HO HO HO

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE...!!

i love everyone of you...Have a merry2 christmas everybody....!! Let's makan,makan and makan....!!!

the greatest give i would wish for is everybody be healthy....!!

muahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....!!

fudnote:this is a auto generated hehehe..aku kat bario sekarang ni...!

I'm leaving on a jet plane...

I'm leaving on a jet plane...to the place where i belong..........

everytime when it's time to pack my bags and leave i have mix feelins...why eh? maybe cos i know everything will end...and coming back to this place means days of suffering to get back in track...haish....i dun like this place no more....!!

this time it's diffrent..i'll be goin away and be back to a new year...!

looking forward for next year very much sebab travelling plans...but not so looking forward to face the new year...time flys so fast that i think i am static in my life...

kinda look forward to fly back to bario too..cos it's a heaven for photoshoot...i will try to get back to nature...away from the hustle bustle of this place.....maybe it's' time to detox my mind,heart and soul...

futnote: hati tetiba rindu someone...

And it feels like....

it's the time again to conclude the year...how time really zoom by...i hate it dow..really hate it...it's like i am just sitting around in a feriss wheel..it turns and turns around and it's time to come down....

i simply hate this time of TIME when you start to analyze about wat you have done the whole year and start thinking of wat you want to accomplish the new year...it's like trying to crack your head to write a fairytail...it's like everything was not real...Did i really do that??did i go for real???did i get over that obstacle???Did i really buy that???did i??did i? and then come the i wish i had done that...i wish i didn't do that...oh man........(don't you feel the anxiety i am in right now...)

at this moment i am thinking about this phrase..."let go and let God do His work..." sometimes it is only human to be nervous...when your at the brink of the edge and say yeah i let go...but really would He help?or wud He decide i have to learn the hard way..

365 days seems so little...much laughter had been laugh....much tears flowed too...and along the way i got to know real friends....and learn to be more patience...i have 5 more days to instill the feelin of thanks giving in my heart.....

please God slow down so i can catch up...

Happy Birthday DIANA LABUNG...!!!

Happy Birthday Dy....

you know i have been thinking wat to write about you ooo...on the flight back from kk i even took out a notebook to scribble... but i couldn't start...everytime i tot of something i wanted to cry...(and even as i type this there is tears in my eyes)...

I can never explain the bond that we have together...selalu nya yang ada kaitan dengan hati kan...! there are lot's that we've been through....funny times...(ingat masa kita kerja Glory bookstore???lawak bodoh we work there kan),sad times..ini byk hehehe(i remember wat you did when i needed to go back emergency to kuching)...and lot's of feelins times too kan...! thanks Dy...that's all i think i can say putting everything in just one word...THANKs....

i think lagu you say it best when you say nothing at all is the best utk now....byk benda to say sampai speechless....

well have a blessed Bday...and many years to come...life is like being at sea...sometimes there are storms...sometimes the sea is calm..sometimes there will be rainbows..sometimes the view will be extatic...but all thru this time...we know who our CREATOR is...! i am glad that you were born dy...cos you are one of the pillars of my life...and once again..THANKS....

Happy Birthday TOGOU@TUGOU...

Happy Birthday LYDIA..!!

Togou...togou..wat can i say...Happy Birthday...hope you had a blast masa birthday ko....and melayankan kerenah gila2 kami waktu itu...tidak payah cerita byk gambar2 akan dapat menceritakan...!!

kami bersama-sama tanpa nite...!!

Nite..nite..aku tak boleh tolong lah ko sini ni...!!

Mare,resolution next year...!! kita buat shoots yang byk2 di tempat2 kita pigi...!! TIBET mare....TIBET...!!!
tp mo kasi slim lah seblum vietnam supaya muat dalam itu terowong tikus durang...hehehehe

Goin away to the same place the same time the same Crowd!!

this time it feels diffrent...i know not why...but it feels not the same...

don't get me wrong...i've been waiting for this moments a long time ago..but the feelin is just confusing....

sehingga aku sampai mungkin aku akan tau perasaan sebenar...!

i got to get out of this place for a little while...!i've gotta go....!!

Did i tell you guys??

Please show me the way out of this stupid place....

After all these things that happen to me...did i tell you guys that i had an anxiety attack...my chest was in pain and i couldn't do anything i tot i was having a heart attact..someone told me i look pale...serius i have never felt like this..all i wanted to do is to cry but i couldn't i was damn angry with people with their stupid jokes...but of all i just didn't know wat to do...!! my head hurts so much that if feels like it iss being crack...!! my heart felt like it was being stab so many times with a sharp thing...i couldn't breath well...i couldn't think well..all i wanted was a hug or a reassurance that everything wud be ok but people around me were just being them and couldn't careless...they were just being them..! tapi apa juga kan wat do i actually want them to do..!! there and then that i know that org2 semua itu tarak boleh pakai punya org..!! maybe they don't know why it's important to me..!! cuba kalo diaorg raya and kena buat macam tu kan...!! but then again after a few days i gave a little tot...apa maksud Krismas..!! its all about love kan..! it's all about sharing joy to the world..how much my heart was hurting..i tot to myself biarlah..! it's not for me to balas...it's not for me to argue...it's just how the world is..it's just how people are...! (ada lori ada bas ada hari saya balas) this is not a good thing but this is how people do kan...i tot to myself...Dia melihat ..Dia merasa....biarlah mereka itu..! forget about it Jane... Forget about it...! i am in a place that they wud never know why it's important to me..! because they don't know...!

Bayangkan perasaan di sayangi sepanjang di miri...tiba2 to come back to a place where everybody are such a darn pain in the ass...!! bayangkan how i feel...bayangkan...

Tuhan Kau Menang lagi kali ni ...Kau menang lagi..!w/pun my heart hurts so much that i feel like jumping from the 11th floor..! but it'll be a stupid thing to do...!aku semakin kurang dan Kau semakin tambah....so ajar lah aku mengasihi org sekitar aku...ajar aku bersabar...ajar aku bertahan..!

Friend,now i know who loves me and who just are friends because they need somethings..but anyway...all are dear to me...! and real friends cried when i cried..real friends hurt when i hurt...thanks for being my real friends...! I love you all..!

Bila Hati sangat sedih...

Hati aku sedih lah ....
sangat-sangat sedih....
My leave tidak kena lulus for krismas tapi ada org yg tidak sambut krismas yang kena lulus....beberapa hari around people yang don't give a damn and thinks ini bukan masalah makes my heart event broken....SYIAL lah org2 ni...cuba bila korang raya korang tidak boleh cuti!!

mo nangis saja beberapa hari ni ...memang teda mood ..apalagi bersama org yg selfish...!! otak udang..!!bongok..bodoh...!how insensitive...k lah cukup lah...aku rasa macam mo mengalah kali ni...biarlah...Tuhan adil dalam apa Dia buat kan...!

after all Christmas is all about love...so biar lah...!teda cuti biar lah...tiket cost RM600 hangus begitu saja biarlah....janji janji me sama my parents, my family to be back for Christmas...biarlah...! hope everyone is happy...!! BIarlah...biarlah...

I need a hug!! and i need in badly....

feelin: ultimately sad...can i just quit this place and go back where people are considerate...!!

MIRI

Gua Niah - Separuh Jiwa ku...

Ini muka before...(masih lagi muka tidak tau perjalanan 8km)

Ni muka masih ingat trip p balik 4km :P

Ni muka lepas 8km..camera pun senget sudah...sama only took 1 sebab tidak larat

bila cakap mau p... Gua Niah..everybody tot we were crazy... but i tot we had fun..memang macam mengembara...konon nya mo bertolak at 6am ( sorry uncle,tidak bermaksud menipu tapi spt korang cakap gua belum buka...)

we started journey pukul 8am...me with my heavy equipment plus spare tyre sini sana...memang rasa berat 100kg...but redah saja...

but i was really greatful that we did this trip w/pun tidak cukup kuorum...(mesti fun gila2 kalau smua ada kan???) betul2 rasa cabaran mental and fizikal betul jalan2 di Gua Niah this...tapi yg paling best bila rasa mo give up betul2 ada org tanya are you ok?and di kasi suluh jalan...(terharu aku masa ni ...tp diam2 saja hehhee) terus terpikir ni lah kengkawan aku sehidup semati hhahhaha...

MIRI 26-29 November 2009 - Separuh Hati tertinggal di Miri

Seems kejap saja di Miri, but don't know why macam lama..macam byk benda we did...tapi i sure miss the nite snacks malam2....Mee kolok putih,merah,hitam ..wakakakak.....(nite kami makan bah mee kolok merah dengan lahong..memang merah bah...korang hari tu tertipu sudah hehehe)

The BEDINS...

Our photog kecik..!!

Cute dania kan..?

Si daddy ni...isk isk..isk...(still can't get over percubaan aku mengorat nya that nite) dania so serius....!!

Really had a great time with real friends kat miri...even kita semua bukan asal sana hehehe...

we tend to laugh at each other sometimes...be cruel to each other...but it's ok the bond that bind us seems stronger...i am glad i made this trip sort of see a side of miri that i have never seen before...suddenly made it sad to leave that day...betul2 rasa macam tidak mo balik...! when i reach LCCT otw home i don't know why but i cried the whole way back...seperti ada something i left behind...tetiba Miri seems to feel macam home...like everybody made us at home...and was really fun seeing even family of friends made me feel like i was a part of them...meeting nite's parents...abi's, jo's...lahongs family....macam kita pun jadi family...memang rasa peliks kan...I can never explain the relationship we all have with each other...we were all from different background and we met in kajang...and we are all friends..or shall i say family till now...