(Gambar hiasan tidak berkaitan) guys thanks for being still friends it has been more then 10 years....
i suddenly have this nausea feelin because of time passing by on the fast lane...rasa macam semua org ada kemajuan..org smua maju depan...org semua ada additional of something in their life that boleh di shout out in their lives....
Me...as for me...wanna scream pun takda suara kluar...! (not that i am not counting my blessings k)
feelin of being static in this fast turning world ...everything is catching up with me...work..life..age...sampai i think i am just standing still while my life passes in front of me...everyday with my own mind..."normal life" kecuali occasionally ada somefriends enters the scene and leave again...!but i am thanking God too for these moments..masa aku muak...aku letih...there are moments yg God let's me have fun..."FUN"..have a break where i can go away with a bunch of Psychotic Food hunters....and pigout ourselves only to regret everything at the end when we see our bulging,flabbing,tangy,tummy...!!
wishing that we spend more time exercising..jogging...and watever...(tapi itu smua fantasi seseorang)
looking at my life now...i simply think it's a boring one...just that sometimes the way i tell it seems to be interesting to another person...aku mo jadi sorang cool...sorang yg org kagum... wakakakakka bila berjalan mata smua memandang...bila bercakap smua org dengar...bila ? hahhahaha i kid..i kid...none of the above is the feelin in my heart...
I just wanna live in a decent way..where everyone respect each other..remembers each other..love is each other..HOW HARD is THAT?
if you are living in a place where people that cares for you are leaving close to you...have friends that out of no where and what ever hour calls you out for a teh tarik...or wat ever time for a meal...(ok ..ok...inlcude this too...) a karaoke session... or even just a little talk will you where about to enter your car at the parking space...I really think that your damn..damn lucky....
aku rasa aku mau berjalan lah..selagi boleh jalan mau jalan...and take lot's of pics and let them tell the story of the heart...mau p tempat yg org cakap boring and make it unboring...!!tak kisah lah aku hutang byk kah...tidak makan kah (ni susah lah mo buat)....I wanna go places..regardless of what people say....
everyone has their own special place in God's heart..and in HIS plans...so jgn cakap aku perlu sama dengan smua org...sebab aku mungkin ada benda special yg Dia mo bagi...and ada benda yang Dia tidak bagi...So i am still waiting..i am still waiting...waiting..and waiting....(this doesn't mean God love you more :P) He loves us the same...i just needed to remind me and myself....He actually love me too...just some stupid insensitive people need to blurt out things that breaks my heart...i know i need to come back..and search..or maybe i need to go on and search too...i need to learn to just focus on Him instead of them right...and i need to realise that i will have the best instore for me..and i have to wait with patience .... TUHAN Kau menang hari ni...Kau menang...
p/s when i type Patience on google just now i got this:Patience is the state of endurance under difficult circumstances, which can mean persevering in the face of delay or provocation without becoming annoyed..
i will try not be provoc..and become annoyed..so guys..who ever read this..theres something out there instore for us..we just have to wait..and preserver...wait wait...
Fudnote:TUHAN, Kau menang hari ni...Kau menang...