ReSoLution:2010-Penilaian...Semak Semula...

As a servant of the Goverment..at every end of the year there always seem to have this semakan semula thingy....or a round up thing..... i was browsing my blog and i saw this....http://jenkays.blogspot.com/2010/01/resolution2010.html

Senarai2 nya:
1. Cuba utk lebih dekat dengan my Creator...! (erm rasanya kurang berjaya...cuba lagi tahun depan)

2.Cuba utk lebih spend time dengan family and Friends... rasa nya ada juga lah...

3.Cuba utk gaya hidup sihat...  I went gyming..atleast..and i think i am lighter
a)Jogging skali skala & Exercise slalu...if it takes just to lift my little finger..  rujuk no.3
b)try to stay away of junkfood...fast food...and soft drinks...(i said try k...)c)mo kasi kurus...(shed sikit lah...50kg impposible lah ) takkan tercapai...

4.Cuba fikir tentang masa depan yang blur..
a)maybe really look for things yg boleh buat duit... ada jg percubaan menanam duit..waiting for it to grow
b)cuba planning2 expending hidup lah...! (siapa ada calon sila kemukakan hahaha...) (Tuhan ko ada preserve or reserve kah utk me? (hope my purpo wedding will come true) Blum ada tanda2 lagi ni...

5.Play more goof more....tahun 2010 aku mo party hard...!! this year aku rasa aku boleh sudah dance...!! and jalan2 byk byk....amik gambar yg paling gila2....!(k mari kabigans..kita buat quest to get the gooffess and stupidess gambar for 2010...-i didn't get to dance..rasa lebih matang this year...i'll updet on photoes in another post..but whilst travelling i made myself a new friend...part jalan byk2 yes byk berjalan this year...kamon!!! i naik gunung kinabalu k this year...!!! Jalan kaki with my lazy kabigans in vietnam...byk tangga kami naik..!jakarta was fine...(mis the apartment) Travelled to 2 countries..

Oh well,not bad....
as i look at most of my post the whole year...I really had a rather bad year...but looking at things i did well and didn't give up..didn't run away...i just redah saja keadaan2...i hope and wish the new year ahead will be better...i know now why God had chosen me to go up the mountain earlier this year..cos He needed to teach me the journey of trying and struggling alone to keep me alive the whole year....masa betul2 mo give up..just have to walk..even though sakit just have to carry on ...

i think i really need to have a personal retreat or a day to buang sial..eh no..to throw everything yg tidak happy and give thanks..!Semua baik2 aja..not all are bad....i gain some friends a long the way this year...i fell in love this year..(boleh kan jatuh cinta sama byk benda) ...had a broken heart too..but ya sudahlah...smua baik2 aja....

this was wat i wrote after the first month 2010 http://jenkays.blogspot.com/2010/01/1-month-has-gonegoing-2nd.html

kesimpulan di hati: sometimes mankind are just cruel...but we just have to carry on..kalau tidak threat diri sendiri lebih bagus...macam mana mo harap org treat kita..Just have to carry on breathing...CINTA itu hanya perasaan..Kehendak Tuhan lebih penting..k..

Takkan Kau biarkan aku melangkah bersendirian...

Peeping Tom

A mocking bird came to spy whether i was in...

i love the part when i ignore people..and the mocking bird will come to spy....;P

Fudnote:sometime i amuse me...

Second Best

when you can't get the best...

it might be right to settle for 2nd best....

When we start to hate our own life... hate our job...hate people around us...just get a sip of a pinacolada and enjoy the breeze at the seaside..( aku tau ini tidak mungkin...tapi welll..watever it is...we still need our job...boleh janji kah kerja baru bagi kita kebahagiaan...!)

at times we have to push ourself not because we want to but we just have to...just gotta do it..

*this was the effect that came from "bunning" this evening with puan...we tried to make buns...and we followed all the ingredients and steps..even talk to the master it self how to make...! but our first try just failed big time..it came out like cookies...and we made 2nd batch it was a bit better then the first...but the first one tasted like siewpau..maybe all wat we aspect might not come in our way..the 2nd best is not as bad..when it turns out to be something else...!Don't get me wrong when i say just settle for the 2nd best...


Fudnote:semakin hari semakin dekat dgn hujung tahun...bila pandang sepanjang tahun. bertanya soalan...!What have i done the whole year?

Mempunya Hati selembut salju...!

Sang pemimpi hidupkan semangat balik..."boii..itu namanya kuda stallion.."

Arai ingin menjadi koboi...aku menjadi india.....jimron...bermimpi lebih jauh lagi.................KUDA...!

I've been feelin down lately...

for the thing that i wanted so much that i can't seem to have it..not can't but thinking of the circumstances that comes with it...there's a thing that i have been saving and wanted so much...and when it was time to get it ...there was a chemical reaction....i had mix feelin...and something bothered me...dan someone "tampar me"....it was a long ride home that i felt that my heart was broken into pieces...i cried the whole way home...

semacam dunia ni itu saja benda yg mampu buat diri sendiri gembira walaupun sekejap...there are things that you just really want in your life just to make urself happy...been down for  a week now...selalu nya buat benda utk org selalu bagi org...tapi ....

after a week of sulking i realise...ada benda yg kita perlu utk bagi pada diri sendiri supaya kita lebih semangat!

memang semangat ini patah beberapa minggu ni...! tired....confuse...and dried...

dan tengahari ni instead of goin out...aku tiba2 terasa hendak melihat movie SP ini kembali...!dan boleh rasa semangat aku hidup kembali sedikit...sebab byk perkara yang kita tidak akan paham berlaku dalam hidup...kita simpan2 dan detik tiba...mungkin perkara itu perlu di KIV kan sahaja....

i forgot of why i should think of people around me first...and it's not always about me....lupa sebentar bahawa dari dulu sudah buat keputusan utk membuat pertimbangan org sekitar dahulu...I AM NOT A PERSON YANG BILA INGIN KAN SESUATU AKAN DAPATKAN SEBAB SENDIRI MAU...!

Maka nya teringat segala sesuatu ada masa nya..kita lakukan sesuatu bukan utk mengharapkan sesuatu kembali..tp bila kita lakukan nya lakukan seperti inginkan org lakukan kepada diri kita...!

it must be the end of the year that i am feelin the edgyness and tempering..!

WHAT HAVE I DONE in 2010...

mungkin sebab smua benda yg ada di depan mata yang diingini hati ...memang tidak boleh dimiliki..!!

(can't deny ada masa merasakan just go for it...dan pikir later)

Fudnote:Aku ingin bermimpi jauh...!sekarang mungkin tidak tau apa di depan ku..tapi yakin Dia yang menopang..!

Sushi with Different sets of people...!

When the saying life is just like a box of chocolates is true...you may not know what's instore for you ...
Sometimes i seem to have fun lot's of fun...but sometimes it's just giving up all the way.... and it ain't fun no more...(tapi kalau beli choc satu jenis macam mana?)
being with different sets of people sometimes affects you...and it affects your decisions too...i kinda want to call it a domino effects...when one person saying can affect one's decision about something....sorang cakap sedap..dan org lain automatik akan cakap sedap juga...org itu cakap tidak mau dan akan menyebabkan org lain tidak mau juga...! strange but true...
sometimes it's just funny looking and realising it...but it's true...and sometimes it annoys the hell out of me..well, it's just the Domino Effects...when one falls all falls...! i kinda use to hate the phrase mana-mana saja...but now i kinda missed that....cos mana-2 is much better then Domino effect...

i have some "induviduals" that i feel best being in a group with...being best being alone with..and being best being a far from....being best as strangers...being best just a friend...

*gambar dan tajuk tidak relevan dgn post....!

Fudnote:Tuhan...aku rindu...aku mau....dekat...

Life is like Lemon Lime....

Apa perasan korang if Bos korang yang berbulan2 ignoring you..and masam2 muka with you...tetiba awal pagi masuk ofis ko and then senyum2....

rupanya anak mo masuk belajar...suruh urus...!! Damn it...! Darn It..typical...!

Dah lah lambat sudah..borang pun tidak lengkap..!


fudnote: bila korang jadi org besar nanti..pandang2 lah hati org2 kecik!!

it's made of glass...and it's broken into thousand pieces...

There are times that little things can break your spirit....little tiny words...little tiny gestures...

these are some of the days that little little thing will just lead me to just give up everything...

i wonder too why ...such a little thing can breaks one's hope...I hate the feelin of unable to decide things... and i hate the feelin of feelin guilty...and i hate most of all the feelin of being dumb...

benda ini membuat smua harapan down..it shouldn't be but it did....Hati terasa semacam digaul2 dengan garam kasar....(anyone...Hati separuh masak??)

But i kindda guess ada answer..

jawapan nya...

YA SUDAH LAH...!!(lagu berkumandang...)

wat ever it is...i have learned...but bagi lah beberapa hari utk cuci2 smua garam2 dari hati...sebab terasa sampai ke perut...! i have learned...and never...never will it happen again..! Jom hati..kita p jalan2 dan relax2...jgn kacau hidup org lain..! kita p bungee jumping...


Fudnote: semua org ada alasan tersendiri...dan hati kita berbeza2...hati bila di hancur..terasa sampai seluruh badan..! Jane...can i just HATE u for a while....!

My latest obsession

May I introduce to you all Radhi Jits Murano...

after a hard week..i finally decided to get a replacement of my departed laptop....and yes it's red...if most of you know me...and even i know myself i wouldn't pick this colour...but i think it's a bit out of rebelling and

 angerness i decided RED instead of the normal black....

it came on friday when i had a hard day..but i smiled all the way looking at it...I decided the name RADHI cos Red...(& i think it's a cool name..)

after a whole week of brain frying at work...i decided to just sit back and just detox this weekend.............

Fudnote: Suddenly forgot how to enjoy life....

Otak separuh masak...!

Aku diam sebab aku busy...

 Aku rindu akan kehidupan sebagai seorang rakyat jelata biasa yg tidak ada org ambil kisah...tapi sekarang ni aku telah menjadi artis di mana semua org berpusu2 meminta signature aku yg mahal...dan smua minta pendapat aku ....dan hari2 aku di penuhi dengan meeting2 sehingga masa makan adalah sesuatu yg luarbiasa utk aku ...satu saja..belum ada org minta bergambar dengan aku...!

i wish i was megamind..!di mana smua org tanya soalan aku tau jawapan nya..dan semua persoalan aku boleh settle....



Fudnote: Soalan pertama di otak pagi tadi...knp kita perlu mandi pagi2?

Ya sudah lah....

Ya sudahlah

Ketika mimpimu yg begitu indah,

tak pernah terwujud..ya sudahlah
Saat kau berlari mengejar anganmu,
dan tak pernah sampai..ya sudahlah (hhmm)

*reff:

Apapun yg terjadi, ku kan slalu ada untukmu
Janganlah kau bersedih..coz everything's gonna be OKAY

yo..Satu dari sekian kemungkinan
kau jatuh tanpa ada harapan
saat itu raga kupersembahkan
bersama jiwa, cita,cinta dan harapan

Kita sambung satu persatu sebab akibat
tapi tenanglah mata hati kita kan lihat
menuntun ke arah mata angin bahagia
kau dan aku tahu,jalan selalu ada

juga ku tahu lagi problema kan terus menerjang
bagai deras ombak yang menabrak karang
namun ku tahu..ku tahu kau mampu tuk tetap tenang
hadapi ini bersamaku hingga ajal datang

Sempat kau berharap keramahan cinta,
tak pernah kau dapat..ya sudahlah
yeeah..dengar ku bernyanyi..lalalalalala
heyyeye yaya dedudedadedudedudidam..semua ini belum *****hir

satukan langkah..langkah yg beriring!
genggam hati, rangkul emosi!

Genggamlah hatiku, satukan langkah kita

Sama rasa, tanpa pamrih
ini cinta..across da sea

peluklah diriku..terbanglah bersamaku, melayang jauh.. (come fly with me, baby)
Ini aku dari ujung rambut menyusur jemari
sosok ini yg menerima kelemahan hati
yea..aku cinta kau..(ini cinta kita)
cukup satu waktu yes.(untuk satu cinta)

satu cinta ini akan tuntun jalanku
rapatkan jiwamu yo tenang disisiku
rebahkan rasamu..untuk yg ditunggu

BAHAGIA..HINGGA UJUNG WAKTU..

Sila click link utk mendengar lagu...

Fudnote:Hai Jiwa...ya sudah lah...tenang saja everything is gonna be ok...!sudah december rupanya...reviewing azam 2010...! Tuhan byk permintaan 2010....dan byk juga benda yg tidak di minta pada 2010..tapi i thank You because nafas masih ada...perut masih kenyang...!family masih sihat..!Terima kasih...

Help needed

Tuhan Tolong lah....!

i need help...strength...wisdom...and patience...lots of it...!
lots of it right now....

Fudnote:smlm tengok di cermin...rambut putih ku semakin byk...

Kau beri yang ku pinta...!

been hearing this background song for days now...realising how it makes me feel inside...!! not always that i ask much...not always i get much either...


i am glad that i feel very tired this few days...that i realise that all i need is His strength to carry on...!with all the things happening around me...! the BIGGEST restructuring at work...!(which i found myself to careless..but deep down inside i am scared to death till i can pee in my pants...)work pilling in and i just can't cope!...decisions need to be made...!Hearts need to be impress..(which i am not gonna do...)...financial reconstruction that i need to do personally...!expectation that need to be fulfilled...! WHAT THE HECK!!!..i wish i could just throw everything out the window and move to the country side and sit in front of my porch looking at the stars sipping my liquor (i would say coffee but i don't drink coffee)

this life is so in a mess right now that i know there be something big instore but i just need to just let HIM have His way...I know this world is not easy...people are not easy...especially when they discriminate you based on your religion...treat you like ass when it comes to being fair...! takpa lah..kita smua akan diadili at the end of this race...! so i couldn't careless of people at work..!

love this wikipedia boy !! didn;t know he did that expression..we were suppose to say O....!

Kepala ku makin sakit hari ni...! i think kalau esok masih sama i need painkiller!!.. or ada org mo ikut sama2 p therapy makan atau shopping?

fudnote: last nite i bit my tongue so hard it bleed...!aku nangis sorang2..!lidah ku kini berlubang di tengah2....

Living in a buble..

Have you ever felt that you've been living in a buble...this few days i have been feeling that my head is in a big bubble....the feeling that you can fly...and when you want to express urself you just can't...and like you're floating in a stream....

can someone come and help me pop this bubble......?

Swollen Eye...and a Bad Headache!

Woke up this morning...drag myself to the shower...

got ready for work..

came to work...

Darn it...

Mata-mata ku bengkak ni hari....

kepala rasa mo pecah...

Fudnote:Tuhan..is it ok if i ask You WHY??...rasanya aku yg tak tahan kerja sini tapi org lain pulak yg berhenti..!

Old is the word!

Hot sun + long trip = tired + getting old!

i come to realise that i am getting old...nah..shud i say i admit that age is really catching up...is having a splitting headache...!and is starting a new week with a moan..!

Darn..maka nya bermula jadual yg padat bekerja sama kumpulan bengongs...sampai i leave for my christmas holidays...! ironically 5 days away when i walk in today like i had never left this place..!my head is spinning and am bombarded by complains and complains and it's only 8.22am on a monday morning!!

God please help to breath and to survive the month of december...!

fudnotes:  i realise too that i can't drive too long ...espeacially when it's not my own car...and the sun is burning my eyes..!Never again!!.

13 November

I am being blessed and remembering of who my CREATOR is....

and knowing how sad it might be to have your subjects stray away from You and always complainning about the bullshit life we're going through

I am blessed to know that i am LOVED by lots...and is in lots of people's heart....(i always wondered do people think of me often?)

sometimes i wish for a grand party entrance for my birthday..NOTTTTTTTTTTT... i wish for a quite birthday to share with loves ones and to reflect of what life is suppose to be ...full of abundent blessings! overflowing gifts of life until i don't notice most of them....

the one person i remembered the most today is my mom..! she carried me for 9 months and 10 days...(hence the stuborness in me since before birth...refusing to come out)..and during the 9 months 7 months she was in and out of the hospital with bad morning sickness...and went through hours n hours2 of labour...! i thank God for my mom who brought me to this earth on the 13 of November...!

i wanted to threat myself with shopping spree..! took out my money and went shopping....went to KLCC...isetan mark n spencer..parkson and even zara..! Nike...adidas...i went to zara and saw this nice shirt...! i wanted to try...tanya..."abang, ini ada XL...." only to be answered back in a pondaness voice....tak der kak...sini paling besar L........"cilakas ....nak aku lempang saja dia tu and bakar saja itu kedai...!

i went to al iksan wanted to get the travelling sandle..tiada yg bergaya dan canteks pulak...!! went to parkson again in kajang...couldn't find anything ada try on googles brand baju which i like...! damn cilakas aku udah gumuk!!! tia muat pun XL....!!!

finally with the clock ticking..and with 1k...! i rest my case...and................

when to giant and spend RM21.95

buying:

Tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....(korang tidak rasa benda2 ini macam cubaan mau membunuh diri saja kah?) *sinki dapur selalu blocked bah..hehehe..........

SO that's it ..how i wanted to spend RM1k of the golden dreams i always wanted to do...!! shop with RM1k on my birthday!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SELF....!!

*i got cupcakes...a song sang by someone...2 iphone pics...half of a real iphone...1 HTC handphone...1 tiket flight (tunggu 0.00) a mangkuk of siput!!...lots of wishes via FB and SMSes...a meal in burger kings...!

I AM BLESSED...!

Without Her i am none..

my mom

a tired grandma who couldn't catch up with her cheeky grandson...!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MA!

Dreams and Hopes...!

often i dream and hope to be rich...! "rich" to me is when i can buy anything i want without hasisting...!without asking people..."hey..wat you think about this...?"...sometimes the reasons i ask my closest friends..cos i need you guys to pray about it (ni kes malas mau doa sendiri)

there are lot's of things that i want just because...just because.............

but anyway....maybe it's just hormonal urge....!

can i like get something that people will roll up their eye's and say haiyah..why you need this..! and i will just say i just want it because i want it

Fudnote:how to survive amongst my kabigans who are not gadgets freaks....!susah aku mo hidup!ahaks

....watever....

sememang nya kalau byk perkara tidak mengikut keinginan diri sendiri selepas lama di rancangkan boleh membuat diri ini hanya berkata WATEVER LAH...

dan

ini membuat diri ini tidak lagi mau merancang apa2...dan memikirkan apa rancangan lagi lepas ini..!

this is wat you get when you get to excited and then things are just not going as plan..!

gwe udah MALAS...

note yg menjadi impian: i wanna go away this weekend...but i don't know where...and who with..!can i just follow my heart?more gadgets perhaps..!

Why I hate WEEKENDS (technically) the real story!!

ok i finally remembered to bring my memory card...!(my house laptop just can't update blog or comment!!)don't ask me why... i think i'll let the pics tell you the story of my life during weekends...!!

Friday Morning...!

Brownies cik lahongs..!

Still on friday morning...!!

Mee sedaps goreng + Maggie Kari with aksesories..!

 Saturday evenings...!

 Mary's Lamb Chops...(so cruel this name) notice the coke light? atleast ada kesedaran utk kasi kurang

Sunday's Evening

 Mee Bandungs org Muar !

All the pictures had been resize so that you all won't be drooling on your computers keyboards...!! so i guess i pack up 6kg during the weekend instead of 6 packs that i wanted....! this were the main dishes ya....i had lot's of side lines in between...!! oh darn..!! WHAT ARE YOU DOING JANEEEEEEEEEEEEeeee...!! Guess I'm just having FUN with my life...!..ahhhhhhhhhhh..the wonders of food that can do wonderfull things to your mind and destroy your body....!

dy, tis is wat i bought....came to realise that it matches my rice cooker....hehehe..hopefully i will use it again sometime...thanks dy for the consultations...!! look at the end product...!! it's Depa-vali k..! so it's a little black ehehe...!

actually there was a mishap...hehehe..i didn't know you are Not suppose to bake with 250celcius hehehe...!! (patut lah bau hangit!!!) but it was saved in time...!!if you want to know how it taste like...ask cik lahongs..! these brownies belongs to her..!(oh ya i improvise the ready mix actually adding milk, cadbury chocs..and almonds...!)

Yippey yeay notes:Kabigans the count down has started....!! I think we have to have meetings about our next year trips k...!!

I Hate WEEKENDS (technically)

I really hate weekends so much....!!

esok lah cerita k...today forgot memory card niko so no pics to share...!

Nota hati yg tidak malu: Berat gwe udah naik..!tapi aku suspek sebab rambut aku udah panjang...it contributes to my weight gain...

Life investment...

 I still don't know what i want to do and what to do.....

But all i know is...I am sick and tired of this low life work and place that is filled with unscrupulouse people who i think have brains smaller than a brain of a prawn (if prawns have brains that is) i just want to vommit thinking of my work place...!!

 This sunset's were taken during my trip back recently and i was on the way to the airport for my flight...as i look back from the car....there was an awesome sky......i almost cried missing the life that i would miss....my family ....my house...the place i grew up were everybody knows everybody...!where you could just sit at the coffee shops and re order stuffs and people couldn't careless...!

last nite as i sit down and think of my bloody future...i decided to do something with my life before this year ends....once someone told me...try first and if you don't succeed atleast you tried...! so in this two months i am gonna try some "stupid" things...daring things..!! and JUMP!!!

i'm gonna invest on my buddy..NIKOLAUS...!! and somemore things...! Atleast i try...!!!

i certainly hope it works (hearing : I wanna be a billionare..! so freakin bad in my ears right now...)

I started baking...!Roasting....!steaming....!dieting....!EATING....!crying...!! and i still don't feel right...!! so now i will bow my head and kneel down and pray...! and Do things hopefully God permits me...!

I AM SICK AND TIRED OF PEOPLE around me...!

Life investment is investing in God's kingdom! (yes i know but i still lack it)

fudnote: I just only purchase a life insurance...! And I feel protected! LOL

Pie-ing on a foggy day...

Kepada kengkawan yang bekerja di kementerian Heath ni ...sila lah bagitau bila mo buat fogging sila lah buat pengumuman dulu...! Yesterday they had fogging at my place...all the rush for nothing...i rush home so pump up to bake yesterday....ada jg sms satu org tapi dia teda balas...so makan sorang2 lah nampak nya...! was in the midst of boiling my potatoes when suddenly there was sound of fog machines (is that wat you call them) and suddenly my place was full of fog!!! had to shut everything close all windows....i waited for the fog and fumes to die down then started my project again...



Muahhhhhhhhhahahahhahaa................. BURPS...!

SPEECHLESS ONCE MORE..!

Tiredness that pays...!

my body is still adjusting with the culture and weather hahaha...! had a busy weekend...covering hakim's wedding ...
it was a wild shoot out....we rush to malacca from work because we were told that akad nikah was at 7.30pm....we left the office at 5.45pm...had to stall a little while because mr Stich..!! hehehehe..bahar my new partner in crime...couldn't find his memory card...!! Without a memory card a photog is like a a paralyze man..! he search high and low..and couldn't find...no time to waste we had to rush...so we decided he using my memory card and shooting alone...! luckily Hakim had a spare and he took his camera to melaka too..! so that was settle..but the whole way from bangi to melaka..traffic was like hell..!! but we got there just in time when the tok kadi came...! kesian mamat sorang terpaksa tahan kencing the whole way...!we were with 2 pairs of battery only for our flash gun..!(wanted to stop by petronas but didn't have time)..note to self and partner...get ready stuffs way before hand hehehe..!
after everything was finish that nite..! adalah mamat sorang ni found out his wallet went missing..!! haiyo..! sudah lah card hilang wallet pun hilang..! we search for the wallet and found the memory card in geri..!! isk..isk..isk..!! went back to the pengantin's house to search for wallet..! didn't find it.... then rasa mau lempang saja tu org..! his wallet was in his bag!!!!!!!!! haishhhhh...!!!!!!!

after all the comotion we decided to look for a hotel...(jgn salah sangka bah gou...kami check in dua bilik bah...)thanks anyway of being panic..!!we had to turn up the next morning at 9am....it was an adventures drive lah looking for cheap hotels ...!! ok lah sambung lain kali lah ..idea sudah hilang..!tata

sekali skala tunjuk gambar sendir lah...can? hahaha..!!Muka serabai...!!
i like my new toys..!!

Today is too ..not a good day...!

Aku mau jadi kuda!

just wanted an interesting and catchy title....had a very bad day today...it's another day when everything went wrong...if i always tell you all that my blood was boiling..today was like mad until i think my blood's not boiling anymore until the pot is dry....

drove back home and had a good cry...yeah now i know it's just best just to cry like hell and feel a bit better later...!

today i just wish and hope that God permits what i will and am doing...i may not know wats in store for me..but all i know is today is not a good day..i'll stopplanning and trying to accomodate people for a bit...cos i just don't wanna care..!!

tidak mo berharap tinggi..aku mau seperti jimbron...mo menjadi kuda...kuda yg laju yg boleh lari selaju2nya...

fudnote:after 4 large muffin ...i am still hungry...

Therapy in progress...

it might not be the yummiest muffin but it is self bake...!! my first attempt of baking..i didn't know baking was this fun...!!

the first muffin i ever baked..! isn't she ugly hehehe..!

first batches that i put in the microwave just to try...the tray was small for my oversize cups..! bagus juga pandai kasi kurang inti masuk dalam cups kalau tidak paster berlimpah2....

ada hati mo bagi org wakakkakaka....kihkihkih....ofcourse lah i can't eat myself...after this i want to experiment with Rum and wisky...hehehe...! can i bake wisky or Rum  filled muffins???

if you guys were awed by my baking...look again ....semesti nya ini dari box lah bah...!! kasi chan lah first time.... i didn't have a measurement cup...no mixer... 

taaddaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... i bought this box...hehehe..but atleast i improvise hehehe..i bought choc chips and mix it in...(actually bought almonds but it went missing).....i think i got too carried away with the choc chips... for those who bake.. i wanna ask you..!!

HOW ON EARTH TO YOU MEASURE WATER BY GRAM?????adoyaiiii!!! marah pun ada...!!was wondering wat the heckkkkkkkkk???

i made half of the box...was wondering too how to use 1 and half egg hehehe..(i put 2 instead..)

okes that's all for my baking adventure...! and i will have to think twice before i start baking again hehehe..! hard work....!!but i tell you i don't know why but i had tears in my eyes while watching the muffun "grow" in the oven!!!

Introducing Johannah Rinnai Joshua

the little princess of Joshua and Joy arrive early....

JOHANNAH RINNAI JOSHUA

2.2kg at 3.30am

Here are some pics...

proud mummy....

proud parents........

asher checking out the latest addition amoi in this world...

cutekan..wondering wat was he thinking......he was like a superstar heheheee....the hospital had a full house...this is a pic...asher shopping around..

CUTENESS!!!

addition to the new generation...overwelm juga lah...when a set of friends are crown as parents....wishing them both strenght to raise a human being...i respect parents...!!i heart those babies....!!!

Fudnote:Tuhan boleh kah aku dapat satu?

Peer Pressure!

SPEECHLEESSSS...!

Fudnote:I am innocent,i fell for peer pressure..i had to do it..! (but it was a great time!

Moonshine weekend..!

blame it on a lazy monday that i had no mood to updet...! i had a mooshine weekend...bz...tiring but enjoyable...i got to know more about my own inner self that i seldom see...! the cool and patience self..(angkat bakul sendiri)

when i say moonshine it's kinda like being drunk kan?yeah i had a full dose of friends the whole weekend...! but before meeting the whole clan..i had to toil myself in the Gym...!!thanks to puan.. we started our day early...after 2 hours of sweat and a plate of wantan mee...! i was off for my weekend..!i did a little alone time at home too....have you guys tried this???

 yummy ooo....when your on a diet it's like torturing yourself....! smell so nice that you just wanna lick it!!!

tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....!!reminds me of pulau 3....!

after all that pampering....and cancelation of plans to be gluttons... i had my time off with astro..! thank God for astro!! but when you're on diet it's dangerous to watch AFC!!i was like so so so hungry...ada lah org sentul tu..!! bila di mesej mereply...belum ada lagi org mati tidak makan satu hari!! apa punya kawan..! but something cute happen..! someone tetiba sms and said will be at my door step in 20 minutes....and that someone turn up with..

kihkihkihk...! how tot full!!how could i turn down when i was so hungry...!! sedaps bila di cecah dengan roti..!

teringat BanMie in HCMC...!!

afer that we had a vocal trainning session with pare and the geng...!! rupanya ada lagu iban byk di CBox hehehee..no pics..! have to ask from pare..he had the camera...!

with a little sleep!! the next morning i had to rush for a photoshoot..!Hakim's pre wedd...i discovered a partner in crime in this new york hat guy...!!

after the shoots...me and pare zasss to tanjung malim just in time to catch Jay after her convo...! cool lah to have a impromtu trip...then we had bowling..! and then jumpa org sentul p talipon..! that sentul girl was cruel to me by reminding me of my diet the whole time we were in talipon...!! nyeh...!
(if you notice why i am fastforwarding my story...bos panggil bah..heheh tapi sibuk updet blog kihkihkihkih)

oh ya i got a present for myself..!

tadaaaaaaaaaaaaa...!! mari lah datang rumah kita buat girly stuffs...!!

Aku tia mo jadi pegawai..aku mo cuba jadi photog...mo cuba jadi tukang masak..mo cuba jadi tukang rambut...mau cuba jadi tukang buat kek...mau cuba jadi apa2 saja yg menyenangkan hati...!!HATI BERBUNGA2..!!!

fudnote:Friendship is like antics...the older it is the more expensive it becomes...! I LOVE My FRIENDs!!