Life passing by on the fast lane...

(Gambar hiasan tidak berkaitan)

guys thanks for being still friends it has been more then 10 years....

i suddenly have this nausea feelin because of time passing by on the fast lane...rasa macam semua org ada kemajuan..org smua maju depan...org semua ada additional of something in their life that boleh di shout out in their lives....

Me...as for me...wanna scream pun takda suara kluar...! (not that i am not counting my blessings k)

feelin of being static in this fast turning world ...everything is catching up with me...work..life..age...sampai i think i am just standing still while my life passes in front of me...everyday with my own mind..."normal life" kecuali occasionally ada somefriends enters the scene and leave again...!but i am thanking God too for these moments..masa aku muak...aku letih...there are moments yg God let's me have fun..."FUN"..have a break where i can go away with a bunch of Psychotic Food hunters....and pigout ourselves only to regret everything at the end when we see our bulging,flabbing,tangy,tummy...!!

wishing that we spend more time exercising..jogging...and watever...(tapi itu smua fantasi seseorang)

looking at my life now...i simply think it's a boring one...just that sometimes the way i tell it seems to be interesting to another person...aku mo jadi sorang cool...sorang yg org kagum... wakakakakka bila berjalan mata smua memandang...bila bercakap smua org dengar...bila ? hahhahaha i kid..i kid...none of the above is the feelin in my heart...

I just wanna live in a decent way..where everyone respect each other..remembers each other..love is each other..HOW HARD is THAT?

if you are living in a place where people that cares for you are leaving close to you...have friends that out of no where and what ever hour calls you out for a teh tarik...or wat ever time for a meal...(ok ..ok...inlcude this too...) a karaoke session... or even just a little talk will you where about to enter your car at the parking space...I really think that your damn..damn lucky....

aku rasa aku mau berjalan lah..selagi boleh jalan mau jalan...and take lot's of pics and let them tell the story of the heart...mau p tempat yg org cakap boring and make it unboring...!!tak kisah lah aku hutang byk kah...tidak makan kah (ni susah lah mo buat)....I wanna go places..regardless of what people say....

everyone has their own special place in God's heart..and in HIS plans...so jgn cakap aku perlu sama dengan smua org...sebab aku mungkin ada benda special yg Dia mo bagi...and ada benda yang Dia tidak bagi...So i am still waiting..i am still waiting...waiting..and waiting....(this doesn't mean God love you more :P) He loves us the same...i just needed to remind me and myself....He actually love me too...just some stupid insensitive people need to blurt out things that breaks my heart...i know i need to come back..and search..or maybe i need to go on and search too...i need to learn to just focus on Him instead of them right...and i need to realise that i will have the best instore for me..and i have to wait with patience .... TUHAN Kau menang hari ni...Kau menang...

p/s when i type Patience on google just now i got this:Patience is the state of endurance under difficult circumstances, which can mean persevering in the face of delay or provocation without becoming annoyed..

i will try not be provoc..and become annoyed..so guys..who ever read this..theres something out there instore for us..we just have to wait..and preserver...wait wait...

Fudnote:TUHAN, Kau menang hari ni...Kau menang...

Kelate Darul... Epi 2

Hitting the Road.....

first hour we were all decent...after that it was down hill...hunger keep on pounding on our large capacity of tanks inside of us...the trip home was insane...!! singing top of our lungs...and feelin emotions when the songs changes...but all and all it was fun..!! although more towards insanity..!! kita ok bah kan..kita ni ok...!! :P

sunrise laughters

Ini hanya akan terjadi bila a group of people spend much time together and really know each other...bangun pukul 6am utk menikmati sunrise dan memperagakan aneka aksi..tanpa di sedari ramai org disekeliling melihat...(serius..i didn't know byk org di pantai sehingga sesi berakhir after 1 hour hahaha)..dan ternyata tarikkan makanan lebih hebat dari pada mandi laut hahahaa...

FOOD HUNTERS...

I think we spend most of our time eating...trying out new food...but it's true a full stomach make a person happy...and we all like to be happy together...and when we are together we eat a lot...!! serius man..lots...tia tau lah kalo ada org lain boleh join kita macam ni...! asal suka makan mesti boleh jadi geng kan...! hahaha..but i can't forget the day org tambah2 lauk di wedding org..!! wedding food crashers...!! tapi i still long for the beef dish di kenduri mimi hari tu..!! oh no.!!! tell you all the truth i have never eaten nasi kerabu before in my life...but after kelantan ..I rasa i LIKE it...!! but maybe it's just the company kan ...org2 yang kita enjoy being with while kita makan..yg tidak sedap boleh menjadi sedap!!.. w/pun ada argument tentang kuih mana yg sedap..!! actualy guys aku rasa aku boleh makan smua kuih2 hari tu..tapi sebab dipengaruhi oleh comment2 korang terus tia jadi habis kan wakakakaka...!! sedap juga bah tu.!!

All about Dawn

Byk pulak koleksi....here's to you glams...i say it best when i say nothing at all..! you are loved..:P..(babe..i still can't believe you sang delilah..!! terganggu betul me sampai hari ni )!!(fread,aku kurang berani buat ko punya hahahaa...takut org geli tengok !!!)

Kelantan Darul...epi 1

mangsa banjir sedang menikmati makan malam hehhee ( tengahmalam makan nasi kerabu)

evolusi manusia...

we laugh together and at each other hahaha

Double date with our guys....

yummy...

bila 6 jam perjalanan..bisa jadi retarded...

sweetttttt...

Three Gals and One guy...

US...

Me...

Dawn with an attitude

Lydia and Oly..(lupa lah nama your toy tu)

hahaha kantoi fread...(aku cakap tidak nampak muka tapi ternyata aku tipu)

We went on a trip together...almost 7 hours trip in Geri...sampai sekarang lagu dalam MP3 belum full satu round hehehe..nyanyi sampai sakit kerongkong pun ada dalam kereta...makan apa saja yang boleh di capai...we had good laughs together...ketawa about almost everything...tapi aku rasa mood kita bergantung kepada lagu yang di main kan pada masa tersebut...i got to know Geri better this trip...we learn about each other capacity...! I love Geri...!:P

I learn about life is not what we think it is..unless we really search...Kelantan is not bad..! i just love the pace....relax and slow...like problems in life is just a second...just have to get over it and jalan seperti biasa... makcik2 excited tengok kiteorang makan nasi kerabu and nasi kari...(kami pun berlagak innocent )...learning the language...and can feel keiklasan hari org2 kelantan...non of what i expected...i was wrong to judge this place before i came...overall i think it's a swell place...i LIKE...and i love to come again...the food were great!!!!

i'll post more pics later...

Fudnote: i learn about my frens too...bisa jadi gila bila dapat tengok benda2 murah..!! periuk belanga termasuk :p

Just the two of US

It has been 10 years since we first met each other and then click straight away...and now we are still friends...actually bestest of Friends...even though there are times we have out share of arguement too...and we are actually two different character all together.. what she likes...i don't like..! what i think is fun she doesn't get it :p...

but well i am glad to have a friend close to heart that i can tell her everything and nothing at all...a few days ago we when for a road trip together with kukuanga and freaddy boy...(will write about the trip later) we had a shoot together...i like it :P from the pics sudah tau dua2 lain2 mood hahahaha...! wasn't plan and didn't discuss..but well GLAMS...seperti post2 yg lain ...saya sayang kamu..!!cheers 10 years and many years to come k..!thanks for everything..! your my reminder and indicator utk berpijak di bumi yang nyata...!! ( penting masa perasaan gila dan mau beli sun glasses Rm1.5 k...hahaha)

huggies k..! wish you all the best ...!the BEST is yet to come...

Hitting the Road in 24 hours...

Exactly 24 hours from now, we'll be hitting the road...

but knpa tetiba feelin ini kurang excited sudah....maybe cos' there's tones of work to do in the office...sampai my otak is lagging...haish...and tones of work waiting for me when i get back...tetiba rasa macam salah masa pulak time for to go off...aduiiiiiiiiii.....jantung beating dengan kencang...bukan perasaan excited tapi perasaan uncertainty...

today 8am-6pm kena work real hard lah...really hard...

Maybe perasaan excited hilang sebab yesterday i got my whole schedule for my bengkel n seminars...sekali pandang pun mo pengsan!! straight bertubi2...nampak nya aku akan semakin gemuk after this...stay hotel saja...!

i hope i can let my mind be free for this few days...my heart be renewed...i just hate the attitude of people in the office right now...cakap pun macam kurang ajar...entah lah..getting on my nerve...so i think it's also the right time to go off..or else aku akan mengamuk tak tentu pasal..!!

Hidup ini walaupun susah mana..kita tetap masih bernafas...

Kadang2 ada masa kita sesak nafas...Kadang2 kita lupa bernafas...

Kadang ada juga masa kita tidak mo bernafas lagi...

Hope to meet myself during this trip...cos the now me is a demn frustrated,unmotivated,confuse,and is hating the feelin of i have to do wat people want me to do...!!!

today tetiba teringat sorang kawan yg suka cakap ni : No, Shit man...!

(last nite p teman dia minum and tetiba org itu masuk mimpi aku hahahaa)*fakta yg tiada kaitan dengan post ini....

Yeah,No shit man...life has been cruel this few days...!Friends have been cruel too..but anyway...No shit man..LIFE MUST GO ON...!!

We were 7 now left 6...

Dulu kami 7 sekarang tinggal 6...

i have been denying myself for the pass few weeks....but i think it has to end now ....

Dulu masa kecil! the place i grew up...we had a family friend...we were so close that as almost we were brothers and sisters...they were a chinese family we were half chinese...

as kids...we always have the dumb things like...them being bumiputra wannabe...and us just wanna be the same as people around us...

i remember every school holiday they will come and stay over at our place...our parents were as close as brothers and sisters too...!

we went on long road trips....from kuching to miri...!! and back to sarikei...! to think about it we were really small to be able to fit in a van that uncle had...! we had head counts sebab selalu ada2 saja missing...ada lagi adegan sorang mesti jatuh longkang lah..! hilang lah...tertido lah...life was really great then...!

bila org tanya who is who..we would just answer adik..abang...or sister.. bro...!

we were that close...!!sampai kadang2 tak mau balik rumah sendiri...!

we grew up...! i went away to study...but occasional holiday back home the first thing was goin to see them...ada rumours lah cakap uncle sayang betul me and my bro more then them ...tapi i know he has his own ways to show love...3 years ago uncle pass on...! i was there...and was very sad...like burying a father to me...

and today...i bury a sister...i didn't go...i didn't do anything...i just sat at home and act like nothing happen....! i didn't even call aunty...cos i don't know wat to say....

Funeral was over a few hours ago...!

my sister...I bid you farewell...i know you are at a better place...! and in better hands...

futnote: i am sad..but i am feeling numb...so i have no feelings right now....i didn't go back cos i know i can't handle it...! God ..i still have nothing to say to you untill now...!

Salah kah kalau aku marah!!!

I really have nothing to say to YOU...!!

YOU give and take whenever YOU want to...!

sometimes i wonder why You even bother then...!


the news belum sink in ...life adalah seperti biasa..sebab i don't know what to feel....

Aku marah sama KAU hari ni ...!salah kah kalau aku ada perasaan marah ! i am only human..!

Gamers...

I know i cannot question Your plans for us in this world....!!

I know i will never understand why you permits things...!!

and i will always be angry at YOU sometimes...

But i know..(but at times i refuse acknowledge) that:

Your plans are always the BEST..!!!

I ask You for strength and a heart of stone to face this obstacle.....so i may not ask you why....

so i may not hate You...and mostly so i may not lose my faith ....

Your plans are always the BEST..!!!

that is wat You say...that is wat You say

Your plans are always the BEST..!!!

for i am no one...but one of your creation...

for i have nothing to say to YOU today...

Ada org buat aku gila...!!

HANOI VS HO CHIN MINH

dua-dua VIETNAM....

PILIHAN hati adalah VIETNAM je....

Demn you AIRASIA... I HATE n LOVE u at the same time....ko buat aku jadi papa kadana....!

I love my Red Funky Salsa...

I just love my Red Funky Salsa....

but it bites me back...

just need more time to get aquainted :P

* my red funky salsa is shy so sorry no pics :P

5 OCT 2009- My Papa's Bornday....

He is the son of My Grandfather and Grandmother

He is the husband of my mother

He is the father to my brother and me

He is the GrandFather of Edmund....

He was a teacher to lots of students...and he was a student himself....

Now he is trying to be a farmer...to farm the land his father had farm...

He is trying to live back the life he had before he left his village...the village he had left more then 40 years ago...

I hear the stories he tells...some made me laugh..some made me cried...some even put me in disbelieve....but i know he had gone far...he had gone through lots...i am only half his age...and i tot i gone thru lots...but nothing compare to what he has been through...

walking to school in the jungle barefooted....goin out to a foreign land...struggled with cancer....work up a career....had a retirement plan...and is still trying to enjoy retirement...

My dad...

the man i respect...

the man i love....

the man i look up to...

the man who made me cry and laugh at the same time..

the man who sometimes makes me angry but at the end of the day he is the one i turn to too...

the man that gave me life...

THANKS PA...HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

When i look out my window...

As i look out the window of my hotel room...i see the sea so wide and the sky so high...suddenly my mind is saying...damnnnnnnnnnn...it's great to be ALIVE...
By the way i am at a Course..at Avillion Admiral Cove in PD...my first time here...and this is the first time that i can admit...PD is a beautiful place to be with...really like this place dahysiat lah...the room is nice..view is great..! place is marvelouse....tetiba rasa tidak stress..walaupun actually this course is head banging...! Cara menjawab NCR!! if you know about audit you would know what this means...tonite we had the nite off...so i am here blogging away...
this place seems to be a place where people have yatch and boats park them...they must be filty rich...! the most famous word of us being here is KALAU....Kalau lah aku kaya...kalau lah aku....! :P smua berangan2... tapi rasanya banana boat pun aku tak mampu....

i read someone's status on FB : Apa yang tidak pernah dilihat, dan tidak pernah didengar, dan yang tidak pernah timbul di dalam hati.. semuanya sudah tersedia. Percayalah....

dulu bila dengar lagu ni betul2 percaya betul2...but today suddenly ada mix feelin..antara sangat percaya dan kurang percaya...!

tapi all i know hari ni ada perasaan sangat bersyukur sebab aku hidup...sangat bersyukur sebab aku sihat...! mana tau esok lusa lain sudah hidup ini..! so selagi dapat bersyukur...aku berSYUKUR....