Thursday, May 28, 2009

My Faith is SHAKEN...

Been feelin really-2 down ...really been feelin shitty...I know i am not suppose to feel this way but tak tau lah...just cannot seem to rub this one away...this time memang rasa macam kena push betul-2 right to the cliff...rasa macam mau give up and terjun saja....everything seems to be tidak OK ...i don't know why this time really can't shake it...i really betul rasa life is unfair...!! bertambah dengan stress at work ni...!!jiwa memang terganggu...hati memang remuk...otak celaru...semua ada...tapi hairan ...kali ni macam mata jadi keras...hati rasa mau nangis tapi mata tetap mau berlagak cool...normally after a good cry everything wud be ok...tapi kali ni despite everything mata tetap maintain...selalu nya ada prob. hati dan mulut terbuka utk share sama kengkawan..tapi kali ni hati rasa malas mau say anything...smua ada masalah masing2 kan...dan masalah aku ni kecik saja...(kan..kan..kan?)

been thinking of a great escape actually tapi i realize itu semua tidak akan selesai kan masalah2...mungkin betul lah ...i need to find myself back...apa motif aku kat sini...apa tujuan sebenar hidup ini..!! (geng sorry lah try and try book ticket tapi error saja..byk kali try error juga...rasa nya tak payah lah...i give up..!) thanks anyway...the minute u guys say ok just come over membuat aku ok sikit...membuat aku rasa disayangi sudah...thanks guys...!! maybe next time k....

tgh dengar The Climb sekarang...read more at:http://jenkays.blogspot.com/2009/04/i-can-almost-see-it-that-dream-im.html

The struggles I’m facing,The chances I’m taking Sometimes they might knock me down but...No I’m not breaking I may not know it,But these are the moments that,I’m going to remember most ...yeah.....Just got to keep going And I got to be strong...Just keep pushing on

I know masa2 begini perlu go on bended knees kan and just talk to God...but kali ni sampai tahap kedegilan tahap Gaban....hati keras...!

*after stalling...

knp tetiba i feel a bit ok...mungkin terluah sudah lah perasaan ini...i am coming to my senses abit...tak pa lah org buat kita macam mana kan...! maafkan lah they all kan...anger only makes me a sinner..!reminds me of...bila org tampar pipi kanan bagi lah pipi kiri juga dan etc...biarkan lah...

i know bulan 5 ni i actually buat resolusi kan...read more:http://jenkays.blogspot.com/2009/05/azam-baru-di-bulan-ke-lima-2009.html tapi haiya...memang ternyata tidak betul itu azam...kena lempar dalam laut lah ...so not cool...!!

tapi really..kali ni memang being shaken..memang rasa macam off key...memang rasa macam terjatuh...

takpa lah...looking forward to be with my Pares!!!! looking forward to MANILA...and looking forward to unveil WSR1311 too (:P) (ya,Pares..aku sampai mo tukar Gil..!! mau lupakan telah lalu..!macam sayang..tapi sudah buat keputusan kan lupakan saja yg lalu...tidak mau ingat kisah lama..!)

COUNTDOWN 15 HARI LAGI..!!! 15 DEMN DAYS to staying in this awfull place!!

2 comments:

DC10 said...

what doesn't break u makes u stronger... hmmm mcm so cliche kan... tp i ingat jg glams... ms dulu u started out... u survived ur 'amazing' boss... so.. ini kira a few notch higher...tp boleh tu u get thru..cuz my glams so strong one.. :) and JC is the strength of our hearts (our lives and times r in His hands) one day at a time, one step at a time... it will all be well in the end...:) u bgs2 sana k.. lusm... (even when we're unfaithful... He remains faithful)

jenkays said...

ini i think a few notch lower la...but mungkin rasa teruks sebab goin it alone... dulu ada kawan p makan2 p tgk wyg borak2..skrg ni..! kiri kanan...smua tak ingat kawan..! takpa la..boleh saja kan ..okie dokie..thanks babe!!