Love the Outdoor...

Went to a kebun last Saturday with the family...I found a way do distress myself...by going to pick fruits in a fruit garden...despite the nyamuks and hot sun...I still had fun...

been having tones of stress at work with changing of bosses..and staffs..but had a great day distressing...

Selfless vs Selfish...

life is suppose to be selfless and humble...
but when you have been brought up to always be selfless and humble...you tend to live a life...or should I say atleast try to be selfless...
Being Selfless is something someone should work hard on...and sometimes it just end up naturally...and as seems like natural even without noticing it....

Suddenly to be asked by someone (really close) :why are you so selfless...or Too Selfless...

sometime can make person who is selfless to end up to be a selfish person (completely)...it is not known why....but maybe it's like a reflex...like you telling a person all his or her life from the beginning was wrong...

try telling a selfish person the samething...I think the result will be opposite cos a selfish person will never understand why they should change anyway....

so the next time you see someone close to you being so selfless until it may seem it is hurting them please don't discourage...just complement...cos they are already having a hard time without wanting to acknowledge it...it's atleast better to have 1 more selfless person in your life then to add another selfish person...and have a less person who selflessly was your devoted friend....

foodnote:Bila org mau tolong biar mereka tolong aja...sebab mana tau membantu org dia rasa diri dia dibantu...tp jgn pernah ambil kesempatan sebab si kawan itu pun akan ada masa dia letih...Dan akan berhenti...Dan kadangkala bila berhenti itu akan menyebabkan hidup dia hilang pedoman sebab dia sudah tidak tau tujuan hidup dia yg selama ini...Dan ya...Maka kamu hanya hilang sorg sahabat...tp sahabat kamu hilang HIDUP dia...

Nyawa

Pernahkah korang doa supaya Tuhan jangan cabutkan nyawa kau dulu...

today while driving home I felt pressure in the back of my head and felt it would pop...I prayed so hard that God won't take my life there and then...Was not feeling well since Sunday...so it's almost a week...Dr said it was a nasty throat infections...that's why I had fever and my BP was high...mom was panicked too because I almost never get bedridden...so now I am on antibiotics and some pills that makes me groggy most of the time...i finally when to work after 3 days of MC.. but was still high on medication!

baru tau sayang nyawa....baru tau sayang masa...baru tau sayang semua benda yang ada...baru tau sayang diri....

Questioning : If OnLY?? and Why??

Last saturday we were shock to hear the news of an aunty who passed away suddenly...!!and yes she was younger then my parents...
She's an aunty close to the heart since our childhood days....her daughter said there was no sign at all.... she was cooking lunch and then she collapse...and was pronounce dead 11.30pm....

when we heard the news we were exactly going out on a outing together with my parents friends from when they were young and serving together in the same ministry...all i could do was secretly wipe my tears our when we were talking about the aunty....i cannot imagine if it would happen to me....i think i would go hysterically or maybe insane....! but one thing my mom said was.." We should cherish the little time we have together..." we ended up spending the whole day lepaking with the aunties and uncles.....

All i could think of is God please..please give me more time and get me ready for things like these.....!!

I am also praying that i am able to live life to the fullest and have friends who will grow up together with me....we may have different preference or different responsibilities right now.... I pray that God give us time to be able to "lepak" with each other...

Dreaming of a break...

I woke up this morning feeling tired...exhausted....

maybe because i dream last night i was on a holiday with the normal group and family!! and was only awaken by my alarm... tskkk...it was only a dream...too good to be true...!!

But really my heart is missing the travelling days...

is missing the fellowships.....

cos these were the things that rejuvenated me when i was down and feeling stress....

looks like we have grown out of the seasons...we are all busy with life and have lots of responsibilities....

it will be great to take time off and go for an adventure somewhere.... but it seems that it will be in a dream that everything is possible...

#stilltakingtimetoprayforeveryone!! #livingthewaysofourlives!

  

When HE reveals bit by bit...

Now I am slowly seeing the shadows of HIS plans in my life...but I still don't understand it...

#somethingtoponder

LETIH...

Ada masa rasa letih sampai rasa satu badan sakit...sampai rasa kepala kena sengat lebah...
Ada masa rasa mcm mau give up smua benda dan buat don't care...
Ada masa rasa knp smua benda tak pernah nak ok...
Ada masa rasa hidup ini sangat susah...
Ada masa rasa hati ini sangat sunyi..

Tapi rasa masa2 macam ni lah paling sesuai ingat balik Tuhan kan...

#bilakawansudahtidaksepertikawan