A Run away Trip

I really am lagging on my writing here....there were times i wanted to write but just couldn't find time to just sit down and start typing....

Recently i went back to my kampung....

it was an impromptu trip...just felt like i had to get away or find time to go back "home"... i am confused on where i call home.... but this place really give a different feel of life....

and this was the first time ever i flew by myself ....usually there is always someone i know flying back with me....was pretty nervous ..feeling like a child travelling alone...
it had been 3 years since i flew back there...

   lot's of things has change...they had a new plane...it's more solid then the old ones...

City kid with village kids

My father the story teller...

This time i made sure that i walk

It's always been a relief to be home here....i find tranquility and solitude....i don't know when i will be back again but someday i will be back again....

What you think is best may not be the same as others....

was visiting a long known friend in the hospital last nite...on the way to the hospital we were thinking what to buy for the sick friend...FRUITs...what fruit is suitable...what fruit is not high in sugar....as the friend was admitted because of high  BP....after browsing the fruits for sale...we finally decided...plums....not too high in sugar...

so we went to the hospital....when we arrived there...the friend was eating pizza and KFC fried Chicken...!!! hmmp...some other friends bought it and brought it to the hospital....

so moral of the story....sometimes we crack out head and thinks thats the best decision after analysing situations...but in reality it's just a personal choice....

some people would tell be why do you care? and truthfully i tell you i just don't know too....i use to think out of the box that when you care and love someone and extra effort goes a long way...or sometimes the effort becomes a routine...and it becomes something that is just...yeah...something that is just the way you do things....

this few weeks i have been bothered by the feeling of people in my circle are starting to be annoyed of me....(blame it on hormons maybe..)people that i use to be in touch with seems to be out of the picture of life...a simple sms or whatsapp might turn into a disagreement...and i am feeling that some people are ignoring me too....(maybe i am just paranoid)..there are days when i don't understand or have a clue a simple hi...is return with a cold reply...normally i would be some one who will not give up and will keep on "irritate" people with my over friendly conversation...but this bug have been hitting be and i too became cold...

i use to have this principe try for 3 or more times...if any person don't give the reply that is suppose to be... but now i stop at second time and just give up...and to make things worst...tell my heart never again will i get in touch...! so vain...!!

maybe it's just a phase where everyone needs their space...and i am just paranoid..or maybe hormons are making my mind corrupted...

recently my back started hurting again..like before...and my mind start thinking..what's the problem...is it something else..? is it something internal that was not detected...? oh well...anyway, it makes me pray more often now a days...hoping for the best...

Future Doc in da house.....

This little girl is full of surprises..... 

was shock to see that she put the stethoscope around her neck.....

Drowning....

I feel like i am drowning.....

But it's great that one can feel that your drowning...that means you are still much alive....!

Seasonal Feelings....

Sometimes there is a feeling that you're just no longer compatible with people you are close with...the connections of networking differs...the little things that you used to laugh at with each other seems to be something that irritates you....a simple question would turn out to be a thing that will lead to a big dispute....
priorities seems to be different....you get agitated to the little gesture ..the short delays...

But this might be a seasonal feeling....a feeling that is temporary....along the way in life no doubt people change... we aged....we are mentally drained...physically tired....but no doubt there are some people who really make a mark in your life that you just can't shrug off...it's like a tattoo on your body...you need a laser operation to get rid of it...

So Dear Friends...as time goes by..and long conversation turn to short notes and to long silence and awkward moments...it doesn't mean i think less of you...things are just clouding my mind and things are just getting tougher then usual....hope everything goes well and keep up the great job surviving this life....!!

Counting my little blessings each day in my life....

This morning i found this on my desk....sorry my reflex was too fast....immidietly i took one big bite.....red velvet with cream cheese.....it was yummy....!! (i didn't have time to have my breakfast today!!)

 I took my lemon infused water to me to work again...getting on the heavy side...!!this is the reason why i try to skip meals.....(Blessings of having money to buy lemons for my everyday needs)

 

this little adorable rascal is getting mischievous day by day.... but the loads of cuteness makes you think twice about scolding her......(Blessings for having someone to melt your heart after a hard days of work everyday)

For the many things that i think of complaining.... there are many little things that i think that makes my life worth counting blessings that are abundant....

Autumn in my heart....

a phenomenon has been happening around our place since the droughts .... flower on trees has been blooming extensively..... this is how it looks like everyday in front of our house lately....

Can't resist bringing these cuties for walks/rides early in the morning.....

these two are the reason i am always late to work everymorning......