Staying Focus...

 

Like a child focusing on something and absorbing what they see or hear...and stay focus....

staying focus on something that gives you hope....gives you relieve, give you strength....I was having a hard time focusing on life....was more to just survive the game....was almost disoriented by how life is going .. how being drifted by the waves of things around me....that gives an almost drowning feeling...maybe it's just the weak body... plus the tiredness of the brain ....which made me lost grip of what the purpose of life is...what the main focus is....not just to survive...but to live and be a witness...and to enjoy life as it comes....recently I was talking to someone that was diagnose with cancer...she just knew about it a few weeks ago...she just said " you know what... I am sick...!" then I said jokingly : What's up? flu? headache? backache?... she said .."No...it's cancer.... a moment of silent went by....I didn't know what to say...didn't know how to react....! but then she said I am ok..i am optimistic I will fight this....!! it shook me...and I was like...and all I had was a back pain and I am thinking that life has not been fair to me...

this few days I got my thinking nerve working...:P and I am thankful to have someone to turn to when things get haywire when things goes wrong...I still have someone to turn to...it might not be physical but it helps..

sometimes we may face times where we just wanna jump down the tallest building you can find....but life is not that easy to be able to end like that...but I learned that in whatever we do we put our trust in our Creator...what ever we face we have to grip on to the Savior's hand and really believe that He will provide...and sometimes His provision ways a really awesome...never thought before...this month I learn the hard way about that...never under estimate what God can do...when we think it's impossible He makes it happen....!


Food for thoughts : Believing, Knowing and Trusting is the keyword!!

Maturing as time goes by...

as I got ready for work this morning ...I got a glimpse of mum's small vege patch...the last time I look they were all dying and "malnutritious"...and I thought to myself...though luck..looks like it was not mean to be....but today I was surprise that the vegies were all grown up and ready to be harvest...

it struck to me...whenever there's a feeling of giving up when things are jut not going your way don't lose hope....and just press on...recently there are lots of issues in the office where work is just a truck load...and everyday is a tiring day....where sometimes I feel that I just need to run away somewhere....I might now understand why when you walk near big huge corporate buildings...there seems to be lots of people taking a smoke outside....sometimes you just need some time to breath...

I am stuck in the office with 2 less staffs ...one retired and one her husband just had an artery burst in the head...so I am right now juggling with everything...(enuff said about work)!!

but above all ...I am glad that I still have someone that I can lean on...and hold on too in times I feel that I am drowning....telling me that there is a Greater HOPE,FAITH and LOVE...as time goes by we mature in our thinking....in our faith...and I am not the girl that will go look for something else to drown my sorrows in anymore...we do what we must do...and just hope for the best...

Fudnote: I really need a time away from everything....!! A holiday perhaps

My Acky breaky back...

 as you may know that I am having problems with my back...I was  back in the health center on Thursday....as the back is improving...but sitting too long is still a pain in the ass...!! :P...my back and hips still hurts if I sit too long......I was back in the center for a regular checking whether the back is improved...the Dr did some adjustment here and there.....

rare time of camwhoring in the gown.....

 this is the bench...for almost more the a month I have  been laying on this....and I somehow think that I am addicted to this bench...it makes me hurt and good at the same time...the Dr crack my back in many spots....and use the activator on few spots.... I was fine after the treatment but was sore and being in pain for few days....but now it has improved.....but all is well....and I love going for treatment cos it's a day off for me.....

THank God for technology

When we think what is good doesn't mean things will be better....

As I was driving to work this morning...I realize the authority has improvise to improve the traffic flow of the lane opposite my journey to work...I always boast that I am always against traffic flow and I love it...!
but ever since they open an extra lane for the opposite direction and meaning that the lanes of my direction become a 2 lane instead of 3...and it causes a slight heavy flow of traffic my way....

Life decisions are hard...sometimes you think that you are making life easier for you it might cause other people to be burdened... and sometimes you think that you are helping others but without realizing u are burdening yourself at the same time....

I love the journey to work and home....as I can ponder upon life and have a real quality time by myself and sometimes having quality talk time with Him...

as we live our life in the track that we are on....there will be lot's of decision we have to make...some easy...and some hard as well...and sometimes we hit the wall and don't seem to understand what happen!!...but above all....whatever we do we do it in the Name of HIM and we hope for the best....it's how we see life ....how we interpret it....to me life is hard...life is miserable (Now that is)...but it's the matter of how you see it....right now I see going to work as if it's a life saving journey...so everyday I wake up  I will say to myself if you don't go to work and solve something today someone will DIE!!!!....

as the busy-ness of life take over...I find myself more conservative...less laughing at silly jokes...easily irritated by stupid and simple things....maybe it's a sign of needing a holiday badly...I really need a day off from everything but then again...I am a life saver...:p... and I have to work!!

oh well all is GOOD!!!