Road For hope...

this morning i was watching on KBS humanity pledge....the team was call For hope...2 of korea goodlooking actors went to rwanda and congo to see the refugees....it made me cried a lot...watching the children suffer from malnutritions and war victim showing their scars....the two of them cried alot too on this documentary....they actually said before they went they will not pity the people there and wouldn't cry...

and one phrase that they said really strike my heart.......

"i don't know what to say to them when you know there isn't much hope for them..."

me and my thoughts just went wild...many may think what do you care...and don't think too much...! but it reflects on myself....as much as there are many things to complain about my own life...there are many things that distress me...even simple things...today after watching there...i thought to myself...i must stop complaining...must stop whinning...cos there are other people who are having harder times...i may not know what it feels to die of starving...i may not know the struggle of being a handicapp..and as i ask Him why things happened...! i shall learn to live life to the fullest...and remember to tell myself i am much well off then others....



*i think i want to join a humanity trip to somewhere ...! as a volunteer..

heatnote: what do you say when you know there is really no hope?

Hard work!!

Been trying to lose some weight this few months.....

and now i realise how important it is to really have self control....!! regrets of eating like the end times has come...! now is the payback time....

new target set....

5 KG before APRIL!!

wish me all the best!



Monkey Love....

I was driving home from work yesterday....and i saw a group of monkeys jumping from one tree to another...then they jump to the tree to cross over the road....(imagine along both side the road are big trees and the branches cave in...) then i realise that they had a "system"..one cross/jump first...then he/she sit on a branch to make sure the branch lowered so that the others can reach....after 2 monkeys cross over they change "person" to sit and hold the branch....it went on until every one crossed over...!"ketara ofis gwe byk monyet.."

the simple gesture like that touched my heart...even monkeys..."animals" show simple effection maybe to their own family or maybe just friends....a gesture of a helping hand when you fall...or even getting up a hill...it feels great to have a hand offered to you so you can jerk urself up...!

this simple thing..can be life changing...it hit me yesterday after watching the monkeys...as i am reminded to continue to do things out of love...to family to friends..to aquantances...even simple gesture will make one's life a happier one....

i am always reminding myself to make an extra afford to meet up to keep in touch with friends...even if i can't be there physically i would like to spend time to pray for them too...as our daily life goes on the struggles we face are different from each other...but i think it will feel better or even lessent the burden when we are just there to sit on the branch to lower it so that the jump will be less the afford...or just to hear up the things troubling that person....or even lending a back for that person to rest on..
our time in this world is short...and i won't want it to be a regretfull one....



*recently i was having chest pain most of the days....and the thought of maybe my time is up came by...i was thinking....oh no!! is this how i am gonna die...everyday i pray that God will bestowe me more time....*call me paranoid! - now i am just trying to live life as it is...as if the day is the Greatest day in my life....!telling myself everday i wake up...I will have a great day.. I will live well!!..

I will let the sunrise tell me everyday is a new miracle.....and i will be thankfull that i am alive to see it

and I will let the sunset tell me that i have done good today and give myself a pat on the back.....and give thanks for that day as i put and in extra afford

*today i let a car get out of a junction and i felt good!

*today i wave a lady to cross the road in front of me and i felt good!

*today i gave a colleague a lift to somewhere and i felt good!



Aku seorang Ikan bilis!!

Despite the havocness in the office..i am taking office time to blog....

I am feeling a crush of emotions and crush of dignity at work this few days.....but i am trying to tell myself to have patience in the heart and everything will be ok....it's all about the passion of life...:P (ayat-ayat kasi sedap hati )

there are things bothering me at work that is not even worth mentioning....and even if people ask me about it i get tired and say somethings up but not worth saying....

but of all i am feeling the pressure of being a small fish....i think even ikan bilis is bigger then i am....when working with people of another faith that have out of this world superiority powers one may simply feel that you might as well don't exist in this world....!! but then again you exist to be ask to do things for them....when i come to think of how awesome and powerful my Creator is....i am reminded of what i should do...and hope....even in times that i don't really care about my testimony....and there are times i just want to slap or even throw a tantrum....but i can't and shouldn't....even the big fishes put the blame on the small fish..and the sharks are waiting to see the small fish fail...hmm what ever it is i shall learn that this is my trainning ground...and i should hold myself up at the end of the day...

got to admit i've been crazy about super group and some singers of a k wave :P...funny that a stupid thing people may say becomes my strength and reminder to have my priorities and give my time everyday to my Creator....as i know some of them even famous as they are still have time to spent time with God everyday in their life and even are not ashame to confess infront of millions of people about their faith....i am truely embarrased because of that.....

people my say this crazyness or obssesion is just childish or eeewwwyy...but well you have your opinions but it reminds my of my walk in this world with God...and it reminds me of what i should do.....is to be faithfull.....!is to hope....! and is to keep the faith burning....

tears are really our safety belts....if you think how hard your life is compare to others...i tell you...you're still blessed...!

*i notice that i haven't been posting pics in my blog for a long time...and decided to put a pic today...this was what i took when i visit an engineer's office in a high place..:P

and i realise that my life is lacking of beautiful pics....and i wish to have a break from life as it is to watch the rainbow....

food for the heart: To be faithfull is a hard thing to do....but it is the only thing that give us hope....

Pride.....

sometimes there are things that will break you...and one of the things that often break my soul is my pride.....i am still learning to break my pride...to be able to admit things that i am weak at...to be able to admit that i can't do somethings....but it's hard....when it happens at times i feel that my soul is being broken....my heart is being slash.....and deep inside i feel broken....

but i want to learn that my pride will drown me in sorrow...my pride will trap me at times....

as i walk my life daily...i want to still have my pride of being a person full of wisdom....that i can still stand up and face people because of my selflessness....

till i learn to stand up again and be proud of myself...i will still wait for the sunrise evermorning to tell me that things will be getting ok as the new day dawn...and as i end my days with sunsets...to remind me that i have done my best that day...

sometimes what we say or do unintentionally brakes people's pride....but it's allright...maybe that person has to learn....

Let's wait until the sun sets today....telling urself that you have done well today...and hope for the sun rise tomorow to be thankfull that we're alive !!!

Be strong and Courages...

truthfully i have been having a "irritating/annoying itch" working with a certain "group" of people....and i think the itch has turn to be a time bomb or can we say a malignant cancer in me....

had a rather rough day at work yesterday...and i think after so long of cooling down period...suddently i just had enough...(but yes...i have said thousand of times i had enough!!) but yet i am still here...!

but i am glad that i have found a foundation that i will need to cling on for the rest of my life...even though how much i hate working with this "group" of people...i have come to my senses that i am here for a purpose (which i don't even know yet!!!) but after a long journey i think it's rather the feeling of no use of fighting anymore...just go with the flow...! as i know i will never prosper like them in this place...but i will surely prosper in my Father's eyes...so oh well...let's try to live life as it is for now....

for now i will just have to believe...

for now i will just have to hope...

for now i will just have to trust...

in

YOU