Another Step in Life...

Finally signing S&P of my new crib...I pray that everything would be smooth and ok...I don't know how i am going to survive but i will try to keep it...sometimes i myself think that i am going crazy to go through this...and i am not even gonna stay there...but oh well it's for a good cause so why not...just take it as a charity home...the craziest thing is purchasing without even looking at it...!! i know i am crazy.. or maybe stupid to do such thing...but well i bet my parents had prayed about it...

i will try to survive with another tab on my back...and try to cut expenditure too...

Oh well everything is gonna be alright...!

Perception VS Reality

At times when we watch people around us...or people we know...can't deny that we will sometimes have the little amount of jealousy...a squirt of envyness over welm our heart...we can't help it to want what others have....richness...good life...prosperous life....i too am human when i see people who are able to just splurge on anything they want to...and do anything they want to, whenever they want to...

But i suddenly thought of people perception towards others vs the reality...

Personally our perceptions towards people also might be the opposite of reality...

people might look at me and say wow...how lucky i am to have

1. a stable job...
2. Properties...
3.Money...
4. to be able to travel....
5. no responsibility or commitments as i am single

and maybe more....

THE REALITY is
1. yeah i have a stable job which pays peanuts...and is also sucking the life out of me...(but oh well it put food on the table and pay stuffs)
2, WHAT PROPERTIES???? it comes with a long morgage ok...bayar sampai mati..itu pun kalau hidup lama
3.Money?? frankly speaking no cash flow...cos i owe money to get money..and yes sometimes i borrow money to lend to people....
4. Travelling...Credit goes up
5.I will curse and spit at you if you say this to me....!!! I have a truck load of people on my shoulder that i need to feed...care for...day and nite...but oh well i try to think they are blessings that God gave me to care for...

oh well everyone have the right to their opinion on things...there are lots of things that bothers me...its just how you take thinks...when you have lemons make ice lemon tea...

well i too am only human...and i have feelings and limitations too...but i know that the road i am taking is the road i chose to ride on...so i don;t blame anyone on what i face..but i just can't stand some F*(#king people who talks with their butt.......and some who hidup ini hanya menyusahkan hidup org saja...aku tak cakap hidup aku lebih susah or better then yours..

#notetoself:semua org pun susah...cuma kau pikir sendiri la hidup ini Tuhan pinjam kan saja pandai lah kau pikir macam mana mau hidup...!!!

Somedays you wonder....

Some days.. i wonder when do things would be better...and sometimes i do realize that not all things that happened in life are bad....but sometimes you just can't help it to feel despair....

lately i am feeling like life is full of worries....you just can't help it to worry....how do i do this? how do i cope? how do i get through these? How will i survive...?

but i wonder if i just do everything with a smile and let everything passed by like a mist...

life is a jinx right now...i will try to make it better with He who gives me strength...there lots of bills bills bills..that i need to settle...!! and my car has gone to the Doctors for diagnose....after long prolong delay...i finally come to my senses that safety should be first....i can find money later....!!

oh my i wish money do grow on lemon trees....cos i really need them right now...!

LOST....

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Life...depends on how you see it...

life really sucks for me right now...
but it all depends on how you want to feel right? it's all up to you....

why run the race if you know you can't win...??but better fail at trying then to fail not trying at all...

arghh...itu kata2 yg tipu belaka bagi aku sekarang....sebab bagi aku hari ini ...life aku sucks..! tp mungkin esok life aku akan lebih gembira...so tido lah dulu....!