All Grown up....

the title is so cliche...it should be : getting old....but well depends how you think about it.....

i realise that i am getting old...decisions need to be made...our preference changes...i tend to live in a slower path...when enjoying is not always the objective of life...it's ,more of surviving..priorities changes...point of view change too...

i realise complaining about everything under the sun is worthless...worrying about everybody is too impossible...just living the life as it is..and knowing that SomeOne is in control of everything....

it's weird...i realise that i now love being in my own world...love thinking by myself...don't get me wrong... i too sometimes missed the noisiness of being around my friends...but everybody seems to have different priorities and interest now a days...so looks like we had outgrown each other...

notetoself:Nothing last forever...but in everything you have give thanks and cherish it dearly

Strong Foundation...

I have always been amaze on how a simple rock can be the foundation of a large house...the pic above shows how traditionally people in my village build the house... i can only imagine what will happen if an earth quake  take place...!! but as my dad says..this is how houses were build by our ancestors why worry?

Because of a few major events happening in the country and around us... you can't help it to feel insecure...is this really the end times...even as i am going through a timing that is oozing the life out of me...a big decision and can't help my mind to think that "God...i still need more time...!!"but everything seems to be happening so fast...that you can't help it but to panic!!...but am learning to be still !...

let's get back to the foundation part... i am thankful for the foundation that i have in me that... the simple and little things in life makes you stronger...!! things do happen..! and things happen for a reason...and most of the time we don't understand...but it happens..!! 

well we may not know how strong we are to face things in life...but as we look back we will say I SURVIVED it..!

I may not know if what i decide now will affect what i will go through later..but at least i tried...

i found a phrase that was said during the recent earthquake in sabah... " We either stay here and die or Die trying to get down..." it's 2 things that has extreme meaning...i would choose the trying part.. we will never know what will happen but atleast we tried!!!

so cheers mate..!! let's try to have a better life...!! at least try...

Decision...Decision...Decision....

This picture has nothing to do with the original thing that i wanted to write..but just wanted to share anyway...

Maybe it's the package in life....decision making....

the decision what field to study...which Uni or college to go...who to be friend with, who to stay away from....which girl or boy to fall in love with....which church to get married in...!! what menu to serve guests....what name to name your kid...!and the list go on and on and on...even when you die i think the decisions goes on...people will have to decide where to bury you ...when to bury you...what coffin to buy for you...what to dress you in...!! oh brother...!! 

every single person has a different way to tackle things in life...some choose to live and be merry...some choose to don't care about everybody...some choose to over care about everyone...

i know that you're having a headache now after reading this...i sure am right now...i am just a bit confuse right now..and just wanted to write something...i am in a midst of deciding a large "investment" which some people might not understand why i am doing it...at times i am myself trying to figure our why i am doing it too....decision...decision and decision...

sometimes it feels like time goes by so fast that you just don't even have time to think...what more to say pray about it...!! i know that all i must do is to pray about it and He will show a way...

the main reason of saying all this...i think i miss being able to just go somewhere and not care about things i left behind...but as a mature adult i know i can't just leave...so oh well...today is Friday..so maybe i might look for something to cheer me up...!! 

i should learn from my niece in the pic..!! just enjoy and be happy!!! no worries...when the time comes everything will be good!!