Life that should have been...!

the more i am reminded about what my faith is all about...and about the person that i put my trust or rather should put my utmost trust in...the more i realise that i have been slacking away and wasting my life worrying about things that i shouldn't be...

a simple reminder was given this morning in church that i realise that at times we should go back to basics...on really recalling the first encounter...!and in everything we should put our total trust in Him that holds our future....

been spending time with the family...and still trying to get use to being "single" and to a status being "family"...as i hear the elders speak..i realise that how our God is funny in a way He makes our life a long winding journey...yesterday was being a chaffeur of a granduncle and grandauntie...hearing them say how great God is to them that they never thought that they will be able to travel at an old age...(togou if you're reading this...remember the nenek yg masak sup ayam sedap itu??)......they were saying it was a blessing being able to still meet us as they are getting old and weak...i secretly dry my tears away...it's the time i at the my age having to think about how if things turn to the worst....how i remember when i was young...they use to look after me...and how i know the old folks spend time to pray for us the younger generations... off our daily life...for i know it was their prayer that God showed His mercy...

heartnote:*Tuhan bagi ku masa utk membalas dan menjaga org2 tua ku....!just a little while more....

Maggie Kari at 3.30am

it's 3.30 in the morning and i have a sudden craving off maggie kari with kimchi!! oh noss.....but no no no ...i can't..... this few days i have this weird habit of waking up in the wee hours and can;t get back to sleep....the worst things are the craving of food!!...haish...do you tend to get fat having cravings hahahaha...!!

today is my last day in the office before moving to the new place...!!ho ho ho...never thought it would only last for 1 year 1 month and 1 day....(rasa macam mo p beli 4d)..but all is well...i learned many things...

*oh ya..i am proud of myself of having a ticketless year of driving...for the first time since i got geri!! it has been 3 years..and it marked the years that my kaibigans and me started travelling out of the country...!! fuh guys...we have gone lots of places together huh? everytime i see my car thats what it reminds me off...starting of the chops in our passports!! long way to go to see the world...!!cheers...many more to go k....!( be it in group or individually)....keep on growing and never stop!! LOL

when it gets hard to give thanks....

thing that i am sure that most of usney of  have been through a phase that we just can't seem to see the bright side about anything we do or anything that we are going through...there are times that it feels like a journey in the desert...but as the saying goes...one must go through the desert to realise their own potentials...and see the real "tujuan hidup"....

as time goes..as i walk thru the soil of droughts....i realise somethings....i realise i have somethings that God had given to me that i took for granted...

i love this pic above....while taking this,my heart was moved....and there was a tear in my eyes that i pretended that there was dust in it....this was when i realised that who good God has been to me to have given me such great parents...who are imperfect in their own ways but the imperfectness makes them special....indeed i know sometimes they just can't stand each other but i know they need each other so much everyday in their life....this holiday trip together with them this time made me realise that i have not spend enough time with them and have not make enough afford to make them happy...

this trip was a diffrent one ..and i think i really was transparent to them about how life has been...how hard work has been...how faith is taking a toil in life...and they too told about how life was hard when they were young...i could see how much they sacrifice to put me through school....college... uni....

being with the family for a while made me taking God on how He has blessed my life through little things...

*knp lah perut ku nampak buncits sini??!!! its' not like tat in real life!!! hahahahha (tetiba spoil mood post ni)

as i prepared for this trip i realise that it took a reversal role...it was me looking after them...it was my turn to prepare everything..it was my turn to worry about stuffs...financially...bookings...security??!! hehe

but all is well in His time....and i realised how wonderfull He has been to me...as i walk thru this life whether it will be a lonely journey, i will have to remind myself to consult Him for the map of life....

 and as i live life as it is...i want to be able to know that i came to this world with nothing...and everything i own belongs is given by Him...

 this little beauty was scared of me when she was here...but she got used to me the last day they were here...nyeh and it was time for them to leave....this shows how little time i had with the family at home...i must make time..!

i had fun with the whole family being here...and it made me realise how blessed i am....even though i might not have a penny in my wallet...but i can't doubt the blessings God has provided me....

*reminder to self...do not doubt the richness of the Creator..for everything is in His hands....!!

Moving again!

after 1 year 1 month and 1 day...!

finally i am moving again....

pray for the best....

i am tired d

the grass across the fence always seems to be greener..

when you come to think of it...you can't help but to always think that the person next to you is always luckier...!it might seems to be...but is it really?

having 2 weeks of "break" from the real world ...and ending it with a lonely heart... makes me think which life is my "real" life..if given a choice i would not have choosen this path...

but smua dalam tangan Dia dan Dia yg menjaga...right? this is the part yang susah mo instill in ones heart...even if we tell ourself over and over again ....once in a while there are cracks in our heart that give way....

really thinking and trying to plan whats the next step in life is really a hard thing to do when you're stuck!...having gone thru half of this year...i have decided to dedicate the next 6 months to just believing that He will lead and guide...and i just have to really trust...put my trust in Him...and just live life as it is the last...! Just Do it!!!

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after spending time with the parents and family...i realise that i am really missing out on lot's of things...and slacking too on being responsible...so i must step up and run full speed ahead!!...tapi ENJOY pasti tetap...!! Jollie pun patut tetaps juga...!!

Trying to imitate!

last saturday i was having this crazy craving....but was trying to stop myself ....!!!

but anyway...i decided to creat an imitation of what i wanted to eat....!

i was craving the lipat atas...ahahah foldo-ver lah..!

so i went to supermarket near my house and got some things and started creating....! it was really easy..and extra yummylicious cos i knew what was in my food...i love lot's of fresh vege so i put extra!!!

and then tadaaaaaaaaaaaaa.....!

sorry didn't have the whole pics of it cos i was really2 too hungry and couldn't wait....

it's a new day.. a new week...picking myself up..after overloaded of food during the weekend....i had a full laksa sunday yesterday....i cook up a huge pot of laksa soup so i went to puan and encik's house to share with them for lunch that was after i had a huge bowl ok laksa myself at home...and we had laksa for dinner too....then lepaks2 until midnite last nite...! then woke up today saying haiyahhhhhhhh...and singing Again and Again...!! 2pm hehee

have a nice day peeps!

Mazmur 43

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