Scattered

For so long have i been feeling so so "scatered"...

with the meaning of being in so many emotion...

angry,happy sometimes....

lazy...hardworking sometimes...

up..down..

mostly being bottered by work where i am trying hard not to break down and trying hard to be strong and trying to berlagak like a leader...!

one thing i realise that is..if you want to be a leader..don't get your emotion get into the way...how hard decision might be...just do it even if you don't like

it's a lonely path...and i kinda hate it...(with all the back stabing and the scud missle at me)

but i am glad at the end of everything when i get home or go out with friends...i forget all that and get into "me mode"...!where i will be myself...!

now there is a crazy feelin inside me of what is next...!

but i realise that all i can do is i hope and pray..and surrender...

truely i miss..the cookings...the baking...the joking...(mau cakap jogging tapi kurang lah :P)

i miss being me...

FUDNOTE: i when to watch Justin Beiber...(yes i did) there was a funny feelin while watching it..somehow i get to know how it feels...and why we just have to hope and believe in HIM....