Anusha Joy Jasmine

Isn't she beautiful....isn't she wonderfull....

this little chic will break lot's of guys heart...

Can't explain the feelin when i see them 3 together...and after knowing what Lus and Anba went through...I just felt that God really have blessed them with a precious gem...funny when you just automatic "lantik" urself as a aunty...just happy to be part of this family...she's just gorgeous...and marvelous....

p/s this pics were take under hot sun...it was almost noon....bad of aunty2 yang obses dengan camera...it was really2 hot...and i was sweating buckets....

FUDNOTE: hmm terus rasa best ada baby...but can i just have for 2 hours a day :P

Mood of my week...

It's friday again....and damn the days do fly fast...without even realising it's already FRIDAY...i am half heartedly liking friday today...part of me want to just jump up and scream YESSSSSSSSSSSSS!!! part of me just sulking my head in my pillow thinking that..no not again and soon it'll be monday again...(such a loser kan???)

reason of being so demotivated this week :

1.Monday blues (as usual need i explain???) to make things worst ...my laptop's screen konked out....(ada org sudi sponser repair??) smua gambar2 smua koleksi and my CS3 in there...that explain why all my pics not watermark and editing sudah...! sad..sad..sad

2.Tuesday Diarrhea that made me not well in the head too...i seem to make some one upset i feel lousy until today cos that someone is goin through a critical time...(deeply truly madly sorry)

3.Wednesday sucks. cos someone said something that strike my heart..(but anyway tidak mo jadi seperti kanak2 yang terus tidak mau kawan...tapi well jika kawan tidak perlu kan pertolongan kita...kita better undur diri lah....sebab smua sudah dewasa ada otak dan pikiran sendiri....n memang dia tidak anggap kita kawan apa boleh buat...life must go on babe...let's ride again (words to self ok ...)

4.Thursday: It feels like being in a display or being in a zoo where the part is full of glass compartments...this is how it feels like in my office right now...(arahan bos blinds smua dibuang...) so please don't knock on the glass so that the animals don't get aggitated...(i am so damn annoyed)

Friday...friday...friday....you are here again...i am hoping for a great weekend so i can rejuvenate and get ready for my wild zoo ride on monday to friday next week....

fudnotty : I hurt my heart and i bruise my feelings...oh well bumi tetap berpusing..! jane go go go...

p/s by the way gambar2 tidak ada kaitan dengan post...sila nikmati dengan sungguh2 :P (see i am still me...jokes tetap hidup dalam me)

and Yes i won't understand....

when a friend say "you don't know how i feel ...!!" somehow automatically it hits a button in my heart....yeah i might not understand or i might know how you feel in side....cos nobody will know what we feel inside ...

even though people might not know what it really feels but some people have been down that road and some people are still walking the same street...

sometimes it feels sad...and i wonder why i even care...or even bother...but anyway i hope that friend of mine will get over things and realise that along the way... you might lost some people who just wanna be a simple friend...

i learn myself that this life is a lonely journey if we chose to walk alone...

i am very blessed with good friends that stick with me through the dumbness time of my life...the stupidess decision i might make...and the craziest time in my life...i thank everyone of you...i can't express myself sometimes..but i know you'll understand...cos you say nothing at all and just join me...!! muahhhhhhhhh...i love u guys...

fudnote:aku bakal hilang kawan bergosip...but i know i'll be fine...

DUsh..DUsh..!!

Haishhhhhhhhhhh...baru mula mo ok...!! i have to open my dumb anger mode....!!!

now i feel so yucky inside....!! need to apologise big time..(but i did tapi teda respon) darn !!!
aduiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii... rasa macam mau gali lubang terus tanam kepala bodoh ini dalam lubang...!!

Fudnote: knp ada feelin macam ni ah..??

I want a Heart of stone..!

it feels like sitting on a cliff just looking at the world...the wild world around me...waiting just waiting for the next strike of any beast out there...feels everyday i have to try to survive...try to not care what rumours and whining of people around me....

God...
I need You

God
I need strength

God
I need preserverence

God
I am about to give up....

I really...really hate this place...i hate the people that comes with it...i hate the culture...and the hatred is getting to me..!

futnote: Tuhan kirim kan lah aku hati batu supaya aku boleh bertahan...!

Hati harus kebal...

I just have to be extra strong...I just have to put on my superhero mode....!

Tiap2 pagi bangun dengan perasaan aduh..macam mana mo survive ni...!! tapi tiap2 pagi ada a voice whispering "you just have to be strong"...!! I can do this kan??yes i can...!! (pada hal dalam hati meronta2 tidak tahan sudah...)

k i finally did isi SPA k...! dulu tak hairan pun...macam malas mo tukar kerja...! tapi sekarang rasa macam mo cuba sudah lah....(kamon guys..doakan gwe k)..i am finally sick and tired of being push around...byk bagi kerja...lagi ada hati mo cakap aku takda kerja..! damn lah...! tapi tak pa lah aku sahut cabaran (mo muntah bila fikir kata2 ni)...

yang paling disgusting ada lah...since smua reshuffling...ada lah staffs start lah panggil2 me BOSS..... durang ni shallow betul kan..!! come on lah...3 tahun k sudah kerja dgn durang...!! hari ni panggil aku boss...! wipe my ass lah..!come on kasi a bit dignity kepada diri sendiri lah....!! i hairan juga ada org suka di ampu...wat do you get out of it ah??? how come ada org so low kasta ah???(serius i tell you..dari start kerja sama skrg paling tidak suka ampu2 org) patut lah aku tak naik2 pangkat dari dulu kan..!! tidak apa lah...i only wanna please 1 person and that will be my God...

i really2 need strength ni sekarang utk live my days...rasa macam impossible betul...takut juga bila pikir mo tukar kerja...! tp malas sudah dengan mindset shallow hall ni....smua positive..i wanna tukar angin lah..!! harap by the end of the year...ada sudah something...! so kengkawan kasi doa lah aku k...! i need it...i need strength...aku rasa kalau teda...lama sudah aku terjun dari tingkat 11 ni...!( tp kalo mati..tidak dpt lah aku berjalan2 sama kabigans aku)

hari-2 aku kerja dengan pikiran positif...hari hari aku p kerja dgn senyuman di muka (tp pahit dan sakit di hati)...fuh i so wish i had somebody to lepak hari2...ketawa2 sambil nangis2....

HATI SILA LAH KEBAL KAN DIRI....

fudnote :aku bukan lah superman, aku juga bisa nangis...

Kurang semangat...! AKU HEBAT!!!

there's a feelin of wanting to cry lingering in my heart....it's a painfull feelin..! tapi i know i just have to get on with life as it is...I can do all things with God with me kan? (sure Tuhan masih sayang?)

i just got a memo that bertambah beban kerja...! byk gila2..sampai staffs pun tanya boleh ker bos? (sejak tau durang under me baru ada hati panggil bos..cilaka punya staffs)..
sekarang aku ni macam gila kuasa smua aku kena buat...damn damn damn
dulu satu bahagian sekarang ni macam 3 bahagian..!! shishhhhhhhhsssssss...!..aku ingat naik gunung susah...rupanya turun dari gunung ada lagi benda yang susah...!! %$^@#@#~!?!!!!

pegawai satu tu jaga satu benda and benda itu senang...!! (apa lagi aku mo cakap!!!???)

mo nangis pun ada...mo berlagak hebat pun ada....!smua perasan pun ada...mo bunuh diri pun ada..mo buat tidak kisah pun ada...!! Tuhan jaidkan lah aku superheroin...!! jadi kan lah aku hebat sehebat nya...!! tapi apart from that...aku pun bisa rasa sedih dan mo menangis....!!

(as i am writing this my eyes are swelling with tears...)

tapi apa juga kan nothing is impossible...!biar lah byk2 bagi kan ...aku kasi biar saja lah kan ..! let's be positive..! let's be a winner..! (cheh ketara betul berpura2) biar lah ..! aku mo berlagak ..berlagak aku ok..!!

lepas ni aku pun teda kawan sudah di ofis..so looks like i am all alone sudah ni...! biar lah ..! hidup ini perlu di teruskan walau bagaimana pun kan...! p mampus lah org2 sini ..!!!ambil kesempatan lah byk2...tiapalah...! korang kumpul2 lah kebahagiaan sekarang...!! biar lah biarlah...!! aku mo p back packing..!! lantak koranglah..! i'm gona have fun...(w/pun teda duit..aku blasah saja)
kalo apa2 jadi kat aku harap aku jadi hantu kacau2 durang masa durang tido...(i know i know ni bodoh..!! tapi salah kah aku marah)

ok sudah lah ...byk cakap byk dosa...!!aku tau aku hebat..itu lah korang pilih aku buat byk kerja..!! AKU HEBAT..!!!

fudnote:CILAKA org2 ni...biar lah sekarang aku tanggung berat..mati nanti korang tanggung lebih berat...!!