Help needed

Tuhan Tolong lah....!

i need help...strength...wisdom...and patience...lots of it...!
lots of it right now....

Fudnote:smlm tengok di cermin...rambut putih ku semakin byk...

Kau beri yang ku pinta...!

been hearing this background song for days now...realising how it makes me feel inside...!! not always that i ask much...not always i get much either...


i am glad that i feel very tired this few days...that i realise that all i need is His strength to carry on...!with all the things happening around me...! the BIGGEST restructuring at work...!(which i found myself to careless..but deep down inside i am scared to death till i can pee in my pants...)work pilling in and i just can't cope!...decisions need to be made...!Hearts need to be impress..(which i am not gonna do...)...financial reconstruction that i need to do personally...!expectation that need to be fulfilled...! WHAT THE HECK!!!..i wish i could just throw everything out the window and move to the country side and sit in front of my porch looking at the stars sipping my liquor (i would say coffee but i don't drink coffee)

this life is so in a mess right now that i know there be something big instore but i just need to just let HIM have His way...I know this world is not easy...people are not easy...especially when they discriminate you based on your religion...treat you like ass when it comes to being fair...! takpa lah..kita smua akan diadili at the end of this race...! so i couldn't careless of people at work..!

love this wikipedia boy !! didn;t know he did that expression..we were suppose to say O....!

Kepala ku makin sakit hari ni...! i think kalau esok masih sama i need painkiller!!.. or ada org mo ikut sama2 p therapy makan atau shopping?

fudnote: last nite i bit my tongue so hard it bleed...!aku nangis sorang2..!lidah ku kini berlubang di tengah2....

Living in a buble..

Have you ever felt that you've been living in a buble...this few days i have been feeling that my head is in a big bubble....the feeling that you can fly...and when you want to express urself you just can't...and like you're floating in a stream....

can someone come and help me pop this bubble......?

Swollen Eye...and a Bad Headache!

Woke up this morning...drag myself to the shower...

got ready for work..

came to work...

Darn it...

Mata-mata ku bengkak ni hari....

kepala rasa mo pecah...

Fudnote:Tuhan..is it ok if i ask You WHY??...rasanya aku yg tak tahan kerja sini tapi org lain pulak yg berhenti..!

Old is the word!

Hot sun + long trip = tired + getting old!

i come to realise that i am getting old...nah..shud i say i admit that age is really catching up...is having a splitting headache...!and is starting a new week with a moan..!

Darn..maka nya bermula jadual yg padat bekerja sama kumpulan bengongs...sampai i leave for my christmas holidays...! ironically 5 days away when i walk in today like i had never left this place..!my head is spinning and am bombarded by complains and complains and it's only 8.22am on a monday morning!!

God please help to breath and to survive the month of december...!

fudnotes:  i realise too that i can't drive too long ...espeacially when it's not my own car...and the sun is burning my eyes..!Never again!!.

13 November

I am being blessed and remembering of who my CREATOR is....

and knowing how sad it might be to have your subjects stray away from You and always complainning about the bullshit life we're going through

I am blessed to know that i am LOVED by lots...and is in lots of people's heart....(i always wondered do people think of me often?)

sometimes i wish for a grand party entrance for my birthday..NOTTTTTTTTTTT... i wish for a quite birthday to share with loves ones and to reflect of what life is suppose to be ...full of abundent blessings! overflowing gifts of life until i don't notice most of them....

the one person i remembered the most today is my mom..! she carried me for 9 months and 10 days...(hence the stuborness in me since before birth...refusing to come out)..and during the 9 months 7 months she was in and out of the hospital with bad morning sickness...and went through hours n hours2 of labour...! i thank God for my mom who brought me to this earth on the 13 of November...!

i wanted to threat myself with shopping spree..! took out my money and went shopping....went to KLCC...isetan mark n spencer..parkson and even zara..! Nike...adidas...i went to zara and saw this nice shirt...! i wanted to try...tanya..."abang, ini ada XL...." only to be answered back in a pondaness voice....tak der kak...sini paling besar L........"cilakas ....nak aku lempang saja dia tu and bakar saja itu kedai...!

i went to al iksan wanted to get the travelling sandle..tiada yg bergaya dan canteks pulak...!! went to parkson again in kajang...couldn't find anything ada try on googles brand baju which i like...! damn cilakas aku udah gumuk!!! tia muat pun XL....!!!

finally with the clock ticking..and with 1k...! i rest my case...and................

when to giant and spend RM21.95

buying:

Tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....(korang tidak rasa benda2 ini macam cubaan mau membunuh diri saja kah?) *sinki dapur selalu blocked bah..hehehe..........

SO that's it ..how i wanted to spend RM1k of the golden dreams i always wanted to do...!! shop with RM1k on my birthday!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SELF....!!

*i got cupcakes...a song sang by someone...2 iphone pics...half of a real iphone...1 HTC handphone...1 tiket flight (tunggu 0.00) a mangkuk of siput!!...lots of wishes via FB and SMSes...a meal in burger kings...!

I AM BLESSED...!

Without Her i am none..

my mom

a tired grandma who couldn't catch up with her cheeky grandson...!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MA!