Say - John Mayers

came across this john mayers song say...it's a great song...

something struck me this morning that life is really short to be complainning all day about our work..about the people around us...about money....about LIFE
when i was studying in the U...i always had this motto...live my life as it is the last days of my life....and when i die i want people to remember me of the good things that i had done.

and never have i thought life would be hard after that...life sucks big time...but as i realise today..after hearing someone else complaining and blaming everything on work...i somehow realise that...sometimes we need to think in a diffrent angle....this job that i have now was given to me through much tears and prayers...and i should try to endure it and give thanks for because of my job i have food on my table (and sometimes luxurious food)..that i have money to travel...that i have money to pay a roof on my head..and a car i so love...

well i am a thanking mode today...so i thank God of my job....people around me may still sucks...but thats them...(at times i think about how little they know that their time is limited...and yet they still carry on their evil do's.)

mungkin smlm hari gaji membuat aku terpikir2 kalau mau complain sila lah berhenti kerja saja..dan let's see whether the next job will be better....i want and maybe will change my career..but in the mean time today..i am giving thanks for i know that many with me...had prayed about this job..and it was given...(tetiba bangga sebab ada post ditengah2 org yang tidak sama agama yg jarang2 akan berlaku)...

*this is a funny post..and i am alone in the office cos everyone have gone for their maulud walk...i may not feel the same next week....but today my heart is happy because soon..i am off for a long break

Green Life...

got these plants while my outing with cik togsy...di ikea..peliks..org p kebun bunga beli tapi ni p shopping complex pulak...

anyway...i am trying and learning to just stick to my work and enjoy life as it is...

when i am stress out and when i look at these plants i will remember the hardship of being out at the field or farm under hot sun...(which i won't dare to trade in with my aircon filled office)

so be BLESSED everyone...!! (convince enuff??)

FUDnote: aku dah gemokssssssss...gemoksssssssssss...

Yipeyeahyeah~

CUTI LULUS................

heartnote: God...Speechless...!THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!...........

A new heart for Geri...

How ironically that my last post was to just give up and just believe....

after juggling with meetings and appoinments and decision making yesterday..and not forgeting the cruelness of some unkind people...of all the things.....my Geri just "pengsan"!!

but oh well...for the love of my Geri...i bought him a new heart...

i wanted to wait..

.but i was scared that Geri would go into a coma tomorow when i really need to move around..

so i gave my Geri a new heart...!

2 days passed Valentine's day...

I gave my Geri a new heart...

heartnote:God...can i have a new heart too..?

Rotten eggs

i woke up early this morning...(normal working time)..and yes...i almost forgot that today is a holiday...(am i turning to a workaholic..???oh nossss?)

i woke up,wanting to make my day a great one...i decided to make laksa...!! everything was ok until demn those rotten eggs...i just bought it yesterday...and i was carefull to pick the tray that had the longest expired date....

this life is sometime rotten....even if you 're being carefull...and we might never know why..but it's just rotten...even how hard you try..how hard you try not to give up..and just be strong...but sometimes life is just simply rotten as it is...!

back to the rotten eggs episod...i almost broke down and cried of how this life is so cruel...!angry as i am already with God...i decided to just give up...

just plain give up...


give up on being angry at Him...


and guess maybe there's still hope..


maybe there's still more blessing instore....


(am i kidding myself???)


oh well...life is just goin to be ok...maybe i just need time to breath....


ok this post is full of decision....so maybe today...i just decide to just believe in God....!

Heartnote: I believe YOU know the best for me......and please convince me so...

Rasa ini Rasa Hari ini...

Ada perasaan yg tidak lagi percaya kepada apa2 kerana hari rasa malas mau pikir apa2...

mungkin besok kepercayaan itu akan kembali..

tapi hari ini..
saya sudah tidak percaya

Heartnote:Tidak salah kan kadang-kadang hati kita menjadi tawar dan bengkak..?

HARDLIFE

Hari hari takut dan malas untuk hidup...

sebab hari hari hidup adalah sangat susah....

this life is pathetic when i am working on weekends..!

HEARTNOTE:Do YOU hear me GOD?

KAMON LAH!!!

hmm...just receive a resignation letter from a staff who is one of my assets in the office...


FUDNOTE:GOD..GOD...GOD...???.

Weird thing this life is..

I am still down with the many syndrom of flu...with fever peeping up once in a while...and nose dripping relentlessly....
and today i am with less sleep cos i woke up in the middle of the night sweating and couldn't get back to sleep...so i watch the whole Jamie's Revolution, Masterchef until 3am...

Funny this life is...yesterday evening panic when i found my broadband and laptop adaptor not in my bag...as you all know that i just can't breath without internet...so i went to check at my office last nite (alone!!)...we had a seminar and i remembered using my laptop.. after searching in my office and couldn't find it...i went to the block behind where the seminar was...searching there too..(with darkness at my side...)  there was nothing left in the room...frustrated i went home...and with nothing to do i decided to sleep...but just to be awaken by fireworks at the stroke of midnite...(it's a hokkien thingy celebrating on the CNY day 7...) couldn't sleep..and missing my broadband so much!! :P FREAK!!

and only to find my broadband on my table this morning under a file...!! DARN this FLU making me disorianted!!!!

p.s i almost cried because i didn't have my bb with me...i needed to check the progress about our trip...! march...o march..please be kind and let me off from work..!! so that i can enjoy my trip with my kabigans...!
FUDNOTE: life is hard...but when we remember the things in life that made us laugh and cry it makes us stronger.....

I wanna Fall in LOVE again..!

fluing....

headache...

fever...

watery eyes...

nose blocked..

soar throat...

body weak..

grogy after flu pills....

DEMMIT....I WANNA FALL IN LOVE AGAIN!!!!

FUDNOTE: Tuhan, Ko tau juga i need all the strength in me to get through these days a head.....

Relentless Strength needed!

Been back only 2 days...i am already feelin hard to adjust....with the flu..and tonnes of work,running round getting things done...sometimes my brain just wants me to shutdown and not care..Can i?
just doin it for the money..!! yeah just think about the money...


Fudnote:ada kawan yg sudi berjimba2 this weekend? i need my dose of love!

Fluing and missing home...

just came back from HOME....

and is down with a bad bad bad flu...
after a good time being home with family i came back last nite with a bad flu and headach...desperate times calls for desperate measures...i need badly to be well if not be a little ok....so i remembered if we caught cold or flu my mom wud boil 2 eggs hardboiled and massage myself...theres an indicator...a silver ring..(don't ask me why)

 use silver ring and egg white only

yeah i know it's a different ring...i didn't think of taking pics until i finish...

after massage the ring wud turn colour...mine was dark blue with reddish cooper like colour inside....
konon nya flu and body hot...it doesn't totally heal you..it just makes you feel a bit better....

ok enuff said..i don't even know why am i telling this..kepala masih blocked..!

really need time to adjust...body and mind...

just finish talking to my mom a whole hour...Darn it i missed home so much..!!

Fudnote:I just wanna be OK, be OK, be OK. I just wanna be OK today. - Vauxhall ad jingle

Happy Chinese New Year 2011

It's the second month of the year.... February already???
 Darn it...time realy pass so damn fast...the feelin of time leaving me behind sinks in...way way behind...just gotta catch up...

Having a great time with the family...

Gud food great company...

tot of the heart: semakin hari semakin tua...dan aku risau....!