a little update...

it has been quite sometimes since i updated my blog...seems like ages but it's been a week....have been staying low and down for the pass week....(guess some are wondering why i don't answer my phone.....it's just one of the times that you just want to be in silence...)

latest update....i am officially 4.8kg lighter....(targeted 5kg and it's very disappointing to be 200g shy)... but i think after a week i have reach the wall and i seems to can't shed anymore...but anyway....still going on my exercise regime...and enduring pain and laziness...i don't see any big changes that i wish to see...but atleast i  would like to try to end the year....i remember my wish list of this year was to shed some kg...so before the year ends i will try...(semangats) i have another 8kg to shed before the 31 Dec....!! wish me the best!!

all i can tell you about dieting and toning body are
1. Suffering...
2.Suffering
3.and suffering
4...it's hard to live without the luxury of being able to eat whatever you want and whenever too!

but i learn that if you are determine you should be able to do things....

i am also taking time off to reflect on life too..on the path that i have chosen or being choose for me...

i really thank God for the internet too...! wat a marvelous thing..was chatting with my bestest friend at 1am last nite and i think it had been a longgggggg time since we had a deep conversation about faith....(thanks me glamus!) and how simple and complicated God is at the same time...from a weird hobby like spending time watching movies until searching for details of that certain person...that lead to a certain person that God had use to touch many other peoples life..isn't that awesome....(i get it if you don't understand me...)

maybe some who knows me very well will say oh no..here she goes again..but this time i am stuck and i have no where to go ...and i have decided to give it another go..a go for faith and hope...!

so Friends lets be WORTH it..! lets be WORTH living in this world! lets be worth loving too...by starting to love yourself....!

heartnote: Believe and let HIM

It's just not another ordinary day...

today is the 13 of Nov...
and today is a special day for me...(i seldom say it's a special day..) but this year i'll make it special...
i use to think that my life is such a flop being stuck in a place that i don't even like...and being away from the family and the friends!...everytime i think about it it makes me sad....(especially at a hormonal imbalance stage of the month)...i think i will always feel like this for the rest of my life until God does something...:P..
but anyway i need to give thanks too...as i grow older...and hopefully wiser...i am very blessed to know and walk in some people's life....and am blessed to have people walk into my life too..indeed every person have taught me lots...be it in a positive matter or other wise...and i realise that it made me stronger every step of my life....yes there were many times in life that i feel down and let down...but am still learning to get up by myself and keep on walking...as i think of today..sometimes i have doubts of my existence in this world...what am i doing here for?am i wasting my life?what good am i..?is my life pathetic!!?

i really wish that every step of my life i would be a blessing in peoples life....that every person that i meet i would be a able to atleast touch their life in my actions....as tat is what i always want in my own life..that people bless me...or touch my heart in anything they do...be it a simple gesture like a simple sms,a simple phone call...a simple meal..or be it having "lepaking" time together..

but as i grow older i realise that life is not always what we want it to be...in a split second you can be feeling sad or bursting with laughter....(got to admit it has been a long long while since i had a good laugh)...i missed the times of having able to have friends for meals...i missed the times of having able just to call up someone and say let's go somewhere....but as time flies..i realise that it's all about self initiatives....have to work hard by yourself...and keep on blessing people...even if your not up to it and is tired...you just have to carry on and as it goes along...blessing people is a real joy of a lifetime....!


my aunty wrote something about the day i was born http://annkschin.blogspot.com/2008/11/when-child-is-born.html and i am really blessed to be in my "weird" and loving family....

this is me with my late grandmother....

my memory of her is that she cooks very good food....and when she was around the house would smell of good food everytime....she made us icecream when it was hot in the afternoon....cakes..everything....sweets....the one thing was...she looked after us...but she didn't know how to speak in English...and i only speak English...but yet...we still could get along...

till this day many people who knew her spoke well of her...spoke of her kindness....spoke of her great skills in cooking...and never ending great effort to share with people her kind hearted....!

when it is time for me to leave....i want people to talk of me like that....i remembered when i use to be "good" the only motto i had in life was 

live the life as it was your last and live it to the fullest so when you die people would have lots of good memories of you...!

i kinda miss that feeling in life...relentlessly showing kindness and effortless joy....!

GOD..my wish is that You give me strength in everything i do..and give me time to show love to people i care and love so much...!

Thanks for the countless of blessings in my life....

HEartnote:there's just lots of things in this heart that i longer for...but i know everything is in God's hands....

This Funny Feelin...

Can i get drunk for my Birthday this year.....??:P

Happy day!

wohooo...i like today because i feel lighter today...:P..

yippeyyeayyyyyyyyy!!! yahoooooooooooo...!

i really miss being able to eat wat i want!!!!




fudnote:  FOOD is my greatest LOVER!!! without FOOD i feel my life is empty!!

HOW THE HECK!

please someone tell me!!!

How in the heck did i get that thin!!!!!!!!!!

update yesterday:1 Nov 2011

11 flight of stairs

20 minutes trampoline (short of 10minutes)

5kg weights (10minutes)

110 mini sit ups

10 bench press 

10 squats ( i thought it was easy but damn almost died when reach no 5)

food intake:

1 shot of meliliea (mcm tequila shots pulak)

2 slices of thin crust pizza -(makanan free..org belanja tia bagus menolakkan)

2 spoon of tauge with fish cake

4 biji langsat!!

guess i need to push myself further..

woke up 5 this morning and started to do 100 mini sit ups...

5kg weights (10 minuntes)

i am not crazy but i just wanna do this before i come to age :P!

heartnote:sometimes when you are out to find the true you, you realize that there so many imperfection in life that you hide just to make people happy until you neglect your own self.-Learning to love myself!

want to be obsess and not OBESE

i just wanna be obsess with my new found love....!! myself!! :P
and in order to show love for myself i am gonna give myself a reward!!! (if i cannot do this i will never want to try again!)

routine!!
11 storey steps
30 minutes of trampoline
5kg weight lift 10 minutes
20 mini push up
100 mini sit ups morning 100 mini sit ups evening

and i am depriving myself from the luxury of eating!!! trying to stick with less then 1000cal intake everyday...if possible 500cal only...

wohoooo...!! call me crazy but i think i just want to do something before the year end..!! (and also win a bet!!! :P)

heartnote: sweats will replace tears..