what ever happens... we just have to work!

without work there is no money.....

without money...life is hard!...

SO JUST DO WORK....!!

When we die...

Birth is always a thing to be joyous and be happy...

Death...

Should also be a joyous thing because it's going home to where we belong ..to our Father's house...

but it is us that are left behind that have trouble letting go...

From dust we come...to dust we go....

Dear Tepu....
I wished that you had waited for me...
I am sorry it took me thousands of reason not to see you sooner...I hesitated...I thought too much....I counted in my head a hundred time on how much it would cost to fly to see you...and I finally decided to fly to see you ...I am too late....

I told myself that I gave bid my last farewell to you when I shook ur hand in pa umor...I told myself I was sorry if anything happened to you I won't be flying back...but I said it in my heart and didn't tell you...last Sunday I finally decided...I finally didn't care about everthing buy now it's too late..I prayed everyday that you would get better...until this evening when I knew you were suffering I prayed that God take ur suffering away...and just take you home to Him...and now you are with Him..and I know the trumpets of heaven is playing to welcome you home...you have run a good race and you have reach the finished line...Victory is yours Tepu...I bid you farewell...Rest now...For your pain is gone...

#blameitontimingandstupidmindbutalliswell
*pic was his hand holding Tepu decurs hand...till death part them...

It's the year 2016...

it's a new year... and i am just greatful that everyone is healthy and well and alive....


2015 was a tough year to ride...but it ended well...2015 i had to make most of the difficult decisions in life...but am grateful that i made those decisions...and 2016 is the year i sow because of those decisions made...may it be more debt..more things to pay..but i think the year 2016 will be the year i place my utmost hope in Him...i don't know how i will go through the year...but i know if i trust in Him..and hold tight on Him i will be able....

i just came back from Bario after 10 days there...and that 10 days once again really made me remember how i must be faithfull and really trust Him no matter what...I learned that once again i will have to learn to trust Him in everything i do... And how simple our faith is..how thin i mean...there was one day when i really hope God would not make the day rain...and it rained hard...i really sat down and just cried!!!i had not cried like that for so long...we had an important Day that day...and we prayed for good weather...but it rained as hard it could get...and of all the day that day we didn't have water in Pa umor...i had to take my shower in the rain....(i think the reason it rained cos we had to shower)... and that night too was the first time after so long i walked home to Pa ukat at night... I had 1000 things to complain about..but i realized that i just had to trust Him..and just be well...

I carried a few "buan" of padi everyday from the padi field to the house...and made me realise how much sacrifices my grandparents and parents had done..to put food on our table to eat...how hard it was for them...how heavy loads they carry...i didn't need to do that... but i was the youngest among them in the field...i couldn't just let my aunty who was 70 years all carry the loads...i carried till my back couldn't stand.. but i had no right to complain...but i thank God i didn't hurt my back...i realised that life wasn't as hard if you really try and just preserver...

So this 2016

I think i am gonna be more laid back...more relax...and enjoy more...this year one of my gold is to renovate the Miri House..finally got to called it my House!! or rather Home...i am gonna spend more time flying back to miri more often this year...spend more time with the old folks...everyone is getting older...so i just wanna spend more time while we have time left...

i am gonna pay less attention to work this year..i have done enough...i will just do whatever need and nothing more...

HOPE EVERYBODY HAVE A GREAT YEAR AHEAD... LET"S DO MORE TRUSTING AND MORE HOPE IN HIM...!!

What a day....

The kenari broke down in the middle of the road...had to jump start and in went kaput again and kaput in the middle of the road....It was indeed a day
...

# too tired and too angry to post

Happy Born Day...Dy...

How wonderful that God created us in His special way...and from different parents only to prepare us to cross each others path to be a support system to each other in sadness and in happy times...trouble times too...as strangers we met and ended up closes as family...and I know we have not been in contact with each other more often than we use too..but I need to tell you I think of you often and say a little prayer for you and your family too...

last December my whole family literally accepted your family as our real family...and we were all thankfully for you guys being there...Thank you...

and the part of sending kacangma...when we needed them...Thank you too

thank you for being a friend and Have a Happy Birthday

DECEMBER is here....

December is finally here....and i think i just missed Nov...

December always seems to be one of my favorite month....and it's the month i seem to don't care about work...an anticipate the long holidays.... Oh how i just LOVE December....

December seems to be the month that what ever happens i'll still know that everything will be ok...it's just a month of me being carefree...!!

oh well 11 months have passed for the year of 2015...right now i really can't remember what happen the whole year...but all i know that or i think is 2015 was the year i devoted myself to my family...being with family was what that matters...i kinda missed a lot of doing things with friends..or being able to go out freely..but i think time has change and commitment are different.. i have learned to adapt...i learned to make decisions...even if it was hard...and i too learned how to struggle my own journey....and i learn how to really hope and put my utmost trust in Him..

i hope December will be filled with Love...and Happiness...will be back to the old kampung in 18 days...and can't wait...but before that i need to run some errands...


Cheers everyone and have fun in December...!!