a sad Good Friday

 It's a Good Friday in a different way.....

Everyday in my life i prayed that God will give me time...

time to do all things..

but now i realise it that

everything is in His hands....

we may plan...we may have our own mind...

but 

He has the last say....

This few days had been tiring...lack of sleep can make a mind wonders....

everything was done fast....

and this is wat i know....She is in a better place...

intro of my tepu:she wanted to be buried in style...and always said her grave must be extra-canteks....and guess what...her grave lot was the first lot near the main gate of the Grave yard...God is Awesome...He gives the impossible to us...so tepu..May you rest in peace...and you got what you have always wish for..a resting place that is the best of all...  

Heartnote: to live is for Christ to die is to gain...

I heart my Family

i was reading my family emails (yes we have this thing that we update everyone about ourself-mom's side).and i don't know why but i was touched by my dad's simple email.He seldom writes and this one was simple and meaningfull.

It's good to hear that the children all like school.

Today Elizabeth was making 'chung' and Edmund was asking her
what she was making.After a bit of explaination Ed said we are
chinese that's why we celebrate chinese new year.We have not tell him
he is not 'officially' a chinese yet.Maybe a chinese at heart.


kalang

I am glad that i was raised up well...even though growing up i hated so much being in this family (must be the growing up stage)we were diffrent...we were neither Chinese nor Kelabit....we were just diffrent...we didn't speak neither language...i remember refusing to attend chinese classes...and remembering how hard to talk to my kelabit grandparents...i have a chinese face with a kelabit surname.it was hard growing up...without a real identity...but as a grew older i realize that i was special...I was unique..and

 i pray that my nephew grow up to realize he is special and is from a unique backgrown..

i already know he will grow up a handsome boy who would break lot's of girls heart...:P ...

 

this little boy who is obses with dinosaurs...and can remember all the names of the types of dinosaur...but struggle to write a simple chinese word everyday - homework from school...

miss his darling behaviour but can't stand it when he is naughty....!

FUDNOTE: God, thanks for everything You have done in my life...and thank you for taking care of my family too

the little things in life...

There are the little things in life that will make this life worth living on....this few days have kept me thinking (oh no not again) with stuffs goin on around me...with the time flying by so fast..as if i am on the fast lane and i really wanna go to the left lane at the slowest lane....but i kinda want some things to come my way fast..and some to go slow....(but what i want seems not to be what i will be given most of the time)...

when i read dy's post got me thinking...yeah people in our life really are important to keep us goin...keep us sane from this insane world....keep us humble in certain things...keep us UP when we are really down...

and somethimes keep this life worth living....

I was asked about something this week that suddently made my brains go wild and my heart go crazy....(as if i haven't been crazier) and it got me thinking....

yeah really we need people around us to keep us sane...! and keep us from doing stupidos stuff in our live...so i kinda love...love...love... my friends...!!! (bukan yg dalam gambar saja ok...yg teda dalam gambar pun love..love..love jugak...)

so at the craziest times...i look at my craziest and funniest pics..and make me breath again...make me have this excitement to go on.....

My family generates the greatness of being wanting to be something in this world..and their existance are the reason that i will carry the pride of my family...and i will honour my parents and people older then me and i will be humble dispite what ever people say..or provoke me...!my parents have thought me well...!

Most of all i really realise that my faith is important to me ..and it is more important then nothing else....and i am reminded that i have this life because of my creator...and i will go on with His will and to trade in my faith for some other is not and option...and never will be...

jadi bila persoalan: religion is a small matter...I provoke it...!! permulaan yg serius post kali ni berakhir dengan picas di bawah.....

ya mari lah ketawa bersama-sama lalalalalalalalaaaaaaaaa..jadi kengkawan kasi remind lah saya kalau gwe hanyut ya...!! tapi gwe rasa gwe udah pulih dan diperbaiki :P..... i will never trade my faith...!!

(GWE SUNGGUH HAPPY kerana ada motive hidup sudah )jadi kabigans...mari lah kita mengumpul USD yang byk2 ya...!! sila lah menjadi kan lagu I want to be a millionaire so freakin bad...sebagai lagu tema hidup kita  !!

Happy Reddish day....!

So..it's Chinese New Year and Valentine at the same time...!

today was a day well spend...i had fun being close family...smlm terasa macam budak2 balik...main mercun like last time...!! hahaha...really miss being a kid...and ada juga adegan kena marah atas cobaan mencuri makanan dari while waiting for dinner...!

man..i missed being in this small town...

ini antara aktiviti memuja hari kekasih...!! :P

factnote: agaknya valentine tahun depan apa aku buat ah?

5 OCT 2009- My Papa's Bornday....

He is the son of My Grandfather and Grandmother

He is the husband of my mother

He is the father to my brother and me

He is the GrandFather of Edmund....

He was a teacher to lots of students...and he was a student himself....

Now he is trying to be a farmer...to farm the land his father had farm...

He is trying to live back the life he had before he left his village...the village he had left more then 40 years ago...

I hear the stories he tells...some made me laugh..some made me cried...some even put me in disbelieve....but i know he had gone far...he had gone through lots...i am only half his age...and i tot i gone thru lots...but nothing compare to what he has been through...

walking to school in the jungle barefooted....goin out to a foreign land...struggled with cancer....work up a career....had a retirement plan...and is still trying to enjoy retirement...

My dad...

the man i respect...

the man i love....

the man i look up to...

the man who made me cry and laugh at the same time..

the man who sometimes makes me angry but at the end of the day he is the one i turn to too...

the man that gave me life...

THANKS PA...HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

My DIET Went Crash Boom Bang...!

1st Day RAYA...

Happy Raya Everybody..! IT's a holiday time..!
"Aku rasa aku dah lost weight sudah..!!" this was what was playing in my mine..! but then the festive season had to come and ruin everything...semua salah ko semua salahhhhh kooooooooooo..!! (*cover line dengan rasa tidak bersalah hahhaa)

Makan syndrom started with pre raya where i had a delicious extravaganza western meal...ini gara2 mata besar dari perut.. byk sangat mengorder...



Went to melaka this morning for Raya at my cousins place...before that ..had to tell...i drove my cousin Jacob's Triton this morning...fuh dahsyat lah drive 4wd ni...cruising the highway...miraclely there was no jammed today...where have everybody gone!!! but as usual..me as the pilot...memang suka bawa sesat2 hahahaa...sekali lagi utk tahun ini beraya aku sesat lagi...! every year p mesti buat adegan sesat!!! macam ritual pulak..~

as usual beraya mesti is all about makans...(hhehehe ini taksiran sesat aku)so apa lagi lah makan sini makan sana..!never ending eating story...siap tapau lagi bila balik..!

This pics is my aunty and cousins...(see it's really genetic...i tell you genetic!!)

And i had to make things worst by goin to secret recipe to buy cakes...I am so so addicted to Macadamia White Choc Cake...!! it's been almost a week that i have cravings for it...!craving as in hari2 makan ...aduhsssssss...demmit..!! please stop jane...please....!

oh ya ni latest obsession too...makan begitu saja..and makan dengan nasi pun boleh...!! TEMPEYEK!!

I SO HATE HOLIDAYS NOW...!! hahahhaa..asal cuti saja makan non stop!! aduii..dui..dui...! and i think by the end of this holiday aku ni will be addicted to something too...! macam everynite saja ada drinking session ni...! kena habis kan lah if not will sambung and sambung :P...

see ya next update..i have to eat something again........!