Thursday, April 28, 2011

Can't pick myself up...

 Kinda feel life is a blur
where everything is just not clear...
it's funny as i read some of my Yahoo,FB and blog status for the past week...was picking up stuffs....slowly had a goal....had some hard task to do but was picking things up as i go...
but suddenly this few days everything just fell....

as i browse thru my collection of pics...i came upon this pic....(abaikan lah pelakon2 sampingan) when everything falls ruin like this...how is it possible for anyone to look for the pieces that fits...(ingat zigsaw puzzle kah????)....
i am in the midst of picking up work....
picking up stuffs,clearing up things...in the midst of doing that...i hear lot's of things said againts me....and everytime i think about it i always think what on earth am i doing this for...why should I...?
 the struggle to tamed poeple at work...for their own good (even if they don't realise it)
 to think that i really had the heart to give up my chances of getting APC to give to some other staff....(what stupidity you might think i have....but as i think that it's better giving to someone who thinks he or her deserved it...kadang2 ada fikir mo blajar utk ada muka tebal)
it's hard when everybody is againts everything...

and my struggle to keep my own life intact!!!
(byk benda yg tidak boleh settle)-
when i wish this year that i would to earn more money for my big family...i really wish i had it now.....
 at times i think that i really cannot go on...!
 but i know everything is well.........there are things that i myself cannot control....
i just hope....
despite the ruins and the blurness...i will soon see....
 See that everything is clear....! and everything is beautiful...

the journey must go on....
biarlah org maki..org ludah...org rejam pun....
this life must go on...

heartnote:it is You that make my life sane every second of my life....it is YOU...


3 comments:

Dy said...

Hey there :) Keep your heads held high my dearest friend... for we have Someone fighting for us and alongside with us. Yeah, He might feel extra far at times, but that's when He's really near. Let's keep our eyes on Him and everything around will grow strangely dim ya! Hang on there mate!!! This life is temporary!! :)

kukuanga said...

darn the ruins!
i missed those, aint me?

i still have the chili's cert. we checked up the place last week. a friend, first timer there completely fall for that mashed potatoes. hihihi... nah rasakan... manada di kuching tu? that pindik2 tagap man from tibet still work there. and jen, we really should try pi tidur sana the Garden apartment.. its super comfy!

i know, i'm barking off ikut suka hati and tidak berkaitan dengan post. food lifts my mood up, you know..

oi.. the next time aku pu tpt ko, kasi jumpa sy sama mr. macho ko. i want to look at his hands. just the hands.. i promise (wink! wink!)

ahahahha.. you're smiling. you'll live. sekian.

jenkays said...

Togou:thanks i am smilling while reading ur post....!darn it...ko buat aku senyum2 sorang2 dalam bilik kaca ni...!encik macho tu i think sudah jumpa org :P

DY:yes i know this is temporary and soon we will see the best of life.....