Please show me the way out of this stupid place.... After all these things that happen to me...did i tell you guys that i had an anxiety attack...my chest was in pain and i couldn't do anything i tot i was having a heart attact..someone told me i look pale...serius i have never felt like this..all i wanted to do is to cry but i couldn't i was damn angry with people with their stupid jokes...but of all i just didn't know wat to do...!! my head hurts so much that if feels like it iss being crack...!! my heart felt like it was being stab so many times with a sharp thing...i couldn't breath well...i couldn't think well..all i wanted was a hug or a reassurance that everything wud be ok but people around me were just being them and couldn't careless...they were just being them..! tapi apa juga kan wat do i actually want them to do..!! there and then that i know that org2 semua itu tarak boleh pakai punya org..!! maybe they don't know why it's important to me..!! cuba kalo diaorg raya and kena buat macam tu kan...!! but then again after a few days i gave a little tot...apa maksud Krismas..!! its all about love kan..! it's all about sharing joy to the world..how much my heart was hurting..i tot to myself biarlah..! it's not for me to balas...it's not for me to argue...it's just how the world is..it's just how people are...! (ada lori ada bas ada hari saya balas) this is not a good thing but this is how people do kan...i tot to myself...Dia melihat ..Dia merasa....biarlah mereka itu..! forget about it Jane... Forget about it...! i am in a place that they wud never know why it's important to me..! because they don't know...!
Bayangkan perasaan di sayangi sepanjang di miri...tiba2 to come back to a place where everybody are such a darn pain in the ass...!! bayangkan how i feel...bayangkan...
Tuhan Kau Menang lagi kali ni ...Kau menang lagi..!w/pun my heart hurts so much that i feel like jumping from the 11th floor..! but it'll be a stupid thing to do...!aku semakin kurang dan Kau semakin tambah....so ajar lah aku mengasihi org sekitar aku...ajar aku bersabar...ajar aku bertahan..!
Friend,now i know who loves me and who just are friends because they need somethings..but anyway...all are dear to me...! and real friends cried when i cried..real friends hurt when i hurt...thanks for being my real friends...! I love you all..!
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everything will be okay glams... wait it out k :) lusm. (He knows...)
why does things always have to be ok only after your heart have been broken into pieces and after your eyes are swollen from crying so hard...and after or so dimotivated and feels like quiting...why only after that...?
it's like rainbow after rainy days i reckon... light after darkness... something along that line... whatever it is, we're all here for you... hang in there mate. love you lots.
thanks dy..it's like on the peak of being love masa di miri..terus balik sini memang jatuh dalam gaung
jen..
maybe it's about time to change direction?. we've talked lot about plan, but dont have the gut to just go out there and bare all.
yeah, now, you can kill me for feeding your mind with dreams. but, seriously, think about it ya.
love you JANE KALANG! (c ya in about 4 days?)
i am still waiting for my share partner to make a move..
THANKS togou...can't wait to be with you guys in 3 days..
adui...
i'll convey your message to the partner. heee..may she make her mind up and shoot.. (u know, just shoot)
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