*obviously....selalu dipengaruhi oleh cerita2 "karut" korea hahahhaha....i am in the midst of watching "a gentlement's dignity....." maybe to some it's not really a good story...but somehow..it made me ponder and made my heart "jitters" (is it wat you call when you feel something tingling in a sad way in your heart)
to make story short...it's about a bunch of guys who are best friends and who have been through lots together....it's kinda romantic Com actually..makes you cry and laugh at the same time.... as i am towards the ending of the drama....made me think ...do i really have this handfull of people who will be at my side during sunshine or even when storms comes...and even if my world fall... and will i be that little handfull as a friend to someone....as we get older....or advancement in the age we are in...things tends to pile up...responsibility increases....people around us get older and weaker....and we ourself become weaker in body..
as friends when we laugh we laugh together...but hopefully as a friend when you cry i can't cry for you but maybe make stupid jokes to cheer you up even though i know that even i would not laugh...and when a friend feels the weight of the world on his or her shoulders...not that i can take tat away but maybe just listening and being there would make the heart feel better even if it is for a second....
there was a time when i had a conversation with a friend that if anything was to happen to her family i promise that i will be there to rush to her side....as i watch the drama...when one of them was at the most grieving time...the rest rush to his side despite knowing the consequenses as they help him dress up for his wife's funeral....!! how much i hope that we would never face things in our life as hard as this...but can't deny things are goin to happen and things will happen...may it be death..marriage..birth...sickness...wealth...promotion...new job...
as for the long raya break...i was with families...and some i have not seen for years...i realised that i really have grown older and should be wiser...at times people put high hope on us...we should be able to live up to expectation...
i was back for my maternal great grandmother's 100th Birthday..and they keep saying that she has live thru 3 big World Wars....as i look at her and she still can recognize me as i walk in the ballroom...i was touch...(as a big drama i will always be like a star LOL as usually i was late for the party because of my flight delay...but as i walk in they said she recognize me instantly...!) despite the last minute thngy to attend..i was glad i rush back...afterall how many family member will celebrate the 100th with you...!it was a good time catching up with families...and as usuall when family come together soalan bonus mesti di tanya...as usuall i would say on the way...LOL...
birthday girl saying a prayer before blowing her birthday candles...'
