KEPO VS CARING

sometimes when we know too much...or accidently stumble on things better unknown makes our otak sakit.....antara being KEPO or just caring....

kalau kita ambil tau hal org terlampau byk pun menyusah kan hati kita...ini pun tidak sengaja...ini barang macam de ja vu ...pernah di lalui dan pernah menyebabkan pergaduhan besar....and ulangan lagi tapi ni lain org... i hate that i always terstumble secara tidak sengaja...hahaha i know you guys don't understand wat the hell i am writting about but...i am just having a hard time diffrentiating antara being a kepo atau just being a friend that cares....susah betul kan...mo buat tidak tau pun knp lah selalu terstumble upon the truth...tapi biasalah masing2 sudah besar dewasa pandai bezakan baik dari betul...

aku harus belajar bukan saja menutup sebelah mata tapi juga menutup hati...sebab itu hal itu org sendiri pilih jalan...harap itu org nanti tidak jatuh dan sakit ....jadi kawan adalah perkara yg sangat susah...well alright...ini saja merapu yg tidak tentu....just luahan perasaan bah...sebab this feelin is killing me inside to see someone walking on a path towards hurting one self....

THE END...

Something that tickles my ribs....

Was thinking how to tell this story...at first didn't want to write about this but i kinda think it's something fun and to laugh at...
last weekend was a funny and amusing all expenses paid for "holiday"...this is a story wat we did at nite...first nite we all went for karaoke session...(biasalah kalau org p outstation ini memang activity wajib) first nite normal...second nite ...because the session finish late...we decided to just hang out at the hotel lounge..we had to walk a little...i was crazy enough to go out with 3 guys....(and this is not me...) but just to have fun so we went..masuk2 musik nya seakan2 menyebabkan jantung melompat2 ikut beat...tapi buat2 normal saja..(eh knp tukar indon plak ya??) there was a philipino band...yg geli hati ialah ada some guys yg kulit tebal kulit kerbau were dancing...memang ala kampung lah...dancing2...Thank God it was dark kalau tidak nampak betul we 4 ketawa nak mampus...dance move ala2 lady gaga pun ada ...mas idayu pun ada...pencak silat pun ada...KAMON laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...stripping pun ada (tapi hanya tops)

byk2 lah tarian they all.....

kami order minum...they guys had ice lemon tea...coke and sprite....i had pinacolada....wa cakap lu...ini pinacolada 2001 kali yucky....telan saja sebab sudah mahalllllllllllll...!!!

we just sat around dengar lagu2...sambil tengok 2 samdol menari ala2 tak senonoh...tetiba i look around terasa lain...cakap dengan kiri kanan...terus we all decided to leave after finishing our awful drink....

sila baca kembali...aku cakap di dance floor ada 3 org mamat menari kan...!!!
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DEMMIT semacam GAY CLUB................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YUCKSSSSSSSSSSSSS

terus on the spot pina colada mo kluar dari mulut gwe..........

adoyaiiiiiiiiiiii.....please lah ....!!

tp of all paling kesian one of the guy with us...sudah lah first time p ...p pulak tempat mcm ni..!! yucksssssssssssss


note to self: jgn p tempat yg gelap2 yg ada sedikit org yg bergerak gerikan suspicious...

Weekend With The OFFICE....

tired...tired..tired....!! but well..just anggap a holiday with expenses paid for...!..went to seremban for a bloody workshop...but was like a holiday of eating and hanging out with friends from the office instead....! we did nothing but sit around for 3 days...!! but wat i like best is reminiscing what games we use to play during our childhood...bila bos tanya bincang apa...? cakap bincang strategy kerja..! LOL..

the lack of sleep makes today a hard day at the office....!! knp lack of sleep? adoii biasalah whole day bengkel...! then petang2 activity..darn it i tell you it's fun to see org2 bijak pandai playing a simple game of treasure hunt...! and to top the icing on the cake ..in heavy rain....rupanya susah pulak they all mau fikir simple2 things hehehehe...

and fun too to watch them exercise...this was the first time our office have this sort of activities during workshops...it made me feel i was good at something too hhahaaha...maybe age factor lah..

aduh knp formal sangat cerita hari ni ah???

sambung kemudian lah...gambar takda sebab kamera tak bawa

Rindu kan FUN & KETAWA...

it's thursday ALREADY?????? demn can someone please slow down this clock....i just can't catch up.....

to think of it i had only 2 days of lousy day..but it affected almost the whole week???kurang ajar lah ini perasaan.....!! rasa mau saja baling2 dilautan...(best kan kalau dapat p laut?) but today aku sedikit waras....i tot of things..then i decided not to let this feeling let me down....akan tetapi...jeng..jeng..jeng...(apersal sebut nama sendiri ni ha?) today...i have a sharp backpain...my head is throbbing like there's a drum beat in it...and my nose is meleleh tanpa henti...!! oh well today is gonna be a great day...a good one...!! (tetiba positif tidak tentu pasal) not gonna complain about anything ....just living the living....!!

ada org berkata...org suka sangat saya dan saya spesel sebab...saya pandai berjenaka...aku seorang bubly freak....aku seorang yg sweet dan cute (ini tambah sendiri) dan aku pandai kasi neutral keadaan..... tp utk makluman...aku juga bisa nangis...dan aku pasti bukan lah superman....ada juga hari2 yang aku malas berjenaka....ada hari yang aku malas berceriakan keadaan..dan ada hari juga aku menunggu org menceriakan aku...tp aku tau...semua bermula dari diri sendiri...so mari lah aku menceriakan kamu..kamu..dan kamu..dan juga aku sendiri....!!

Hidup ini tidak seindah mana...! tapi kita boleh creat keindahannya sendiri...!!let's be happy today....!! hati tidak ok tidak apa...just put a smile (palsu pun palsu lah) think of the funniest time you ever had...and it will surely make ur day.. sampai bisa pee dalam pants... this was my wildest laughter : (aku rasa gembira hari ni dan ketawa berabis dalam ofis sebab ni)

sekian terima kasih...!!

(maafkan aku kalau maruah kengkawan terpaksa aku gadaikan demi mengejar satu ketawa hari ni but admit it i made you laugh kan??)

(jogging telah di tunda sehingga belakang sembuh..ni bukan alasan tapi realiti...) dan hati ini masih sakit hati...tapi aku pilih utk ketawa hari ini...

Lydia...Penjual Kain warna Ungu....

Melihat tajuk mesti ramai terkejut kan.....??

dan tidak kurang pun org yang akan perasan bahawa posting ini tentang dia....(jd yg bernama lydia sila lah jgn terharu...tapi sila lah ambil iktibar kihkihkih)

strange but true....gambar di bawah membuat aku sengkang mata mencari makna satu nama iaitu LYDIA....

dan sesungguh nya sangat menakjubkan result dari research yg telah di buat...(cari lah sendiri kalo korang mau tau)...

satu saja yg catch my eye ...lydia adalah seorang penjual kain ungu...!! (part of it lah...) tapi of all lydia mendengar dan ingin merespon...(ini tidak di dapati di WB yg aku join hari tu ya...so don't get me wrong) ini merely cos of gambar ini saja...membuat aku ingin tau tentang karektor Lydia...setahu aku all i know about lydia (yg i know lah) dia kuat makan...eh opss...lari topik pulak hahahhaa...

k lah...mungkin ini sebab Today was one of the harderst (ada ka perkataan ni?) day of work life...memang benar bila ada perasaan when byk masalah and org di sekitar ko tidak paham membuat keadaan sangat sukar...lets put it this way the day was full of event yg tidak sepatutnya happen...smua happen....sampai membuat aku mo p tempat yg paling tinggi di ofis dan terjun ke bawah...this was one of the day i just felt like crying..and i did...bodoh punya ofis apasal pulak lah open concept...nasib baik staff aku tak nampak...i cried and cried until i felt better..........(this was how bad today was) i felt like this world was full of unfairness....adakah aku di hukum cos warna kulit (u guys know wat i mean).....bila selama ini arahan yg di bagi tetiba berubah setelah ko explain dengan student2 yg maki2 ko....bila perkara yg ko buat adalah salah dan org lain buat benda sama adalah dibenarkan....dan bila org lain diberi reward yg ko rasa ko pun mau...tp itu tidak mungkin...dan bila org yg dekat menjadi seperti yg lain yg tidak peduli langsung akan keadaan sukar yg dilalui...dan bila org treat u like it's all ur fault..and bila org treat you like shit when you're trying ur best....all of these made me cry.....(adalah sukar utk me to be without my shield...but today...perisai hati di bolosi...)

i knew it yesterday sunset was too good to be true....

exercise note: i think i burn so much calorie today just by being angry....i did walk up 11 stairs....by the way...2 hari jogging membuat seluruh badan sakit dan aku kini berjalan terkangkang2....(sakit kaki n belakang)

Hati terusik melihat sunset....

Today started badly....dengan staff yang missing in action sebab jiwa kacau...if he were younger i give a damn..but ini tidak dah mau pencen...(but well semua org ada problem)....1 week missing and he has the nerve turning up with tshirt and track bottom on the most important meeting of my career.....haish yg penting hari ini bukan hari yang baik lah...!



and so i tot....until i went jogging this evening...tetiba buzz someone yang tidak brapa kenal....ajak jog...and we janji to a place i have been once long time ago...sitting and lepaking looking at the sunset made my heart terusik....and my eyes wanted to shed tears...tapi sebab p sama org yang tia berapa kenal terpaksa lah menahan.....


hidup ini memang indah kan....tapi tidak smua perjalanan hidup kita indah...kadang2 we come to a dead end and you just can't go no where....and this is the time you just have to sit down and enjoy things around you...serius i tell you...today's sunset was inspiring.....yeah aku akui....ada baik nya utk ada satu hari utk kita menangis sepuas2nya.....its a release....SUN i love ya...dari fajar pagi...sampai kau terbenam ko memberi ku kelegaan....dan harapan utk hadapi hari seterusnya dengan tenang.....

Well Jane everything will not be ok...but lifes goes on.....

p/s aku jogging lagi tadi...sama naik tangga tingkat 11....dan aku puas hati dengan diri sendiri...

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aku tau hari ni kenapa aku suka sunset....sebab after a hard day...bila aku tengok the sun go down....aku rasa macam smua masalah hari itu pun turun bersama matahari..dan hati aku akan rasa sangat lega dan sangat bagus yang hari itu telah aku lalui....

Labouring Weekend

Happy Belated Labour day (hehehe...ada kah benda utk ini?)

what i did for the weekend??? I was hoping for a free and quite weekend that i can rest...tapi sebalik nya kerana pelawaan cik buffy mengjoin kem kebijaksanan wanita mereka sebagai sorang photograper yang perosak...friday nite drag myself utk p ....but anyway...ok lah juga lama sudah tidak ambil2 gambar org org...sama mendekati diri kepada ketentuan ilahi hehehe...

saturday morning,terawal bangun and rasa perlu continue kerja yg belum siap ...dan demi cinta ku pada Buffy aku pigi juga....

nasib baik hari itu aku memakai superman aku...sebab pada hari itu aku rasa aku betul2 perlu superman punya kekuatan....fuh.....alang2 jadi photog...jadi tukang potong bawang terus...tukang potong buah...tukang potong sayur...tukang kauk nasi....jungle2 pisau dan camera dalam masa yang sama ...fuh...i was sweating bullets....basah baju...

but couldn't sambung perjuangan saturday nite sebab had a rili2 gila2 splitting headache....rasa macam kepala mau pecah...! (sampai hari ni masih lagi rasa macam tengkorak kena kapak)kecundang betul... stamina kurang mungkin sama panas juga....! aduh...tapi secara tidak langsung ada dengar mesej2 juga lah....ok juga lah teringat zaman2 kegemilangan dulu2...

Seriusly after last nite, gwe betul2 rindu akan kawan-kawan gwe yang close banget....best juga ada org standing by kita masa kita perlu...sama peluk kita....! tapi well those were the days bah kan ...jam ini tidak mungkin di putarkan kembali...so kena look ahead kan...oraite lah...mo stopping dulu...! betul2 rasa generasi muda ni perlu step up lah...! well buffy...you did a gud job...bangga sama lu...sayang banget sama lu...bila lah kita boleh keluar makan sama2 ah...!?

Fudnote: aku berjaya p jog tadi...tapi satu round saja terus rasa mo pengsan mati terus berhenti dan balik hehehhe..!!