Angry...

There are certain occasion that would make me angry with God....and today is certainly one of the day...

just came back from the a planned beach outing....we even checked the weather forcast.. it said to be a fine weather...sunny....!! we prayed for the journey and weather....and we finally arrived at the beach....and guess what it rained the heaviest rain ever seen....!! and my nephew was furious and he was angry at us...he said : you said when we prayed together that God will grant us a good weather so that we can play at the beach...!! AND why it RAINED!!!  i told him you just pray that the rain will stop and it rained because God wanted to cool down the weather....!! deep in my heart i really prayed...God please let the rain stop for this little boy....please Lord...please... How are we suppose to teach him to trust in You???..as the day got darker....and the rain did stop ....for a little while enough for the little boy to have a dip in the sea...we started a fire to bbq....and sure enough it rained...i prayed and prayed that the weather would be better and it didn't...the rain got heavier and the tide came closer....and wash off the fire...but we were just in time to cook a few things...ok never mine...like my last post we decided to make lemonade out of lemonade...we had our dinner... and off we were going home...

unpacked and making the children sleep....and i got a call from my aunty in spore...and it was a missed call only one ring...normally having a call from a family member so late at nite doesn't really sound good....i said to myself..oh crap...what again now...but then i said ok who ever it is must be old..and time is up...so i called back...and all she said was ..:i don't have the details... i am fine but aunty Karen is gone...!! My heart stop....!!i was like WHATTTTTTTTTTT.....i knw she had been sick for years...but we recently got news that she was getting better ...and we as a family always prayed for her...and my dad for certain once told me when they were in australia...he was certain after they prayed for her...she would be heal...! and now to hear about this...i didnt know what to do...i got my cousins number and all i could think was to sms....sorry to hear about mom...please take care of dad...!!!

oh crap...I am so so mad...!! i just got an email that she and my uncle had a great day today...they went to the market together this morning....and all of the sudden tonite as she was sleeping she cough up blood and was rush in the hospital and was pronounce dead....!!! WTHHHHHHHHHH.... GOD...WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!......and you couldn't have chose the correct day to do this...as faith had been shaken today...


but i realise that i have no one then to TRUST AND HOPE in HIM...because i may not no any other....and till the day i know all the reasons i will still try to put my utmost trust....

I seek the answers to the questions i might not even know myself....what do you say to someone who you know won't be ok in this kind of circumtances... She was the pillar to my uncle...She was the one who made him sane....She was the one who keep him strong...She was his everything...and now she is gone...

faith note: death is one thing that you can't make a mistake...once it happens there's no way of reviving it....