ReSoLution:2010-Penilaian...Semak Semula...

As a servant of the Goverment..at every end of the year there always seem to have this semakan semula thingy....or a round up thing..... i was browsing my blog and i saw this....http://jenkays.blogspot.com/2010/01/resolution2010.html

Senarai2 nya:
1. Cuba utk lebih dekat dengan my Creator...! (erm rasanya kurang berjaya...cuba lagi tahun depan)

2.Cuba utk lebih spend time dengan family and Friends... rasa nya ada juga lah...

3.Cuba utk gaya hidup sihat...  I went gyming..atleast..and i think i am lighter
a)Jogging skali skala & Exercise slalu...if it takes just to lift my little finger..  rujuk no.3
b)try to stay away of junkfood...fast food...and soft drinks...(i said try k...)c)mo kasi kurus...(shed sikit lah...50kg impposible lah ) takkan tercapai...

4.Cuba fikir tentang masa depan yang blur..
a)maybe really look for things yg boleh buat duit... ada jg percubaan menanam duit..waiting for it to grow
b)cuba planning2 expending hidup lah...! (siapa ada calon sila kemukakan hahaha...) (Tuhan ko ada preserve or reserve kah utk me? (hope my purpo wedding will come true) Blum ada tanda2 lagi ni...

5.Play more goof more....tahun 2010 aku mo party hard...!! this year aku rasa aku boleh sudah dance...!! and jalan2 byk byk....amik gambar yg paling gila2....!(k mari kabigans..kita buat quest to get the gooffess and stupidess gambar for 2010...-i didn't get to dance..rasa lebih matang this year...i'll updet on photoes in another post..but whilst travelling i made myself a new friend...part jalan byk2 yes byk berjalan this year...kamon!!! i naik gunung kinabalu k this year...!!! Jalan kaki with my lazy kabigans in vietnam...byk tangga kami naik..!jakarta was fine...(mis the apartment) Travelled to 2 countries..

Oh well,not bad....
as i look at most of my post the whole year...I really had a rather bad year...but looking at things i did well and didn't give up..didn't run away...i just redah saja keadaan2...i hope and wish the new year ahead will be better...i know now why God had chosen me to go up the mountain earlier this year..cos He needed to teach me the journey of trying and struggling alone to keep me alive the whole year....masa betul2 mo give up..just have to walk..even though sakit just have to carry on ...

i think i really need to have a personal retreat or a day to buang sial..eh no..to throw everything yg tidak happy and give thanks..!Semua baik2 aja..not all are bad....i gain some friends a long the way this year...i fell in love this year..(boleh kan jatuh cinta sama byk benda) ...had a broken heart too..but ya sudahlah...smua baik2 aja....

this was wat i wrote after the first month 2010 http://jenkays.blogspot.com/2010/01/1-month-has-gonegoing-2nd.html

kesimpulan di hati: sometimes mankind are just cruel...but we just have to carry on..kalau tidak threat diri sendiri lebih bagus...macam mana mo harap org treat kita..Just have to carry on breathing...CINTA itu hanya perasaan..Kehendak Tuhan lebih penting..k..

Takkan Kau biarkan aku melangkah bersendirian...

Peeping Tom

A mocking bird came to spy whether i was in...

i love the part when i ignore people..and the mocking bird will come to spy....;P

Fudnote:sometime i amuse me...

Second Best

when you can't get the best...

it might be right to settle for 2nd best....

When we start to hate our own life... hate our job...hate people around us...just get a sip of a pinacolada and enjoy the breeze at the seaside..( aku tau ini tidak mungkin...tapi welll..watever it is...we still need our job...boleh janji kah kerja baru bagi kita kebahagiaan...!)

at times we have to push ourself not because we want to but we just have to...just gotta do it..

*this was the effect that came from "bunning" this evening with puan...we tried to make buns...and we followed all the ingredients and steps..even talk to the master it self how to make...! but our first try just failed big time..it came out like cookies...and we made 2nd batch it was a bit better then the first...but the first one tasted like siewpau..maybe all wat we aspect might not come in our way..the 2nd best is not as bad..when it turns out to be something else...!Don't get me wrong when i say just settle for the 2nd best...


Fudnote:semakin hari semakin dekat dgn hujung tahun...bila pandang sepanjang tahun. bertanya soalan...!What have i done the whole year?

Mempunya Hati selembut salju...!

Sang pemimpi hidupkan semangat balik..."boii..itu namanya kuda stallion.."

Arai ingin menjadi koboi...aku menjadi india.....jimron...bermimpi lebih jauh lagi.................KUDA...!

I've been feelin down lately...

for the thing that i wanted so much that i can't seem to have it..not can't but thinking of the circumstances that comes with it...there's a thing that i have been saving and wanted so much...and when it was time to get it ...there was a chemical reaction....i had mix feelin...and something bothered me...dan someone "tampar me"....it was a long ride home that i felt that my heart was broken into pieces...i cried the whole way home...

semacam dunia ni itu saja benda yg mampu buat diri sendiri gembira walaupun sekejap...there are things that you just really want in your life just to make urself happy...been down for  a week now...selalu nya buat benda utk org selalu bagi org...tapi ....

after a week of sulking i realise...ada benda yg kita perlu utk bagi pada diri sendiri supaya kita lebih semangat!

memang semangat ini patah beberapa minggu ni...! tired....confuse...and dried...

dan tengahari ni instead of goin out...aku tiba2 terasa hendak melihat movie SP ini kembali...!dan boleh rasa semangat aku hidup kembali sedikit...sebab byk perkara yang kita tidak akan paham berlaku dalam hidup...kita simpan2 dan detik tiba...mungkin perkara itu perlu di KIV kan sahaja....

i forgot of why i should think of people around me first...and it's not always about me....lupa sebentar bahawa dari dulu sudah buat keputusan utk membuat pertimbangan org sekitar dahulu...I AM NOT A PERSON YANG BILA INGIN KAN SESUATU AKAN DAPATKAN SEBAB SENDIRI MAU...!

Maka nya teringat segala sesuatu ada masa nya..kita lakukan sesuatu bukan utk mengharapkan sesuatu kembali..tp bila kita lakukan nya lakukan seperti inginkan org lakukan kepada diri kita...!

it must be the end of the year that i am feelin the edgyness and tempering..!

WHAT HAVE I DONE in 2010...

mungkin sebab smua benda yg ada di depan mata yang diingini hati ...memang tidak boleh dimiliki..!!

(can't deny ada masa merasakan just go for it...dan pikir later)

Fudnote:Aku ingin bermimpi jauh...!sekarang mungkin tidak tau apa di depan ku..tapi yakin Dia yang menopang..!

Sushi with Different sets of people...!

When the saying life is just like a box of chocolates is true...you may not know what's instore for you ...
Sometimes i seem to have fun lot's of fun...but sometimes it's just giving up all the way.... and it ain't fun no more...(tapi kalau beli choc satu jenis macam mana?)
being with different sets of people sometimes affects you...and it affects your decisions too...i kinda want to call it a domino effects...when one person saying can affect one's decision about something....sorang cakap sedap..dan org lain automatik akan cakap sedap juga...org itu cakap tidak mau dan akan menyebabkan org lain tidak mau juga...! strange but true...
sometimes it's just funny looking and realising it...but it's true...and sometimes it annoys the hell out of me..well, it's just the Domino Effects...when one falls all falls...! i kinda use to hate the phrase mana-mana saja...but now i kinda missed that....cos mana-2 is much better then Domino effect...

i have some "induviduals" that i feel best being in a group with...being best being alone with..and being best being a far from....being best as strangers...being best just a friend...

*gambar dan tajuk tidak relevan dgn post....!

Fudnote:Tuhan...aku rindu...aku mau....dekat...

Life is like Lemon Lime....

Apa perasan korang if Bos korang yang berbulan2 ignoring you..and masam2 muka with you...tetiba awal pagi masuk ofis ko and then senyum2....

rupanya anak mo masuk belajar...suruh urus...!! Damn it...! Darn It..typical...!

Dah lah lambat sudah..borang pun tidak lengkap..!


fudnote: bila korang jadi org besar nanti..pandang2 lah hati org2 kecik!!

it's made of glass...and it's broken into thousand pieces...

There are times that little things can break your spirit....little tiny words...little tiny gestures...

these are some of the days that little little thing will just lead me to just give up everything...

i wonder too why ...such a little thing can breaks one's hope...I hate the feelin of unable to decide things... and i hate the feelin of feelin guilty...and i hate most of all the feelin of being dumb...

benda ini membuat smua harapan down..it shouldn't be but it did....Hati terasa semacam digaul2 dengan garam kasar....(anyone...Hati separuh masak??)

But i kindda guess ada answer..

jawapan nya...

YA SUDAH LAH...!!(lagu berkumandang...)

wat ever it is...i have learned...but bagi lah beberapa hari utk cuci2 smua garam2 dari hati...sebab terasa sampai ke perut...! i have learned...and never...never will it happen again..! Jom hati..kita p jalan2 dan relax2...jgn kacau hidup org lain..! kita p bungee jumping...


Fudnote: semua org ada alasan tersendiri...dan hati kita berbeza2...hati bila di hancur..terasa sampai seluruh badan..! Jane...can i just HATE u for a while....!