When will the light at the end of the tunnel be clear....

was browsing through my pics collections and found this...which really defines the feeling that I am feeling right now...I am feeling a bit dizzy in the head...seems like everyone wants a bit and a piece of me....and I can't seem to cope....can't seem to run either...just trying to survive...trying to breath...and I come to the point where I am asking myself what is this all about..??!!...what is surviving all about...!!???

the song in the END...from linkin park seems so surreal...!!

as I look around me...the meaning of life is so blurrish...

as I search around ...people close to me seems like strangers...

there's something missing in life....

 

LIFE....

 

as every second turn to minutes..and minutes turn to hours...and hours turn to days...days to weeks....etc....

 

the next thing you know it's SEPTEMBER....!!! then when you realize it...you ask yourself a cliché question: what have you accomplish for the year???....why don't we think as "human being" and ask ourselves....how MANY Liters of BEER or Alcohols that you consume this year???? (LOL) or HOW MANY friends you took out to piggout this year???HOW many KGs you piled up this year????

 

 

call me crazy but I just want to be upnormal...UP normal...the up of the normal...!! I just can't wait for the year to end as it is means the one long year of my sabbatical of travelling... ( now where did I put my passport again?)....last year today...i was in seoul.. and it was a trip for the soul that I learned a lot...after that trip i decided to take a furlough from trips....reasons where because of financial constrained and "stuffs"...and I am glad I did it...some people may not understand why... but the whole year not travelling and not being with friends...taught me lots too...and I tell you...there's a part of me missing !! the more I with held myself...made me want to travel the world...!! I should do the travel the world in 80 days thingy....

 

so it's almost a year not travelling... these are randomness things that I thought of:

 

1. Life....there is more to life (cliché)
2. Work... how much I hate it...but it is better than (maybe) 50% of the population of the world...!!hence work is good for now....
3. Financially... with lots of mouth to feed...and I am contemplating of early retirement at 40...not long to wait...
4. A holiday....I am planning something but I just don't know what yet hahahaha...but most of all I wanna travel... travel round the world and meet more people....!!
5. Life...yes again....am thinking what is it that I want to do with my life.....

 

 

so that's it folks....the something missing in life... so far might be...:

 

 

friends...

 

a break....

 

and a nice work out.....

 

 

(oh and I miss my Chiro too.....cash is running low so I am skipping meeting her for 2 months hehehe)