Questioning : If OnLY?? and Why??

Last saturday we were shock to hear the news of an aunty who passed away suddenly...!!and yes she was younger then my parents...
She's an aunty close to the heart since our childhood days....her daughter said there was no sign at all.... she was cooking lunch and then she collapse...and was pronounce dead 11.30pm....

when we heard the news we were exactly going out on a outing together with my parents friends from when they were young and serving together in the same ministry...all i could do was secretly wipe my tears our when we were talking about the aunty....i cannot imagine if it would happen to me....i think i would go hysterically or maybe insane....! but one thing my mom said was.." We should cherish the little time we have together..." we ended up spending the whole day lepaking with the aunties and uncles.....

All i could think of is God please..please give me more time and get me ready for things like these.....!!

I am also praying that i am able to live life to the fullest and have friends who will grow up together with me....we may have different preference or different responsibilities right now.... I pray that God give us time to be able to "lepak" with each other...

Dreaming of a break...

I woke up this morning feeling tired...exhausted....

maybe because i dream last night i was on a holiday with the normal group and family!! and was only awaken by my alarm... tskkk...it was only a dream...too good to be true...!!

But really my heart is missing the travelling days...

is missing the fellowships.....

cos these were the things that rejuvenated me when i was down and feeling stress....

looks like we have grown out of the seasons...we are all busy with life and have lots of responsibilities....

it will be great to take time off and go for an adventure somewhere.... but it seems that it will be in a dream that everything is possible...

#stilltakingtimetoprayforeveryone!! #livingthewaysofourlives!

  

When HE reveals bit by bit...

Now I am slowly seeing the shadows of HIS plans in my life...but I still don't understand it...

#somethingtoponder

LETIH...

Ada masa rasa letih sampai rasa satu badan sakit...sampai rasa kepala kena sengat lebah...
Ada masa rasa mcm mau give up smua benda dan buat don't care...
Ada masa rasa knp smua benda tak pernah nak ok...
Ada masa rasa hidup ini sangat susah...
Ada masa rasa hati ini sangat sunyi..

Tapi rasa masa2 macam ni lah paling sesuai ingat balik Tuhan kan...

#bilakawansudahtidaksepertikawan

what ever happens... we just have to work!

without work there is no money.....

without money...life is hard!...

SO JUST DO WORK....!!

When we die...

Birth is always a thing to be joyous and be happy...

Death...

Should also be a joyous thing because it's going home to where we belong ..to our Father's house...

but it is us that are left behind that have trouble letting go...

From dust we come...to dust we go....

Dear Tepu....
I wished that you had waited for me...
I am sorry it took me thousands of reason not to see you sooner...I hesitated...I thought too much....I counted in my head a hundred time on how much it would cost to fly to see you...and I finally decided to fly to see you ...I am too late....

I told myself that I gave bid my last farewell to you when I shook ur hand in pa umor...I told myself I was sorry if anything happened to you I won't be flying back...but I said it in my heart and didn't tell you...last Sunday I finally decided...I finally didn't care about everthing buy now it's too late..I prayed everyday that you would get better...until this evening when I knew you were suffering I prayed that God take ur suffering away...and just take you home to Him...and now you are with Him..and I know the trumpets of heaven is playing to welcome you home...you have run a good race and you have reach the finished line...Victory is yours Tepu...I bid you farewell...Rest now...For your pain is gone...

#blameitontimingandstupidmindbutalliswell
*pic was his hand holding Tepu decurs hand...till death part them...