Perception VS Reality

At times when we watch people around us...or people we know...can't deny that we will sometimes have the little amount of jealousy...a squirt of envyness over welm our heart...we can't help it to want what others have....richness...good life...prosperous life....i too am human when i see people who are able to just splurge on anything they want to...and do anything they want to, whenever they want to...

But i suddenly thought of people perception towards others vs the reality...

Personally our perceptions towards people also might be the opposite of reality...

people might look at me and say wow...how lucky i am to have

1. a stable job...
2. Properties...
3.Money...
4. to be able to travel....
5. no responsibility or commitments as i am single

and maybe more....

THE REALITY is
1. yeah i have a stable job which pays peanuts...and is also sucking the life out of me...(but oh well it put food on the table and pay stuffs)
2, WHAT PROPERTIES???? it comes with a long morgage ok...bayar sampai mati..itu pun kalau hidup lama
3.Money?? frankly speaking no cash flow...cos i owe money to get money..and yes sometimes i borrow money to lend to people....
4. Travelling...Credit goes up
5.I will curse and spit at you if you say this to me....!!! I have a truck load of people on my shoulder that i need to feed...care for...day and nite...but oh well i try to think they are blessings that God gave me to care for...

oh well everyone have the right to their opinion on things...there are lots of things that bothers me...its just how you take thinks...when you have lemons make ice lemon tea...

well i too am only human...and i have feelings and limitations too...but i know that the road i am taking is the road i chose to ride on...so i don;t blame anyone on what i face..but i just can't stand some F*(#king people who talks with their butt.......and some who hidup ini hanya menyusahkan hidup org saja...aku tak cakap hidup aku lebih susah or better then yours..

#notetoself:semua org pun susah...cuma kau pikir sendiri la hidup ini Tuhan pinjam kan saja pandai lah kau pikir macam mana mau hidup...!!!

Somedays you wonder....

Some days.. i wonder when do things would be better...and sometimes i do realize that not all things that happened in life are bad....but sometimes you just can't help it to feel despair....

lately i am feeling like life is full of worries....you just can't help it to worry....how do i do this? how do i cope? how do i get through these? How will i survive...?

but i wonder if i just do everything with a smile and let everything passed by like a mist...

life is a jinx right now...i will try to make it better with He who gives me strength...there lots of bills bills bills..that i need to settle...!! and my car has gone to the Doctors for diagnose....after long prolong delay...i finally come to my senses that safety should be first....i can find money later....!!

oh my i wish money do grow on lemon trees....cos i really need them right now...!

LOST....

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boleh menyebabkan iman kita retak....

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Life...depends on how you see it...

life really sucks for me right now...
but it all depends on how you want to feel right? it's all up to you....

why run the race if you know you can't win...??but better fail at trying then to fail not trying at all...

arghh...itu kata2 yg tipu belaka bagi aku sekarang....sebab bagi aku hari ini ...life aku sucks..! tp mungkin esok life aku akan lebih gembira...so tido lah dulu....!

All Grown up....

the title is so cliche...it should be : getting old....but well depends how you think about it.....

i realise that i am getting old...decisions need to be made...our preference changes...i tend to live in a slower path...when enjoying is not always the objective of life...it's ,more of surviving..priorities changes...point of view change too...

i realise complaining about everything under the sun is worthless...worrying about everybody is too impossible...just living the life as it is..and knowing that SomeOne is in control of everything....

it's weird...i realise that i now love being in my own world...love thinking by myself...don't get me wrong... i too sometimes missed the noisiness of being around my friends...but everybody seems to have different priorities and interest now a days...so looks like we had outgrown each other...

notetoself:Nothing last forever...but in everything you have give thanks and cherish it dearly

Strong Foundation...

I have always been amaze on how a simple rock can be the foundation of a large house...the pic above shows how traditionally people in my village build the house... i can only imagine what will happen if an earth quake  take place...!! but as my dad says..this is how houses were build by our ancestors why worry?

Because of a few major events happening in the country and around us... you can't help it to feel insecure...is this really the end times...even as i am going through a timing that is oozing the life out of me...a big decision and can't help my mind to think that "God...i still need more time...!!"but everything seems to be happening so fast...that you can't help it but to panic!!...but am learning to be still !...

let's get back to the foundation part... i am thankful for the foundation that i have in me that... the simple and little things in life makes you stronger...!! things do happen..! and things happen for a reason...and most of the time we don't understand...but it happens..!! 

well we may not know how strong we are to face things in life...but as we look back we will say I SURVIVED it..!

I may not know if what i decide now will affect what i will go through later..but at least i tried...

i found a phrase that was said during the recent earthquake in sabah... " We either stay here and die or Die trying to get down..." it's 2 things that has extreme meaning...i would choose the trying part.. we will never know what will happen but atleast we tried!!!

so cheers mate..!! let's try to have a better life...!! at least try...

Decision...Decision...Decision....

This picture has nothing to do with the original thing that i wanted to write..but just wanted to share anyway...

Maybe it's the package in life....decision making....

the decision what field to study...which Uni or college to go...who to be friend with, who to stay away from....which girl or boy to fall in love with....which church to get married in...!! what menu to serve guests....what name to name your kid...!and the list go on and on and on...even when you die i think the decisions goes on...people will have to decide where to bury you ...when to bury you...what coffin to buy for you...what to dress you in...!! oh brother...!! 

every single person has a different way to tackle things in life...some choose to live and be merry...some choose to don't care about everybody...some choose to over care about everyone...

i know that you're having a headache now after reading this...i sure am right now...i am just a bit confuse right now..and just wanted to write something...i am in a midst of deciding a large "investment" which some people might not understand why i am doing it...at times i am myself trying to figure our why i am doing it too....decision...decision and decision...

sometimes it feels like time goes by so fast that you just don't even have time to think...what more to say pray about it...!! i know that all i must do is to pray about it and He will show a way...

the main reason of saying all this...i think i miss being able to just go somewhere and not care about things i left behind...but as a mature adult i know i can't just leave...so oh well...today is Friday..so maybe i might look for something to cheer me up...!! 

i should learn from my niece in the pic..!! just enjoy and be happy!!! no worries...when the time comes everything will be good!!