked...

12.45pm everything was gone...!!



verdict= 9/10
i think i will charge RM15 or more for one bowl of our home made Mee Bandung...!! deliciouso..!!

Darn it...back to weekdays and have to work out again...!!

Butt checking weekend with Colonel sanders...

an unplanned thingy..but we had fun...we had tickets to watch the ATP Malaysian Open...the most expensive thing i ever went to to check out butts and guys...hahahhahaa....(standed lah perempuan kan !!) got to admit byk2 yg hensem ya...i mean butt..eh no i mean guys LOL...

Despite on a strictken diet...that's not even on track!! we spotted this guy...don't you think he looks like colonel sanders?? or was i hungry...!!

 we sat througout the doubles finals....

this boy has beautiful eyesssssssss....!!

 and this was the guy who won't the Singles Final Youzeny...!! this was his winning serve...

penat juga lah watching hehehe...but it was fun....sampai partner in crime mau membeli tennis racket and take up tennis...!! apart from butt checking and checking out guys..(mostly wondering whether their straight or not ???) we spotted some good friends (actually itu aunty2 annoying betul...!! menjerit2 i love you i love sama players...) we look at each other and was thinking dalam beberapa tahun kita jadi macam tu kah??? and one of them kami cakap adalah si togou hahahah....!!! (mesti ko yg menjerit2 tu kan togou...dawn the other one...i the shy one hahaha..yg lama2 berpindah tempat sebab mungkin malu sama kawan2 yg sudah kena warning jgn jerit2 tapi stilll carry on...)

there were lot's of thing that we did during the weekend i tell you later...but all i can tell you..! hmm really smart body org main tennis ni :P..!!

Happy Monday EveryONE...!! (tia sabar mo habis ini hari..!!)

paparazies with their guns...i wish i had one like that