is it just another ordinary day...?

today seems to be an odinary workday full of meetings....i was in the middle of chairing a meeting just now when i received a mesej saying that someone we know had just lost her mother...her mother had cancer and lost the long battle today....as i stop to look at my phone...there was a sad feeling coming through my heart...but as i put down my phone...i continue with the meeting....and as usually had a long winding meeting...and whatsaps messenges seems to have change so everyone were getting on with their lives....

as i walk in back to my room i still felt sorry for that friend...and i hope that she will get through this time of sorrow soon...and it's not fair to say that everything is ok...because it's not....and i hope that every question  that she has in her heart and head will not let her down....I pray that God gives her and her family strenght as they face times like this....as they say their goodbyes to their mother...

as i go through today...wishing that everyone have a nice and great day...knowing that it's always not as it....and we can only hope for it....i pray that one day we will get answers for questions we asked...

it's not an ordinary day today....everyday is a miracle....so be blessed!!!


Footnote: I missed being me....being me that people think that things are always ok....most of all i miss being able to fly away

Marathon completed....

i was writing in my FB that my kaibigans are crazy....first we were crazy about food....then we started this crazyness of travelling....then NOW... MARATHON....!!!

was not really feeling well and was really-2 reluctant to run the marathon...despite endless campaign from that someone....may i call it merciless campaigning...running isn't really my cup of tea...walking....cycling maybe...but not running.....

 day before the marathon...me and me bestie went for a walk...to get some sun hehehe...

 

i really wasn't feeling well...lost my voice and had fever and flu....was really2 feeling under the weather....but hmmm decided to just do it because they were doing it..... oh well...

 



 faces before the run.....we were rather late but taking our sweet time...

 

 

thanks to the bestie that  run and waited for me  the whole 10km.. i finally did it....

 



 Finished!!!

 

  got a cup....!

 

 

tired faces,,,,,,!

but above all i learn a lot from running....have to preservere...and don't give up...at least we try....

and it made me felt good too..despite sore muscles after that....

 

gonna run another marathon in May....(WHat have i gotten myself into...????)

 

when a dream is just a dream....

this morning i woke my nephew up...he open his eyes and ask: today going to school?... i don't know why but a suddent feeling of tears started to swell up my eyes...i smiled at him and said : yes...today is a school day...(mind you that this was the first time waking him up on a school day)

i wish i could tell him that we can stay in bed and sleep longer...and don't need to go to work or school today....but as reality sets in... that is just a DREAM...

i know that as he grows up he will know that it's not a choice but it is a must...to get up and go to school or work...!! i have been struggling myself this few mornings to sike myself up to wake up and go to work....telling myself i really need to really go to work...and work brings food on table...and petrol in car hehehehe...

so what ever it is....When is such a lemon....let's make lemonades!!!!!

by the way we added another addition of a Kelabit with and English Accent!!!...meet...

Elviana Ruran Kalang

3.5kg

a need to chill

today i had a ridicolously long meeting 6 hours long...i wish i could just fly somewhere and just rest 

Back From a Soul Retreat from the Far East...

Just had to find time to write about the trip

i really almost didn't go for this trip...and from the beginning of the plan to go i was even already reluctant to go...there were thousands of reason why i shouldn't go....from changing working place to money and time constrain....and i wasn't really a fan of korean people....but under much persuasion and sponsorship!"thanks glams"!! i was on my way...

even on the day we were suppose to leave too i still had to work till night to settle things...and the dumbest thing was i didn't change money earlier so i had to change at the airport...packing was done in a jiff...from office to home and to the airport...!and finally boarded the plane!!...

the first thing when touching down at incheon airport then i realise that i really was in Korea....!!! it was like a dream...!

Ironically we had mcDonalds for our first meal in Korea!!!...but as usual language was the main issue when goin to a place that people seem to be very2 proud of their mother tongue...we touched down at 8am and the next flight was to Jeju Island...at 2pm... as usual we had plenty time to roam but decided not to that the risk ...so we took the train to Gimpo Airport... and stayed there for a few hours...we seem to be better at washing up in the airport now a days hehehe...

Jeju

We were met up by 2 pastors....Pastor Kwan and Pastor Lee.... ( Nice chaps..and funny too) and we began our ayam and itik ( chicken and duck talk) as both of them don't really speak English...thank God for internet...everytime they wanted to say something they used google translation hehehe...
it was fun playing the guessing game

 

hmm i seem to have no pictures with us and both our host....(shame on me)....we were somehow "dijaga" by our hosts.....they treated us like family...like a long lost family coming back home....

 

all i can say about jeju is :

 

It's a pretty and beautiful place to go to.....the scenery is awesome there...the weather was also awesome despite the rain and warning of thyphoon sanba....

 

 

 we also went to a trick art muzium which was fun....!!!

 after that we went to a choc muzium, Pastor Kwan's church member happens to be the owner of the place .. so we entered for free...( was really blessed by God's ways-Provision)




this was "DOG" (DUCK)...

the last nite we were there we were invited for homecell...and all i can remember the food was simple but marvelous!!... (disebabkan malu malu kucing terpaksa tahan diri dari balik2 ambil makanan)

the homecell..

whom everybody tot that i was a korean....

 

in jeju we stayed at the church...and i always was curious about sleeping style in korea...and finally had a chance to try it out....the floor had heater but only certain "range" not the whole floor...very practical for saving space...



 

 

during the last day..despite rainning everyday...the sun was bright...but nyeh it was our last day....

we were given breakfast by pastor kown and his wife...sanwiches..and it was yummy....

 

  UPDATE :31 January 2013..

 

 *this was written long long time ago....and i just tot off posting it...as you can see i wrote them in the hurry and if i read it again i just can't get wat i was trying to say....this was the first phase of our trip...and i hope i can write more about the trip which happened 5 months ago...(cerita pun lapok already)

 

but all and all this trip was one of the trip that change one's mindset...and really strengthen my faith..and change the way i see HIM...and reminded me that in this world there are still  human beings that are genuinely kind...all the kindness that i received during this are priceless and i won't be able to pay even half of it...

 

so far, i have decided to put all travelling plans on hold for a moment ( until i get my priority straight), but to tell you the thruth i really miss travelling and really miss being friends who i can laugh until it hurts...

As i wish i could always do things my way.it's really not...and as i face daily life feeling like a junkyard but which isn't really that bad....and as i try to enjoy life as it is when people don't understand how....and as i try to survive this life,and as i try to lift my head up high in the society that i am living in...i know that i am not alone..for God is with me during the loneliest time...

signing out as a person that :

Loves to eat

Loves to travel

Loves to have fun

and

Loves HIM.....

 

Did you miss me?

It's been ages...and i really miss writing here....i have lot's of post pending but most of the time work catch up on me and i am left with little time on my hands.....

as some of you might already know...i am married to my work now...( just that today is exceptional...this week i am having a hard time adjusting my feelings with work) - its a love hate relationship and trying hard to work things out....and yes i love my job being able to help people and meet people from all over...and YES i hate some people around my workplace too....!but then again after moving so much...i got a hang of it...and just retrieve to retreat mode...

but anyway...just a note to tell that i am alive...but a little not well...my back is still killing me...!

BUzzy As A Bee...

Hi Everybody...i am just taking time off from work to tell you all that i am still alive and living!!!....
i am so sorry that sometimes i don't reply sms or phone calls...cause now 24 hours seems to fly away each day....from the starting of work...there would be "hundreds" of questions shooting at me...via email...phone..and not to forget the long line outside my office door....!

Yes...i have since came back from Korea trip and is dying to write about it....or even tell people about it.....!! i had reallly a mind changing trip there....but ever since i touch down from korea...i haven't have time to sit and relax.....it's like being wash by the strong currents of work and family matters....

so above all...!! God is Great...and i am still wandering the road of destiny....!! Be blessed!!